girlfriend stole my opiates. is this helping or not? please give us input!!

[leojay]

batmanplaysbaseball, that's exactly what I needed to hear... er... read.
Thank you all so much, she ended up giving it back to me. Which made me feel terrible, but I kinda need it.

Suboxone taper, and filling my life with activites, gardening, house work, I'm a first time home owner, and its time to be responsible.

Wish me luck, thanks everyone!

 

[I NUK3D U]

good luck dude...

 

[flacky]

Good luck! Just post here if you need any more help.

 

[RedLeader]

she just thinks i shouldnt be allowed to feel comfortable during wd because its my fault im in this position in the first place...

Let her spend an hour in the shoes of someone in the middle of bad opiate WD, and I am sure she'd change her mind...

But she's your girlfriend and you'd never want her to know that kind of pain, not even for an hour.

Difference, as people have noted, is that you understand addiction from an inside perspective, whereas she only "understands" it as an outsider.

With that said, putting her aside, you need to take care of yourself first. Meaning accepting a life absent of love (or good love) if you keep using hard drugs daily for recreation, or get yourself some help. It is *etremely* hard to taper with drugs that have the potential to still give you euphoria. You will almost certainly reach for a redose when it starts to suck.

A detox center, well a good one, will understand your situation more like that of an insider, and won't try and teach you a "lesson" like that. I'd welcome it with open arms, and if you are going to use suboxone, I'd get your girlfriend to read up on it as much as possible.

I hope your recovery and relationship are both able to be successful.

 

[leojay]

yeah, and i should clarify, the reason she wants me to suffer is because i was stealing from her to pay for my addiction...
when shes thinking rationally she would never want any harm to come my way. we love each other.

i'm looking forward to waking up and feeling fine...
im going to be alright

 

[User Name Here]

thanks, the plan is suboxone, just like a 2 week taper or something...

she just thinks i shouldnt be allowed to feel comfortable during wd because its my fault im in this position in the first place...

the hardest part is that i agree with her, but not about going cold turkey.

no one should have to feel full on opiate wd if they dont have to.

but she thinks i think that way because i'm spoiled.

which i am... but... i dunno..

and i think part of me isn't ready to stop yet...

i REALLY enjoy heroin... but its common sense, heroin = bad right?

she just thinks this whole thing is TOO simple, and all i have to do is... nothing...


thanks for the input guys...

d-_-b

I'm sure you've already mentioned this to her but your chance of success increases tenfold when you taper off of opiates versus quitting them cold turkey. It's also much safer.

Don't punish yourself or feel deserving of punishment when you're trying to do the right thing and clean yourself up.

She should be encouraging and supportive of your decision to better yourself. Sheesh.