theartofwar
Bluelighter
I am so fucking scared right now, it's not even funny. For the last 3-4 four days my psychiatrist upped my Paxil. I feel like I have a fever, my bones hurt I have tremors and my skin feels like insects are bursting out of it. This would be bad enough to deal with, oh and the electric shocks, but in all seriousness I vividly hallucinate 24/7 - or so I believe , I am not psychotic , I honestly am wondering if I have made touch w the afterlife. This is so overwhelming and I am just trying to stay fucking clean man. Start my business up in full swing.
I cannot go to the ER and be all "I see dead people" - boom - section 12/ed. I am not about to lose my mind being stuck in a cell for 3 days when I know this is a severe reaction to the medication at week 3 1/2 (perfect timing).
I honestly just dont know what to do anymore, I feel my best friends are the ones who no1 else can see becauese at least they do not look at me like im a disease because I have problems, my family has problems but man they can lash out when I am at my weakest point.
I hope you are all doing well, I am fucking so tired I have slept maybe 3-4 hours last 4 days beingso terrified.
-john
I cannot go to the ER and be all "I see dead people" - boom - section 12/ed. I am not about to lose my mind being stuck in a cell for 3 days when I know this is a severe reaction to the medication at week 3 1/2 (perfect timing).
I honestly just dont know what to do anymore, I feel my best friends are the ones who no1 else can see becauese at least they do not look at me like im a disease because I have problems, my family has problems but man they can lash out when I am at my weakest point.
I hope you are all doing well, I am fucking so tired I have slept maybe 3-4 hours last 4 days beingso terrified.
-john

