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Great mental health results from MDMA

my shift is over so: If you never blacked out from benzos doing some stupid stuff( I never did) not judging just I never couldn't, I was never getting fine, no record, no jailtime, the only stupid thing that I did is a divorce or being to pride. I red, I watched documentaries I tried all psychedelics I was calming person on shrooms while I was also on the same dose and that trip shaped me a bit more in a person that I am today.

This should be in TR or...mods your word is last, but again I think there are people here that are interested maybe?, or won't go there and I'm not active very much in thousands of posts but also that is not my goal.

I need to mention Bluelight is a third of my time just reading and reading and learning from posts like opening new tab and reading science report on something someone of You people put there so Thank you!

Maybe this is not for here or for TR, and I'm not incentivize anyone to do this just carry my log here as I respect all that I learned years reading posts.
Mini doses that came next or two days after the normal dose or if 2mg per kg or I think for me it's better 1,5 mg per kg I'm 88kg 180cm
-were something like this: Wednesday;
-130mg pure tested MDMA with pregabalin 150-150-300(morning-noon-night like 21 or 9pm)- mdma was taken before noon
: Friday;
-40mg MDMA with what seamed to be addy 30 tested poorly but from high it felted like amphetamine more than meth or my tolerance to stims gave biased report but it lifted brain fog, anhedonia (need to mention that day I only took 150mg pregabalin the whole day), slept like rock

:Sunday;
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4am saturday to Sunday took small dose Ketamine, lied down brain zaps immediately stopped
150mg pregabalin upon waking in 8am with that Adderall (light breakfast before- butter with omega fatty oils. That is the product not separated with integral slice of bread- Had a great day without mdma with my child, than before sleep took L-tryptophan I think before that small bump of ket and a little zaps that I had were gone, like when I was playing outside or turn my head fast small zap feeling were there.

- Monday: This is a day for testing my serotonin or will I have brain zaps from mdma and also that Adderall, the only thing that I needed was pregabalin as pain without is unbearable but also I think for some reason: light dose would alleviate brain zaps but dose like I took 450mg followed by 300mg brought back some of the zaps just for couple hours afternoon nothing scary, but theory is in the past when I was addicted to GHB(taking doses after MDMA binges heavily brought zaps as weed was)

- Tuesday; Thursday; Saturday; Today; took 30mg those days with two days with 20mg Tentin(Dutch dextroamphetamine sulphate separated throughout the day. The other two with Concerta 72mg both days feeling normal no euphoria just like myself.

Now I stopped with MDMA or today 11am was the last 30mg I took that is how I decided and feel good now, going to watch Succesion than Silo, Barry took 300mg pregabalin just before writing this, no zaps yet will let you guys know if depression come back!, yeah
 
I’ve actually heard reports of this from friends too. And if you look at some of the old pill analysis from the 90’s there were MDA presses going around with 20-30mg in them.

I think I’m going to give this a try myself one day. Any other notes on the experience? It would be nice to have a light roll experience that isn’t from 5-MAPB. Cuz MDA is much more easily available.

-GC
Crystals, not pills.

The two of us connected in the MDMA way, talked, grokked each other. That was the coolest part. Felt nothing afterwards, which was nice. I would say that, overall, it produced one of the those moments with a friend where you really connected.
 
Crystals, not pills.

The two of us connected in the MDMA way, talked, grokked each other. That was the coolest part. Felt nothing afterwards, which was nice. I would say that, overall, it produced one of the those moments with a friend where you really connected.

Oh ya I figured. I haven’t seen an MDA press (or any quality press) since 2013 personally. Always crystal these days. How did the purity look? Any sassy smell?

I like the sounds of that though. I may have to give that a try soon!

-GC
 
Oh ya I figured. I haven’t seen an MDA press (or any quality press) since 2013 personally. Always crystal these days. How did the purity look? Any sassy smell?

I like the sounds of that though. I may have to give that a try soon!

-GC
It was from a tested batch with just a slight beige look to it. That batch had given me many lovey and also introspective rolls.
 
I've been microdosing almost daily with doses of 5, 10, 15 maybe 20mgs, actual micro doses, during the peak I repeat by voice or in my mind short positive mantras like: light is positive, light is light, fill your mind with positive light / positive mind, mind full of positivity / active mind, your mind is active and phrases like that and I feel very good.

Any of you experienced the same?
Do you know anything about microdosing daily?
I reasearched but found no health hazards with mdma contrary to ket for example that hurts your body, do you know any negative effects mdma can have on your health?

This is a recipe for disaster and you must be the worst researcher ever if you honestly found no research evidence of negative effects.

There is loads of research talking about the serotonin-downregulating effects of MDMA. Furthermore, the majority of the current literature on MDMA as a therapy talks about breakthrough doses occurring at the macro dose level while also giving the person at least 1 month to recover and integrate. Daily micro doses are damaging your brain while giving you minuscule benefits. It's high cost to low benefit.

You are only on your second week of doing this. It's early days so of course you feel good. Like every person who comes to BL having just discovered MDMA, they think it's the best thing ever and are doing it often, wondering how nobody else seems to know about this miracle antidepressant. Except we do know. We know better than you do because many of us have been down that road before, and it leads to a dumpster fire. You will experience diminishing returns until your neurochemistry is so fucked that you enter the worst depression of your life.

Just being real with you. You need to stop.
 
