goals for 2012..

[snowboarder7791]

mine are to save moar money. hopefully find a nice girl. get over this depression. Meet deadmau5 again . what are your goals...

 

[OverDone]

• find employment in a treatment facility
• accumulate more college credits
• meet that special someone
• live life

 

[trance in fraance]

-stay off amphetamines and (hopefully) stimulants in general
-beat the crap out of this stupid fuggin depression thats creeping on me
-get back in shape & fix my eating habits
-figure out what i wanna do with my life

happy new years everyone

 

[maxalfie]

Hi Snowboarder,its great to see that you are making plans now for 2012 as it wasn't too long ago that you were on here in a very low mood.
Keep on doing positive things mate and making plans to improve yr life and feelings.

 

[stellablue]

Meet that special someone, find a better job with better benefits, and I just hope this year is better then last year. I am looking for a good year and I think this ones going to be it.

Happy New Years everyone!

 

[herbavore]

survive financially
get creative about ways to earn more money for our family
get really creative so that I can travel to South America (hey why not dream big?)
get better at balancing my time
figure out a way to get my stubborn self to exercise more!

 

[stellablue]

^ Damn Herbavore, your list sounds better then mine. I am revising mine again later, lol. I am already procrastinating, lol.

 

[Ixchellian]

* somehow get the VA to do their fucking job.
* somehow buy a house.
* somehow get the question out on the line. Thinking about donating enough plasma to pay for a rock.... I'm down for a real blood diamond.

8)

One thing doesn't necessarily have to come before the other, though. Too much to hope for??
Fuck it.... if this isn't the year, then it never will be.

 

[Ody]

3

Fortunately I only got 3 main tasks.

1)Slow down on the smoking
2) Graduate from University
3) Start with a job

 

[Tiesto]

To diet.
Lose weight.
Get cleanER

 

[Jabberwocky]

• Stay away from heroin full time (1)
• Successfully graduate from Suboxone maintainance and Intensive Outpatient Program (2)
• Get serious about therapy or some non-medication treatment to manage my social anxiety disorder and depression (3)
• Quit smoking!!!!! (4)
• Get accepted to a graduate program in neuropharmacology at UCSD or mechanical engineering at SDSU (5)
• Find an awesome girl to snuggle with full time (6)
• Help take care of my father in his old age (7)
• Make my family proud (8}
• Garden everyday! (9)
• Reconnect with old friends who I have lost touch with (10)
• Get more involved with Nordic rollerblading (and save up get a professional pair of skates) (11)

[ordered in terms of personal importance in parentheses]

 

[effie]

I've just made a list in a little notebook I was given for Christmas - I'm not usually a believer in new year resolutions - too much pressure, silly to try and make a lot of changes all at once in a small timespan - but I definitely have a lot of longer term goals than I hope to achieve over the year, and now seems as good a time as any to think about them and write them down

It's a long one, because I am not expecting to achieve all of these quickly - I can pick whichever ones fit, and take my time - a work in progress throughout 2012

My list - in memory of Dave, with much love and thanks for everything

1. Live life, and keep living!
2. Do my best to appreciate every moment, and live in the here-and-now
3. Get a bicycle, and start cycling everywhere :D
4. Start reading properly again, from trashy detective stories to beautiful literature to psychopharmacology (just got a text book on it, determined to teach myself!)
5. Carry on gardening and grow more veg - and reward myself by cooking delicious meals with it (I'd like to learn a new recipe every month and cook it for my friends)
6. Try not to isolate myself - make sure I do at least one social activity (even if it's just a cup of tea with a friend) once a week minimum
7. Get back to work - part time initially - and build up to full time, at my own pace
8. Be the best at my job that I can be - for Dave, as he was so proud, but for myself too, as it makes me happy
9. Treasure the friends I have, old and new, near and far, and make sure they know how much I appreciate them - try to do small random acts of kindness as often as possible
10. Tell my family I love them at least once a week
11. Continue my ongoing battle to keep my apartment clean and tidy, hehe - do a "deep clean" once a month if it needs it
12. Start going swimming regularly again
13. Try to take better care of my mental wellbeing, and think about what I need in the short term and the long term - ask for help if I need it, and continue my counselling
14. Try to smile at least once a day, and laugh as often as possible (but accept that some days I might mostly need to cry)
15. Do a Buddhism course (can't wait for this one!)
16. Restart yoga and meditation - try to go once a week to my yoga class and ideally meditate daily
17. Try not to put things off and bury my head in the sand - it only makes matters worse in the long run!
18. Keep in contact with Dave's family and friends
19. Do a bungee jump for the charity I raised money for in memory of Dave (Bristol Drugs Project)
20. Listen to more music and dance more often, especially in my apartment on my own :D
21. If something is scary or daunting - take a deep breath, and go for it!
22. Spend more time in TDS, getting to know you lovely people in more depth
23. Quit smoking!
24. Start sewing again - I make awesome sock creatures! :D
25. Learn to knit - mum got me a "knit yourself a pet" book for Christmas
26. Telephone, skype, IM or email my not-so-local friends more often and generally stay in touch with people - have been terrible at this lately
27. Keep on top of my finances and make sure I stay afloat - no more ignoring bills!
28. Help others as much as I can
29. Remember Dave often, cry as much as I need to, but hold on to the happy memories and never forget how lucky I am to have been graced with his presence for the time that I was. Accept my emotions as they come, and keep the hope that things will get easier
30. Do NOT beat myself up if I fail at any of these, or if I feel I am not coping well - the next year is going to be a difficult path and I will try to be kind to myself and accept that sometimes I might fall down - but that I will get back up again (and I will reach out for the many hands I have to help pull myself up)

