Going to rehab

by the end of the week, i will be going into inpatient rehab.

not for drugs, but for a break, and for me. i haven't done anything purely for me since before my hubby deployed. so i'm happy about this. we're having a "family meeting" tonight about it.

i need therapy, i need people to talk to, just just you guys, but people in the flesh. and a therapist and psychiatrist. get on the right meds, and help me start sleeping at night.

so, by friday, i'll be there. then, afterwards, possibly a half-way house. i've wanted this for awhile, so i can't believe its happening. and i'm not scared or anxious, b/c its not for drugs, so no detox or physical discomfort (unless they make me stop cigarettes, which i can't do)

i won't have internet access for a few days, but then i will. don't know if it will be monitored.

so, just wanted to tell everyone. i will update after said "family meeting" i am a bit anxious about that... but, have no choice. it'll be fine. i have a great, loving, supportive family.

bill doesn't know yet, but he will. hopefully he'll be okay with it, but, really, he ultimately has no say in this decision. i have to take care of ME!!! ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME!!

FUCKING FINALLY!!!!

Thank you, God!!!!

(but i still get to get my tattoo tomorrow)

~October (who will be new and improved shortly!!!)

 

I'm not quite sure that I get why you're doing this, but all the more power to you! Here's hoping that you feel better coming out, and I look forward to hearing from you again.

That, and seeing pics of your new tats

 

so that i can concentrate on myself with no distractions, and on be responsible for me. no kids, go to sleep alone, wake up alone. meals made for me. getting on right mix of meds... etc

so many reasons!

(can't wait for tatts! under 24 hrs now!!!!)

 

okay, found the place. its all set up.just need to make some appts and legal shit for the kids. 10 hours until tattoo time!!!!

 

I am really in a comment mood today. I feel love