my last run with the stuff gave me a good lashing, so this part for me wasnt ever an issue, but i know it is.
all i can say, is that for me desensitizing is important.
youre going to have to see the stuff again, you cant avoid it the rest of your life...
the coffee at my local store, is right by the wine and beer, seeing it now makes me sick. seeing people buying it with that look of determination, or naivety, just makes me feel for them and the road they are on, or heading towards. and makes me that much more glad, relieved! to not be there... my god.
i understand whole-heartily this distress, and fear of craving&using, doing all that crazy shit over again.
your fear, is real sincerity to me.
but.
dont give that shit the credit man!
you chose to disassemble your self and emotions with drugs and alcohol, you allow(ed) them - give/gave them the chance to do so.
now your self, and emotions are free, they might run straight into a wall, but at least you can now recognize this, and move a different direction, instead of trying to move forward with that stuff guiding you, further into that wall.
trying to disassociate can take a whole lot of practice, but keep the thought in mind, and be safe about it.
the ostrich effect, it doesnt work...
its there just the same, be it alcohol, pop-tarts, coffee or condoms

they are objects on the shelf, with different connotations for different people.
you are your self, with associations towards these items. it will soon be what it is, labels with price tags, an awful addictive destructive soul thinning... beverage?!?
look at the ad's, are we that simple that a partial T&A shot, rugged masculine appeal, subtle promise's of.., color schemes, target audience key relation images/sayings...
and on and on..
you are worth more, then the sick but brilliant producers of this stuff's small piece of billion$.
their few $$$'s, for your mental and physical health, oh, and your families.
no sir thank you!!
kaltes klares wasserr!
(pelligrino)
or
coffee&espresso
(quad 16oz iced breve!)
