Giving up

I have lived in this new place for about 2 months. It is kind of out in the city, but not really. Dallas is really spread out. I don't have a ride right now, so it is really hard to go out and look for work. When I do find a place, I am pouring sweat when I walk in.

I still havent found a job and there is someone else who is wanting this room. I told my room mate that I totally respect that he wants to give another dude a chance. I kind of jumped in to this, really. Even though back home, its about 2 hours from dallas, I still have more resources there. I know everyone, and I have a vehicle there that I can use.

I could at least rethink things and get back on my feet and have a ride with air conditioner to use. My room mate is an alcoholic so its hard to get anything done when we are both just getting waisting and jamming out constantly.

But that leads me to my next issue. I need to stop getting fuck up so much. Story of my life.

I am thinking about going back to college. I have a lot of talent. I just don't wanna fuck it up. If I do it again, it is going to take a lot of money. If I fuck up, I could wind up in more debt.

I am confused, as usual. I have really bad ADD and am about to see a doctor about it. I want a low dose of amps to balance me out and help me wake up in the morning. One of my biggest addictions is sleep. I stay up all night and can't sleep, but once I crash, I stay crashed for 8-12 hours. I guess you can call me lazy but I really think I got some kinda issue.

either way, I going to do what I do best : Staying Positive and Upbeat

 

maybe you could try a community college? they are usually way cheaper and credits transfer to university.

 

Thats is where I started. I didnt like it much.

 

ah, maybe try taking one class at university and see how you do/how you like it before taking a full load of classes?

 

It's easy to enjoy college if you just think of the classes as opportunities to learn new things. Bonus if you actually enjoy the subject material.

My recommendation is that you should move back home since you're losing your place to stay at. You said it yourself, you have more resources there. If you don't like it there, make use of your car and move somewhere else. Wherever you go I definitely think you should go to school - even if it's only one art class to start out with. It's something to do and it will make you feel good for being productive. I know you like art, so maybe you could find a school that has an art program and gives a certificate or something. Not much, but it's somewhere to start, and since I'm assuming you don't want to go the general ed route and take all those extra classes it would be the best option.