*deep breath*

Wow, that's a lot. As I said, these are just my guidelines. I won't try to do them all at once, but I would like to have tried them all at least a little by the end of 2012

Good luck everyone

 

[Thou]

Better my writing, write a novel, write 10 short stories, start drawing/painting/tattooing* (*at home, on myself, for fun), get a car, get paid for my writing, finish first semester of real college, develop a

NSFW:

gambling habit

based on the 2012 elections, celebrate the solstice in my preferred state of consciousness, meditate more, learn to love purely through understanding my enemies and archetypes/social structures I find deplorable to cleanse my psychic being, finish my left arm and start my chest as far as tattoos go, get my navel punched, possibly scalpel my lip, cultivate my public speaking, document everything weird, get to a point financially where I can become vegan wholeheartedly again for the sake of my health, forgive my genetic relatives for the fallacies their natures have caused me ill health in these last 26 years, forgiving myself for any fallacies causing any other organism ill health or favor, moderate moar bl.

That's it I think.

Most important one is to love, and to never, ever, ever fear.
That's a big one.

 

[Doomed2pain]

To get married this time, halloween in hogwarts :D
Go abroad for surgery
Get better treatment
Play with my son (when had surgeries etc)
Start my degree

And officially reopen my charity 1 month from now a year on since i made it
Get fwuffy a friend
Do more art and writing
Sort my agoraphobia out
Sort ptsd, panic disorder and all the rest
Hopefully be well enough to eat properly
Go to spain for a holiday

I am now published in a book for my artwork :D squeeeeeeeeeeee

 

[panic in paradise]

if when i cant make sense of anothers motives, understand more my own ~
and when i cant make sense of my own motives, look to my surroundings.

lol
&
accept what is there in my surroundings as a creation of my own perception ~ then, if i still do not agree with what is there, question my personal relation to what i do see.

 

[dark-by-design]

mine are to stay off alcohol and amphetamines for more than eight months before crashing and burning, meet a nice girl, move towards a career in a treatment facility and to gain more insight into the world and community that I inhabit a little more each day.
Have a wicked new year people!

 

[trip407]

- keep to stay off opiates and benzodiazepines and all other mind altering substances for that matter (except coffee and the ocassional cig)
- keep up exercising and endurance training (also: join a batminton club and start swimming)
- make new relationships with man and esp. women
- build up new interests aside from drug related topics
- find a fullfiling job
- find a new home
- get back my drivers license
- watch my needs and try to satisfy them in an adequate way

 

[herbavore]

Wow, snowboarder, look what you have created. You rock! This is a beautiful thread.

Effie, your list is epic!

Everybody, hope is alive and well and that is a good, good thing.

 

[FnX]

I sort of wanted to participate, but then I realized I don't really have any goals at all for my life. Don't even know what to do with the damn thing called life. Hard to appreciate life when there's barely any things you enjoy and the things you end up doing you do mostly because of compulsion. "Start enjoying life" sounds like an absurd goal, but with drugs I think I have found brief moments of enjoyment for all kinds of things life has to offer. If you don't enjoy life, any kind of goals seem pretty superficial, you just end up asking yourself "why, why should I do that?" over and over.

Well maybe I'll try finding a better life through chemistry in 2012 and hope it works out atleast for some time (for most it kinda doesn't I guess)... Do it all properly and whatnot, none of that hedonistic abusive bullshit. Following the tiniest glimpse of enjoyment I find in my life like a fool, but what is life for anyway?

 

[Ixchellian]

...... I realized I don't really have any goals at all for my life. Don't even know what to do with the damn thing called life. Hard to appreciate life when there's barely any things you enjoy and the things you end up doing you do mostly because of compulsion. "Start enjoying life" sounds like an absurd goal, but with drugs I think I have found brief moments of enjoyment for all kinds of things life has to offer. If you don't enjoy life, any kind of goals seem pretty superficial, you just end up asking yourself "why, why should I do that?" over and over.

An answer to that question?......

TNSTAAFL

In addition; optioning happiness through drugs is an investment with a guaranteed negative return, and none of us can afford that.