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going to overdose tomorrow

herbavore said:
It goes beyond endearing, it is perhaps more than most people can ever achieve.<3
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I agree.

Shim and I have had our differences, trolling the hell out of eachother, but I have to say he is one of my all time favs here

I hope he hangs around
 
pharmakos said:
we've got another bluelighter that he lives near and has hung out with IRL working on it.
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working on it = what again ?

swilow said:
That is true, but he/she did say some utterly stupid bullshit too. With that sort of bullshit, its very hard to see anything else of value in the persons post.



Being a good person, being a bad person, having redeeming qualities, improving the world- the only thing I know for certain is that the dead add nothing to the planet and to humanity. I understand your desire for suicide, I have and do feel similar a lot of the time, but I also know that once I am dead, that's it, I cannot take it back- I therefore hesitate. Given the finality of that course of action, the ultimate finality of it, I think it is something worth spending a lifetime considering; I'm going to keep hesitating. You'll die when you are old, no doubt. It's going to happen soon for everyone, the cessation of pain and joy- why rush it? Who knows, perhaps you will eventually see you are not obligated to add anything to the world; you can do what you feel like doing, you can live a life of your own design, you can add or take from the world- it doesn't matter, the world will take it all back in the end and destroy all traces of your passage anyway. This does not excuse bad behaviour, but it should help you realise you are by no means anomalous in terms of contributing little to the world. There's no need to throw your life away, it will be taken from you in the end anyway. Just live it.

I hope you make the same choice I have made which is to keep on struggling because life is fucking fascinating. It is ridiculously strange, improbable, weird, unsettling, miraculous and nothing like what I initially thought it was. It feels like endless sufferring and often is, but you can reduce your pain by actually looking at what human nature is and why it almost excuses you from concerns of being a good or bad person- you are human, we are all challenged like this. Are you being irrational? If you feel worthless, why? What have you done that is so bad? Everyone who has ever lived has done good and bad, relentlessly. I assure you, we are all as worthless, degraded, conflicted, confused as each other. We are all suffering for no clear reason- together. You are no worse than anyone else. Its okay to be human; you never had a choice. Stop imagining that life is a grand epic movie and see it as a truly strange, unlikely and yet highly interesting experience. Even the pain. <3
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magnificent post.
 
I always say suicide is a permanent solution to to a temporary problem. I'm a liar, addict, manipulator. But I stay here's I've tried 3 times and right before your life flashes in front of you and Ilona from experience you goa have guts to do that. Fuck all that cowardly shots you'll never laugh or think or read, watch movies. It takes guts to do what your gonna fix fuck all that coward shit. But in a way it's s cowards way out. Think about the consequences ofvwh what your gonna do. How will it effect your people. Think hard befjy you do it. Stay with us....please
 
technically the goal was accomplished but I think im going to stick around for a while. of course, if this were a lifetime movie Id get t boned by an SUV on the way to rehab tomorrow but hopefully its a chinese new year or something
 
subotai said:
technically the goal was accomplished but I think im going to stick around for a while. of course, if this were a lifetime movie Id get t boned by an SUV on the way to rehab tomorrow but hopefully its a chinese new year or something
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spit my coffee out on that one=D subotai, I'm so glad that you are going to stick around. Humor is the only thing that has saved me numerous times. I'm grateful for yours. Hope that you have a good experience with rehab. It's just a tool--you have to do all the work. Work hard and don't be scared of the emotions that come up. I'm sending all my best wishes your way.
 
I just wanna know where thrvOP is ? I know y'all said there was a search on. 9
I hope the find him alinive.!!! He sounded treaty sick and I just hope he checks in. I don't die nevmen.?mever been so emotional over a guy I don't know.
 
hey man - a lil late to the party, but I just wanted to throw you some support

you're a hilarious dude whose sports insight I treasure. even when you make fun of me I can't help but laugh. the world is full of ass dicks, please don't die

I feel as if heaps of people totally ignore the creative side of their soul. you are more than just a drone. a creative outlet could be beneficial to you. have you ever thought of stand-up comedy?

take care of yourself. sometimes we have to bottom out to truly reach freedom
 
I totally agree with that. If people just would just let out a fraction of their creative abilities this world would be a better place
 
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