going to overdose tomorrow

subotai

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I dont know what else to do

I dont feel like I have any redeeming qualities to add to this life

even this suicide note is uninspiring

cant think of anything meaningful to say, just wanted to let you guys know
 
Hang in there, it gets easier. Think of family, friends, those close to you. It affects all these things in a bad way. You are worth more alive than dead my friend.
 
Try talking to someone, ant-depressants, exercise. Do something for YOURSELF!
I know it is such a cliché saying but it really is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
You're not giving yourself a chance to find out what could have been.

I hate to see people so despondent that death seems like the only option. Get help, talk to someone. Don't be by yourself.

There are people who care!!
 
I don't know what your circumstances may be but don't do it. Things can and will get better, I've been there many times myself. It's a hard life to live but it's worth it regardless. I agree with the comment above suggesting you should speak to someone and maybe take antidepressants. I take them myself and they don't make it all better but they do help a lot with anxiety and depression. I'm here if you need to talk, just send me a private message. Take care and all the best X
 
Look man we don't get along on these boards or whatever but hey. If you cared enough to let Bluelight know you we were going to kill yourself then chances are there is a part of you that doesn't actually want to die? Otherwise why make an announcement?

Get the help you need bro there are people that will give a fuck.
 
I dont know what else to do

I dont feel like I have any redeeming qualities to add to this life

even this suicide note is uninspiring

cant think of anything meaningful to say, just wanted to let you guys know

I hope you have considered this step in depth. Killing oneself is a very difficult thing and it's final. Most won't go through with it. Posting about suicide and doing it are two different things. However I respect your right as free born human being to make your own choice about what is in your best interest. I wish you all the best.
 
Yes, you were courageous enough to tell some of the planets finest people how you're feeling. I understand, in fact I'll bet many folks here understand feelings of hopelessness, desperation and suicide - but suicide is a luxury I can't afford. For some reason I have people that care about me and some of those people are here. But If you feel the way I feel when I'm looking at this option I'll be honest with you, I get it mate, I really do. You're in the right place if you want to talk some more.
 
Suicide means no more pain but no more pleasure, either.

Life is full of suffering and pain but once in a while some kind of unexpected event will happen that'll make me actually enjoy existing again...nowadays those are the moments that I stay alive for. Is there truly nothing in your life that gives you any sort of pleasure or meaning?
 
I'm not going to say dont do it because suicide is YOUR right, however i want you to think is there really no hope? do you have cancer or a terminal disease? is this something you cannot over come?

I dont know your situation and i wont judge you if you feel like suicide is appropriate then go for it i hope you dont but its your call man.

On another note i shall add if you do kill yourself why not have fun first? if you truley want to die think of it this way the world is your oyster do whatever you want go shootup heroin, rob a bank, steal a car go nuts because if you want to die you have nothing to lose right? now dont go shooting people or anything like that, thats just wrong
 
^ What a shitty post, you obviously have no sense of decency for human beings writing things like that, and telling people to kill themselves.

Unless you're shimazu pretending to be a Greenlighter, then you've got a mental illness that can be treated, but suicide affects everyone that knows the individual - not just themselves.
 
Don't give up mate, I know personally that life sometimes is full of pain and misery, but don't give up for this. Think in the people that love you: family, friends.. They don't deserve the major pain of suffer your death. I know that your life is YOUR life, but the life is full of surprises too. Like neversickanymore said above, if you don't happy with the way are you are right now, then change and become whatever you want. If some stuff of your life don't like you, then change it, pick another choices, walk for another paths, but don't doing something like suicide.


Stay strong, hang in there. Go to your Dr and explain him your situation, maybe antidepressants for a while can help you, or food supplements like 5-HTP, eleuterococus, rhodiola rossea can help too. But don't say goodbye yet, the life could be full of pain, but to full of joy and surprises.
 
^ What a shitty post, you obviously have no sense of decency for human beings writing things like that, and telling people to kill themselves.

Unless you're shimazu pretending to be a Greenlighter, then you've got a mental illness that can be treated, but suicide affects everyone that knows the individual - not just themselves.

WTF Where did they tell anyone to kill themselves? Utter nonsense. In fact they said they hoped the person would not.
 
I shot up 4 bags at once today and went unconscious and supposedly purple but the dealer shot me up with narcan so all I wound up with was a big headache and no money to re-do the act. foiled by a puerto rican with an antagonist and mouth-to-mouth.........

Im doing the same thing tomorrow but in a more secluded spot do nobody can interrupt this time......

seriously though its going to work this time, now I have a bus to catch because I plan on wandering around on copious amounts of klonopin in the city for a while before they finally help with the end goal. kind of like nick cage in leaving las vegas only without an undeserving academy award

from a post in TL


Sub this is not the way!
 
WTF Where did they tell anyone to kill themselves? Utter nonsense. In fact they said they hoped the person would not.

That is true, but he/she did say some utterly stupid bullshit too. With that sort of bullshit, its very hard to see anything else of value in the persons post.

Subotai said:
I dont feel like I have any redeeming qualities to add to this life

Being a good person, being a bad person, having redeeming qualities, improving the world- the only thing I know for certain is that the dead add nothing to the planet and to humanity. I understand your desire for suicide, I have and do feel similar a lot of the time, but I also know that once I am dead, that's it, I cannot take it back- I therefore hesitate. Given the finality of that course of action, the ultimate finality of it, I think it is something worth spending a lifetime considering; I'm going to keep hesitating. You'll die when you are old, no doubt. It's going to happen soon for everyone, the cessation of pain and joy- why rush it? Who knows, perhaps you will eventually see you are not obligated to add anything to the world; you can do what you feel like doing, you can live a life of your own design, you can add or take from the world- it doesn't matter, the world will take it all back in the end and destroy all traces of your passage anyway. This does not excuse bad behaviour, but it should help you realise you are by no means anomalous in terms of contributing little to the world. There's no need to throw your life away, it will be taken from you in the end anyway. Just live it.

I hope you make the same choice I have made which is to keep on struggling because life is fucking fascinating. It is ridiculously strange, improbable, weird, unsettling, miraculous and nothing like what I initially thought it was. It feels like endless sufferring and often is, but you can reduce your pain by actually looking at what human nature is and why it almost excuses you from concerns of being a good or bad person- you are human, we are all challenged like this. Are you being irrational? If you feel worthless, why? What have you done that is so bad? Everyone who has ever lived has done good and bad, relentlessly. I assure you, we are all as worthless, degraded, conflicted, confused as each other. We are all suffering for no clear reason- together. You are no worse than anyone else. Its okay to be human; you never had a choice. Stop imagining that life is a grand epic movie and see it as a truly strange, unlikely and yet highly interesting experience. Even the pain. <3
 
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