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Bluelighter
I always knew I was crazy but now im embarrassing crazy. Yeah I’m one of those guys
you guys have told me to be careful so I can’t blame anyone here but myself obviously
Let me tell the story
it started last Thursday got 7 grams of k. And me being the maniac I am after 5 grams I hired an escort. We really hit it off. You know escorts?? Most of them smoke crack do heroin and like this one, pcp.
But man I like fell in great lust with her
I’ve never had a girlfriend in my life im
Almost 31 years old but she wants to be my girlfriend she says she loves me and it feels a strange way.
anyways we hung out for 24 hours I take her home. Call some friends. Shoot the shit. She smoked pcp last night and did some k and was fine.
Idk what happened because she left a roach here I smoked 1 hit. It was so bad in every way.
But that’s not what triggered me till I did more k.
well anyways I kept snorting k I think till I fell into the craziest “k-hole” of my life. Except it was an evil pcp k hole with invincibility , grandiosity, and tons of anger.
I faced 20 years of abuse I’d say. For who I’ve been and who I am. I have schozoaffective and I shouldn’t be taking psychs or anything but I settled on ketamine because it was healing me for a while. I called it the Jesus powder cuz it made me believe I was Jesus Christ himself. We have stuff in common. Our most common thing is we have common in stuff with every type of person. Religious Christian people like my boss are telling me this is happened for a reason but I’m just not so sure anymore because I’m not supposed to believe in these crazy thoughts anymore I think. Well right now a little shooken up. I could’ve died. But not for a second I thought I was gonna die. Thought I went through another dimension which transformed me into Jesus. The real Jesus. Thought a lot of things. Said a lot of racist stuff I’m not a racist. It’s just, race has been a big theme in my life. And I was so angry. It was like 20 years of pent up anger let out.
I don’t know what I’m gonna do. Just gotta take it one day at a time now.done with k. Done with pcp even though that was the first and only. I will be done with weed after tonight also.
I don’t really wanna say more.
the k hole hallucinations as drugged out as I was and howfucked up it was it was pretty magical and so real feeling I can’t begin to describe.
My friends, family and the police and Tom Brady were all there with me. It wasn’t a k hole I don’t think because I wasn’t incapacitated but it was whatever pcp x ketamine induced. Wasn’t the greatest k either. Just awful. So ashamed so embarrassed. I never have to do drugs again though if I play my cards right and I will be better for it. Wish me luck soldiers.
you guys have told me to be careful so I can’t blame anyone here but myself obviously
Let me tell the story
it started last Thursday got 7 grams of k. And me being the maniac I am after 5 grams I hired an escort. We really hit it off. You know escorts?? Most of them smoke crack do heroin and like this one, pcp.
But man I like fell in great lust with her
I’ve never had a girlfriend in my life im
Almost 31 years old but she wants to be my girlfriend she says she loves me and it feels a strange way.
anyways we hung out for 24 hours I take her home. Call some friends. Shoot the shit. She smoked pcp last night and did some k and was fine.
Idk what happened because she left a roach here I smoked 1 hit. It was so bad in every way.
But that’s not what triggered me till I did more k.
well anyways I kept snorting k I think till I fell into the craziest “k-hole” of my life. Except it was an evil pcp k hole with invincibility , grandiosity, and tons of anger.
I faced 20 years of abuse I’d say. For who I’ve been and who I am. I have schozoaffective and I shouldn’t be taking psychs or anything but I settled on ketamine because it was healing me for a while. I called it the Jesus powder cuz it made me believe I was Jesus Christ himself. We have stuff in common. Our most common thing is we have common in stuff with every type of person. Religious Christian people like my boss are telling me this is happened for a reason but I’m just not so sure anymore because I’m not supposed to believe in these crazy thoughts anymore I think. Well right now a little shooken up. I could’ve died. But not for a second I thought I was gonna die. Thought I went through another dimension which transformed me into Jesus. The real Jesus. Thought a lot of things. Said a lot of racist stuff I’m not a racist. It’s just, race has been a big theme in my life. And I was so angry. It was like 20 years of pent up anger let out.
I don’t know what I’m gonna do. Just gotta take it one day at a time now.done with k. Done with pcp even though that was the first and only. I will be done with weed after tonight also.
I don’t really wanna say more.
the k hole hallucinations as drugged out as I was and howfucked up it was it was pretty magical and so real feeling I can’t begin to describe.
My friends, family and the police and Tom Brady were all there with me. It wasn’t a k hole I don’t think because I wasn’t incapacitated but it was whatever pcp x ketamine induced. Wasn’t the greatest k either. Just awful. So ashamed so embarrassed. I never have to do drugs again though if I play my cards right and I will be better for it. Wish me luck soldiers.