kev/the\dood
Greenlighter
Brand new to this forum actually to this whole website in fact. I am. Born again junkie which is something that I dont like but hey what can I say. Its very real and im not about living in some kind of fantasy world. Or is that what happens when your in to deep using heroin. So far deep that you can't even find the means to quit and say that your ok in this society. So when I think about the idea of being in the legitimate world I don't really think I can say I am. I don't know if anyone else using heroin relates to my weak connection to the world normal people live in. By normal I mean not addicted to drugs and actually making a living far from the drug culture.
I certainly do not got in the realm. Needless to say I am in a love hate relationship with my mistress heroin. It sucks at the same time its really awrsome. The only part I hate is the lying, conning, sketchy, sketchy , stealing type of people also the low potientency dope. I used hated myself so much due to those poor qualites that even exist. So I feel like I can pass judgment on the specific type of people i vaugely listed. Only cause I used to be that person. It only turns people into greedy self centered assholes that only care about one thing and it happens once they get a taste in the first few months of using. Only once do they learn if you want to survive and make it using this drug you need to build some type of credible name for yourself or a have a really good facade. No one wants to be fake though, that only means your a coward and cannot be yourself due to insecurities that have you burrowed in a shell. I learned that if you want to be the type of junkie that takes takes takes is going to end up in jail or dead. So be careful on how you decide to conduct yourself. Assuming your on this site or even reading this post you know what I'm talking about.. And you know how to handle yourself and your DoC for the new ones. Well there is a lot of hell to bare before learning how to manage and even with experience and all the knowledge your mind can handle. Still comes moments in time where you find yourself standing at the edge of a false ideal picture , crashing down and crumbling right in front of you. Then your wondering what to do with yourself and questioning why you even tried it. It happens to us all. Thanks for reading my rant.
I certainly do not got in the realm. Needless to say I am in a love hate relationship with my mistress heroin. It sucks at the same time its really awrsome. The only part I hate is the lying, conning, sketchy, sketchy , stealing type of people also the low potientency dope. I used hated myself so much due to those poor qualites that even exist. So I feel like I can pass judgment on the specific type of people i vaugely listed. Only cause I used to be that person. It only turns people into greedy self centered assholes that only care about one thing and it happens once they get a taste in the first few months of using. Only once do they learn if you want to survive and make it using this drug you need to build some type of credible name for yourself or a have a really good facade. No one wants to be fake though, that only means your a coward and cannot be yourself due to insecurities that have you burrowed in a shell. I learned that if you want to be the type of junkie that takes takes takes is going to end up in jail or dead. So be careful on how you decide to conduct yourself. Assuming your on this site or even reading this post you know what I'm talking about.. And you know how to handle yourself and your DoC for the new ones. Well there is a lot of hell to bare before learning how to manage and even with experience and all the knowledge your mind can handle. Still comes moments in time where you find yourself standing at the edge of a false ideal picture , crashing down and crumbling right in front of you. Then your wondering what to do with yourself and questioning why you even tried it. It happens to us all. Thanks for reading my rant.
