I've had feelings of despondancy & despair due to my financial situation. Although, for now, temporarily I have a car, as long as I keep up the payments of $200/mo, I don't dare get my hopes up thinking it is my car until 6 months from now. Fingers crossed nothing happens to fuck things up.
Ok I'm grateful to be able to have a car for now then. Also, work called me this afternoon & asked if I still wanted to work another night every week & I said yes. That's a big deal because the extra night will actually loosen the noose I feel around my neck financially. I won't be depressed, penniless, & broke. It's not that I blow all my money on drugs either, like $40/wk.
The biggest expense is my damn mom, but the only reason I didn't just bail is because of the guilt trip & I'm not the kind of person to just leave someone holding the bag. I swear to Christ though, until today, I had no idea how the hell I was going to be able to afford the car & pay what mom demands too.
Anyway, the main point is it feels like I'm actually being given some help to enable me to help myself & what a relief that is.
Ok I'm grateful to be able to have a car for now then. Also, work called me this afternoon & asked if I still wanted to work another night every week & I said yes. That's a big deal because the extra night will actually loosen the noose I feel around my neck financially. I won't be depressed, penniless, & broke. It's not that I blow all my money on drugs either, like $40/wk.
The biggest expense is my damn mom, but the only reason I didn't just bail is because of the guilt trip & I'm not the kind of person to just leave someone holding the bag. I swear to Christ though, until today, I had no idea how the hell I was going to be able to afford the car & pay what mom demands too.
Anyway, the main point is it feels like I'm actually being given some help to enable me to help myself & what a relief that is.