@Foreigner , I did stop, it was a first week first experience love, maybe once a month could have positive effects. Now I'm back like before. Not so active and slightly depressed.
 
yeah I also stopped when I said in my last post, well I had 2 days small zaps and sleep wasn't very good but I'm used to sleeping 4-5 hrs or if longer I can't get myself up to function normal for hour or two and I can't let that happen!

I'm not talking about micro dosing that just doesn't do anything in me or for me! but 30mg or more I felt slight empathy enhancement and stimulation!

Look I'm prescribed Pregabalin 600mg daily for real myasthenia gravis but that can be bad or person can lead a normal life with exercise, work- that is my stimulant but work like a job that I now have in normal environment with great team and in my dept. IT/AV
With Concerta 36mg which I take in like 72mg two days than I don't take it for day, two sometimes or even a full week, but in these couple days after doing "therapy" whatever, I needed at least those 72mgs and my family doc gave me as I told her I have a lot to deal with and a lot of work so that helped.

So this now maybe sounds like hamster on a wheel, what was the point? actually I'm less depressed I can't say that I could repeat some mantras, as last dose was making a just like a bad hangover which was strange but manageable and now I'm like normal.
I hate 5-HTP, other suplements helped L-theanine, N-acetyl-L-tyrosine, B-complex, High Vitamin C some liposomal after that ascorbic acid, potassium, magnesium Bis-glycinate and nutrition as Food.

But that is it for MDMA for this year I think!
Stay safe and don't take it like it's coffee or buprenorphine ;-)
 
@Foreigner , I did stop, it was a first week first experience love, maybe once a month could have positive effects. Now I'm back like before. Not so active and slightly depressed.

...would you consider repeating your experiment again with something like nutmeg tea? Nutmeg isn't exactly good for you either, but daily nutmeg use is probably safer than daily tobacco smoking. In other words, the reason I'm pointing that out to you is that if someone tried to get on your case about this, then they'd be a hypocrite for picking on you for something that's safer than smoking. I wrote that last bit for the benefit of others, you seem fine.

It sounds to me like the primary benefit of your regimen comes from meditation. If my hypothesis is correct, then molly is functioning merely as a meditation aid for you. Tripping on anything daily is a bad idea but every mother's son who is reading this, especially you, knows this so the last thing I'll do is belabor the issue.

But getting high every day isn't bad for you, not in a serious sense.

Anyway, I was trying to wonder for you what the herbal equivalent of molly is, which may in fact be nutmeg. What would you say?
 
I don't know if we have any data on chronic nutmeg toxicity. Exactly what it's action isn't clear but anticholinergic activity MAY be it's root action.
 
I don't know if we have any data on chronic nutmeg toxicity. Exactly what it's action isn't clear but anticholinergic activity MAY be it's root action.

Eh? Oh nutmeg is a hepotoxin. Few years ago the BBC ran an article where some celebrity doctor or other opined that the liver is among the most resilient organs in the body, but you have to give it time off.

...but then again 19% of the people reading this are tobacco addicts, and it would be wacky to worry about nutmeg use in any population where people will smoking or worse, daily users of hard drugs. Nutmeg.....wouldn't it have to be in the category of things with coffee, classical coca-cola, ...two glasses of wine, marijuana...as vices so minor as to be essentially safe?
 

I don't see any records of people being rushed to hospital or indeed dying due to any of the other drugs you mention. Or at least if you ignore people THINKING they are in danger as cannabis sometimes does.

Thankfully it's revolting and anyone working up the dose will run into the serious anticholinergic side-effects before it's likely to cause serious harm, but you cannot compare acute toxicity with chronic toxicity. BTW I'm not saying nutmeg IS anticholinergic, only that the symptoms do match up well.


Also it's not been sufficiently studied in man to know what the chronic toxicity is. I'm careful not to presume an animal model is anything more than an estimate at best. But it would make me mention the studies to anyone thinking about getting into nutmeg in a big way... although I very much doubt anyone would survive OTHER psychoactives to get to the point of thinking that nutmeg was their 'Everest'.
 
Or at least if you ignore people THINKING they are in danger as cannabis sometimes does.

I don't ignore people thinking about danger. Superficial hapiness counts as hapiness.

I also caution our friends here about clove, while also confessing to the psychoactivity of clove, and it's ability to potentiate other drugs and semidrugs.

Eugenol (from clove) the structurally similar myristicin, have the common property of inhibiting MAO-A and MAO-B in vitro. Innit?

Nutmeg which is what we were discussing. The structure of myristicin closely resembles that of amphetamine compounds, and it is capable of producing psychotropic effects similar to MDMA compounds, innit?
 
Most drugs don't produce happiness. Euphoria, joy, contentment yes, but it's a minority that bring happiness and generally in those cases it's after those other more fleeting feelings have subsided. They provide a potential platform for happiness to be derived.

Yes, myristicin is a weak MAOI and so that might indirectly explain some of it's subjective effects - I know one idiot was singing the joys of Parnate recently. Not a good plan.

Shulgin did a lot of work trying to discover if the body aminated allyl (ring substituted) benzenes but their was no evidence. I don't think anyone has ever compared myristicin to mescaline or 3,4,5-trimethoxy amphetamine .

It would be fun to set up a site offering bulk nutmeg and specifying it was psychoactive. THAT would put the UK police in a difficult position. Either all nutmeg is controlled... or none is. As I've said before, UK law is case law and if they lost once, it would screw the PSA so although they MIGHT try a raid - they would struggle to make a case if the vendor went not guilty... In fact, SOMEONE needs to do it just to get rid of that act.
 
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