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Gibberings v. CC: Pigfuckers R Us

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Welcome to bluelight poing. I'm sure you'll find it a very informative resource for harm reduction when it comes to drug use.

We've had our problems. Over the last year or so but most of the members who were pure and simple arsewipes seem to have left and we have some great members these days with a wealth of experience with various substances. A good few of out members come from a medical background (myself paramedic, steewith2ees a former staff nurse and guys like sproutonsmack and ceres who are keen students of molecular biology. There are undoubtedly many others with medical and scientific backgrounds but who chose to keep it to themselves.

In short this is the number 1 resource for harm reduction and sensible, responsible drug use.

All we ask is you read the bluelight membership user agreement and be aware that that we don't allow sourcing questions even for legal drugs and generally frown on price discussion except for small amount for personal use. Synthesis discussions prohibited also.

One other piece of advice mate if you feel someone is flaming or trolling the best thing to our do is hit the ignore button and don't give them the satisfaction of a response. Also if you feel it's necessary you can hit the report post function and bring it to the attention of the moderators. I've made the mistake of getting into spatts with one of our more obnoxious members when I should have backed down and activated the ignore function and reported it to the mods. U

nfortunately I'm not one to back down from a confrontation either physically or online.... Possibly a left over habit from my 15 years as years as a bouncer in Newcastle where backing down was seen as a sign of weakness and would only cause more problems in the future.

Anyway I digress..... Welcome to BL mate and and sorry for the long rambling post I hope your here to stick around :)
 
Sry MDB I've responded to your comment on Givz as I don't want to de-rail someone else's thread (they're asking for support n that would be selfish / thoughtless of me x

Everyone bitches and whinges about their keyworkers, the nature of their job is to ask questions that make you feel uncomfortable, resentful, maybe even guilt for some. I'd be fucked if i was gonna let mine make me feel guilty for not sticking to some arbitary plan or schedule plucked out of the air. I spose to be fair, they do have a tough and thankless job, i dont think a majority of 'clients' succeed in quitting first time round. Every time you have to see the key worker it reminds you how much you are continuing to fail, i avoided mine like the plague for as long as possible, until she said i couldnt access any of their other services if i didnt book in regularly with her. I didnt get on particularly great with mine, but from what i heard other people saying about theirs i decided that i was probably better off with the devil i knew.

Ugh she's on about these "rules" tho. Doing a care plan every four weeks shes stressing me out. Ok yaz didnt appear to care n said some very thoughtless comments as well as not letting me know dates to see Dr R who is the best psychiatrist in North Wales, but I was in control of my script. I don't feel in control with S. When I'm not in control i cannot handle it. I do NOT want her coming to my house. Geeze even social services were more respectful of my feelings after my OD. The social worker who phoned me was lovely.

Edit: two examples of y's thoughtlessness
Me "I think citalopram is adding to my suicidal thoughts but I don't want to take mirtazapine as it puts on weight" (anyone who knew me before my codeine addiction knew how important staying fit was, kept me in control.
Y "well you best decide what's important being suicidal or happy with increased weight" how insensentive is that comment. I imagine Josh could add thoughts here; or anyone who has been into fitness / weight loss. To me it's important. Key workers need to understand that addiction is MORE THAN DRUGS. Next comment y said I do 10 lengths swimming, 3 times a week.
Me "i'm real happy I've done 25, 30, n 35 lengths this week (hoping she'd be proud of me
Y: "well I have work my time is limited

HELLOOOOOO this is about ME not you. Anyone who have studies counselling knows how vital it is NOT to bring self into it.

My first key worker who is now doing CBT understood me. She helped me. For instance I had an in depth conversation with her about internet forums including showing her some abusive msgs I received from trolls that she was absolutely HORRIFIED to read.....

Me "they say I'm annoying what is wrong with me? Why do they all hate me? All i want is to belong, to be included"
S Theu don't know YOU you just see what you type. They're judging your behaviour - not YOU"

I then said to S (initial kw who was a GODSEND to me).
"Why are they doing this to me? Why won't they include me. I just want to be included. I've watched Facebook for 6 yeats n I cannot take the pain of rejection no more."
S loked at me n said "Why are you going on Facebook n putting yourself through this? Why do you need to go on Facebook wheb it's having such negative affects"

I miss her so much she was amazing n will make an ace CBT therapist. I studied Zcbt as part of counselling n my goodness does it help. I miss her <3

Evey
 
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Oh I want a jacussi right now

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What the fuck do you smoke Ceres because I really think I want some of that!
 
Feeling sick still after Friday. Never even smoked any weed last night I was so tired. I remember the days when I could drink like that every night of the week. Not now though, I think we've finally just fallen out of love :\
 
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not the relaxing sunday I was hoping for, instead i am rattled and midly in shock and my car is a bit fucked. At last I'm not dead which is always one thing to look up to.
 
slid into a 3 foot ditch on a rural road after being blinded by low lying winter sunlight, mercicfully i was driving slow and i was ok, the car just needs the wing panel beaten probably.

Now i just want a bath and some ambient music and some weed to calm me down!
 
Oof, glad you're alright. Fucking hate driving in this kinda sunlight, few times I've barely been able to see where I'm going. Sounds like a decent way to calm down tho, probably do same myself in a bit. Parents been over so had a mad clean out, house is spotless but we had to figure out how to hide three snakes.
 
yea its a road ive driven over countless times, just one of those those unlucky days. No weed so so will just have to have some 3-meo-pcp and maybe a benzo.
 
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not the relaxing sunday I was hoping for, instead i am rattled and midly in shock and my car is a bit fucked. At last I'm not dead which is always one thing to look up to.

That gif is bloody fantastic mate. Totally got me into a hypnotic state of mind.

Bummer about your accident - the winter sun can be a right fucker. Have you noticed that without fail, the sun is always in the gap between your two sun visors? How does it fuckin manage that?
 
was me fannying about with the visors that landed me in the ditch! This tme of year need to rememeber to take shades with me at all times.
 
Home n enjoying a JD x

Edit: I'm a hypocrite. Go on these trips with recovery where they're all 12 steps etc n as soon as I'm home it's "yeah drinkiez time lol.

Evey

The success rate of the 12 steps programs is incredibly low. IIRC it something like 5-10%, i guess it must be worth continuing them for the few they do help. On the other hand maybe different methods could be promoted and used much more often than they are, they'd be hard pushed to have a much worse success rate. :\
 
I don't go to 12 step programme. I just hang out with them when they're on a trip or whatever. I don't 12 step bullshit. My mam is worried I'll become an alcoholic because I've family members who have been n one who died of organ failure. Doesn't mean I'm going to be an alcoholic thiugh lol

Evey
 
ive noticed that you do seem to enjoy a drink or 2 though. Aint nothing wrong with that. If youve mainatined your current levels of alcohol consumption for many years i think its safe to say you arent at risk of becomming an alchy. The 12 steps is for all kinds of addicts btw, not just alchies.

Most of my mothers side of the family drink like fishes, my uncles get through 24packs of lager by the crateful whenever they get the chance, and they dont even get noticeably drunk. I don't seem to have inherited the same love of alcohol, although when other things werent available i did occasionally find myself getting that thirst that only alcohol could quench.
 
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