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Giving up Crack after 10 years .

Theresa i'm sorry about your sisters situation . I completely understand it though, sadly .
Of all the posts yours has probably hit home the most . Still all of the posts in this thread have been very helpful & i really appreciate the support.<3 to al Y'all
 
Fuked up again spent all my cheque on drugs n Alcohol .
I despise myself right now. I been doing this shit for 16 years ffs i'm on MMT wich in the U.K is different . Basically they just dish the shit out it's much different to the States .

I shoulld no better . FUK , i don't want a pity fest from y'all , just support please .

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not all my cheque i paid my electric , water bills & spent £40 on food but wasted the rest :|
 
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Brimz, If your really wanted to get clean you would have. It really just takes a desire to really wanna get clean. Its really not that hard to do, Just dont use.

I wish you the best buddy but please dont fool yourself, and dont jump the gun. Remember if nothing changes then nothing changes. Thats the truth. Its gonna take more than will power. Think about it for a while and good luck

Sean
 
What i need to do is use these 6 days so that when i get paid iwon't just go straight up n score .

Can any of u relate ?
When i hit day 7 & that cash ££ is in my hand usually i'll go straight n score i mean fuk , i've just done 6 days clean i deserve it yeah ?
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Yeah man, course. It's not even like you've been that good really is it, cos it's only the fact of being skint that has kept you straight in the first place, but still you kid yourself that you've been dead good cos hey, coulda gone on the rob or cadged a twenty or something and scored on any of those days and never did, and you know, just a little one as a reward won't hurt will it cos once a week or so is good as being in control of it, way better than you were with it, could barely even call it a habit, could you? Addict minds, tricksy little fucks! :!

Anywhere you could be on pay-day away from mates who use or the places you score, or anything you like doing that would fill that one day for not a lot of money? Get the shopping done, pay your bills, use what's left for something a bit more constructive you enjoy almost as much as crack? Just to break the pattern for a coupla weeks so the cheque doesn't burn a hole in your pocket quite so much when it comes, see if you can start getting a bit of a better grip on the got money = must score thing?
 
I found that a good way of quitting bad habits (I've never done crack or injected blow), but I have my fair quote of experience under my belt, this way might take a little money but it is as simple as doing it until you become bored out of it, until you realize that nothing good can come out of it, that it is counterproductive, and then you might start a commitment with health and get a better (full?) grip of your doings.
I can't see it working for, lets say, weed, but I can see it working for harder drugs, cigs and alcohol, from first hand experience, I know it does.
Not sure about crack, I look at it as a moneyhole, even worse than cocaine habit as far as money damage, even more damaging than snorted coca,
its merely an ever repeting habit, no symphonies or paintings will come out of it, I believe. So once you have your mind set and a strong will (I know that
logics aren't good enough), you should be good. And if it started from your own will, more power to you.

Good luck on your achievements. If you need to smoke something, go for some weed/hasj, also, an entheogenic journey may help you on strengthen the will and determination. Maybe some mushrooms or cacti can be in order for some inner healing. I can't see any of those doing harm.
 
Feeling good this week very positive about things . Done a great deal of soul searching & have talked to some good peeps n i really do feel good about the future, i'm no youngster & have done my self a great deal of damage over the past couple of decades but in some ways have got away with alot as well .

I haven't got it all sussed but i do actually feel that things can get better . SLOWLY
 
^That is so great to hear, Brimz! Hopefulness about the future is such a key--when you don't see any hope then you can't take the next step which is having the faith needed to be patient and get through the rough times. I am sooooooo happy that you are feeling positive!<3 My brother spent 20 years doing crack and he walked away from it (in a long rehab at age 40) and has never gone back. It's possible, it's doable and it is never too late. Don't waste a second thinking about your age or lost years or any of that--your past makes you the person you are. No one else holds the knowledge you do. The whole key is what you do with it. Let it discourage you and keep you stuck or let it make you a person with a lot of depth that propels you forward.<3
 
brimz said:
Feeling good this week very positive about things . Done a great deal of soul searching & have talked to some good peeps n i really do feel good about the future, i'm no youngster & have done my self a great deal of damage over the past couple of decades but in some ways have got away with alot as well .

I haven't got it all sussed but i do actually feel that things can get better . SLOWLY
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Awesome - you really sound like you're on the right track!
 
Alright brimz my man. Check ya pm...

But also I have had a very similar experience to you. I know you have a benzo script and i'm pretty sure you get a methadone script as well.

When was the last time you smoked a rock but didn't have any gear or benzos to help with the hideous crack crash? I think you do that then you will realise again that's just not worth it. Hope you are OK bruv, get back to my pm re: Bristol City v Blackburn
 
Hey, fancy seeing you here! Good luck mate, defo got the attitude for it <3
 
Brimz, what up brother? I read somewhere that the average crack head usually burns out after 5 years- thats why the Colombians started growing poppies, you've been hitting the base pipe twice that? You got some stamina. When I was smoking gear, the people I ran with, we would get coke typically from the same connect and we would rock it up. I know the empty feeling of just doing dope by itself. Its funny, I saw a docu yesterday about how coke use has skyrocketed in the UK recently- dude, your a maverick.

In all seriousness, your planning a trip. Is coke less prevalent in Scotland? In otherwords, will it be easier to stick with the opiates? If thats a start and you get rock from different dealers then burning there numbers and avoiding places were you might run into them might do the trick.

And your complaints of possible cardiac involvement have me concerned.

Meds- Buproprion and other meds might give you an edge (lemictal? ect...)

Good luck man!!!
 
Hey man, heard on the BBC World services that Colombian cartels are developing more advanced subs on the diesel-electric designs, Now they aint nuke powered
but you need capital and intellectual/industrial weatherwithal to pull it off. The advatage is if interdicted they can jettision the evidence in the carribean. The current models being developed I designed to reach the Southeastern USA and maybe points alittle further north. But apparently one engineer that had worked for the cartels claims that they are developing a sub that has the range to reach Spain. Now these boats are stealthy and hard to track (though they have to stop to snorkel.) The technology isn't cutting edge but impressive for a non decent world navel power (like Germany, the Dutch, North Korea, ect...)

Time to get outta tha game now Brimz.
 
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