gonna try and get out of 11:30 aggrophobia walking session

with Mum....she wants to go to the vets to ask about Katniss's monthly flea treatment, didn't fucking work last month, she'd been scratching so much that last night, for the 2nd time now this month......a month where for the payment of a tenner she's supposed to be flea free down to last months vet flea treatment.....but oh no, i had to mash a flea treatment tablet into her food, this seems to have stopped the itching for the time being, but as from previous treats this way, she'll undoubtedly be scratching again within 48 hours....so whats the point in going up the vets for another tenner spend on a treatment that is undoubtedly destined to fail.....i have flea treatment via drops that i bought off Amazon that had been just as ineffective as that off the vets......but now i've been shown, by the vets, how to properly apply the drop treatment....i can quite independently apply my very own ineffective drop flea treatment and save myself from the nightmare inducing walk that my Mum wants me to go on at 11:30am....

......she is also trying to help me......but the very idea just fills me with dread......i feel unstable when i am out...every person is a walking target....i don't know if or when i'm gonna snap but i feel very close to doing so at all moments that i am outside amongst civilisation.....and knowing i fucking stink doesn't fucking help coz i seem to be incapable of just doing the very simple excersize of getting under the fucking shower

fuck
fuck
FUCK
OH WODIHRF;OIWHE'OIEYT[089E7E]T-\0RO3WE{DP";AKLMSNVBJUEG4;Y3R9PUD;LCSMN .M FUCK

sorry Katniss....that scared her