Going to rehab... please help

[delphinen]

Hello,
It's funny how fast I can write, how good the music feels into my head, but at the same time, how slurry it's my speech, how I lost balance of my body and barely can walk.

I mixed a lot of GABA inducer -really, a lot- with tons of antiepileptics there. I see blurred, some things double, and the members of my family all said more or less the same thing, that I look like a dying zombie.

Well, today is the day when I pack my best books, my clothes, my manga, my phone, my mp3, NDS, PSP (hope I can bring the last two things)... and that's it. In some hours my dad will pick me up to go to the rehab. There is always suicide I know, that is like a "relief" for me, honestly.

Some part of me is saying
"finally!, you got what you deserve, now you're going to a psych ward, congrats myself! say hello to House MD for me"
and the other part that is saying
"you're going to be cured, your brain will be forced to be fixed, all that LSD, K, chemicals, GABA inducers, everything will be forced to be flushed out of your system in order to feel like a normal person"

well, honestly, I don't believe the last part, so, if anyone can give me some hints before I left, it will be very appreciated.

 

[belfort]

ehh u should be searching for a happy medium between the 2 options u nmentioned...going to rehab looking to be 'cured' is much too high an expectation, u will be disappointed..what do wish to be cured of, your desire to take drugs?u just wishn t detox and free your body and mind of drugs?if so, that is very possible...its what comes AFTER rehab is when the battle starts imo...changing your life around, accepting yourself as who you are is the absolute hardest part of being sober..

 

[totach]

hey man if you feel like ur the type of person to run away from the program early due 2 feeling like shit or feeling like they dont giv u enough meds. I always brought a small stash of my doc 2 hold me down for the first couple of days which are the hardest.This is not the best advice but if u know what ur doing then i dont c anything wrong with that cuz evreytime i was in rehab the reasons i ran away was mostly cuz i couldnt sleep n they wouldnt giv me benzo's 2 sleep n thats the only thing that helps n im not even addicted 2 benzos i was in for heroin so i just brought a couple sticks from then on and i was a happy camper.

 

[lowrider6967]

dont listen to this guy,it sounds like hes vacationing in rehab.your mind is fogged right now.leave all drugs in toilet and go with an open mind

 

[Missykins]

They are going to take away half of that shit you've packed--especially the phone--but after a few days, you won't miss them.

Rehab can be a little scary in the beginning, and a big part of that anxiety comes from giving up control. I went for three months, and the first 48 hours were the toughest. I went to a great program, and am thankful for it. Before rehab, I was living on fear alone.

 

[GirlInterrupted]

Fake it till you make it! Participate in the groups, interact and try to make the best out of it. At 1st I was resistant but once I got into it I was actually diggin it. Just have an open mind and don't be stubborn.