Gibberings CXXXX: Paranoia Abound

[knock]

Doesn't help that I can't be fucking bothered with jumping through hoops like a trained circus bear in order to get bits of paper that don't prove anything

Many jobs involve lengthy stints of apparently pointless effort. That degree definitely proves something, luckily I pulled the wool over someone's eyes

 

[brimz]

Unemployment is awesome. Being skint isn't.

You Knows it .

 

[knock]

Hello.

:D %)

How advanced!

 

[Marmalade]

Hello.

:D :%

How advanced!

do you have to turn off functions for that to work?

urghg, they turned up in the quote

i dont get it

 

[Albion]

wtf

 

[Ceres]

it depends. it turns out that a huge amount of my self esteem is tied to my occupation. having one in the first place, and then having a 'respectable one.' to the extent that I've been really suicidal and self destructive this year with the prospect of unemployment.

100% of my self esteem previously was based on being among the best at what I was doing, and getting acknowledgement for it from my peers*, but in the time I've had away from all that, I've at least managed to develop some more healthy reasons to take pride in myself that normal people can relate to. I'm even finding out I can actually relate to other human beings here and there outside of the bubble I was living in, which is nice.

Feeling like you have to live up to standards someone else expects from you is not nice, I've been racked with guilt for years because to certain people it looks like I've done nothing with my life, and I'm still trying to decide how much of that is involved in this PHD seeking nonsense....

*this also left me with a fucking terrible ego problem to deal with.

 

[Shambles]

Oh right. There's an option in the... well... the options bit around the profile stuffs that switches off smilies, no? Guess that's maybe a bit more likely than my original suspicion that Mela was clearly a witch. I'll still be checking her for suspicious teats though

 

[knock]

Go straight to Advanced, do not pass profile.

 

[Shambles]

Additional Options
Miscellaneous Options:

Automatically parse links in text

Will turn www.example.com into http://www.example.com.
Disable smilies in text

If selected, will not be replaced with smile

Quite. Is it not in the profile options too? Probably not then.

 

[Mela]

I know I am! Every drugpig should have a mystery benefactor. I'll put in a good word for you, Mela

Pee Ess: How come in your post the :| is not a like it is when I quote it?

Prefer texty faces - old skool, I think :/

 

[Morphling]

Mmmmm. Generally speaking, PhD's are bad investments in time and money, unless you are set on doing academic research. I mean, in the UK an MB is a bachelors heh. Sort of a masters in the US.

Unless you really need a PhD for what you're doing, I would suggest doing it for *you* and not whatever cunts you're talking about.

 

[Marmalade]

I do too actually. I'm switching mine off now

 

[parttime crackhead]

Done an absolute topper.

I can't stand Alan Sugar.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Mmmmm. Generally speaking, PhD's are bad investments in time and money, unless you are set on doing academic research. I mean, in the UK an MB is a bachelors heh. Sort of a masters in the US.

Unless you really need a PhD for what you're doing, I would suggest doing it for *you* and not whatever cunts you're talking about.

you're bang on in that you have to do it for you. I don't think its possible any other way- at times I made no progress for months and had to keep going. as for being a bad investment of time/money- in the UK, in the right subjects you can get funded. I even got extra funding cos of doing something shithard and potentially v useful. that funding was sufficient for a pretty extravagant lifestyle.

100% of my self esteem previously was based on being among the best at what I was doing, and getting acknowledgement for it from my peers*, but in the time I've had away from all that, I've at least managed to develop some more healthy reasons to take pride in myself that normal people can relate to. I'm even finding out I can actually relate to other human beings here and there outside of the bubble I was living in, which is nice.

Feeling like you have to live up to standards someone else expects from you is not nice, I've been racked with guilt for years because to certain people it looks like I've done nothing with my life, .

am really glad there is a way out!

I do set my own standards. they're just fucking insane. and the second I get to one bar, my brain raises it. on the plus side, I think eventually i'll have a pretty cushy life thanks to my brain being such an arsehole.

 

[Shambles]

I kinda missed all the smilie stuffs somehow. Never saw such a thing till I discovered BL (BL being one of the first intrawebz sites I ever actually saw). Was incredibly resistant to 'em for ages. Thought they were bloody stupid, utterly pointless and clearly a sign of atrocious communication skills. Then I discovered that writing a forum post was not the same thing as writing an essay. And that misunderstandings are endemic. And that smilies quite pleased me on purely aesthetic grounds. And then I removed stick from arse and slathered more or less every post with an abundance of :D8)8)%)

I haz no for :!:D=D:(:|:o8(:):\8):X8o%):p;):?:sus:<3 - nor more exotic symbolic alternatives - cos they were never something I came across and still don't know what half the ones I do see now and then are supposed to mean anyway

 

[Marmalade]

Done an absolute topper.

I can't stand Alan Sugar.

hah!

I'm not a fan either

 

[Ceres]

Mmmmm. Generally speaking, PhD's are bad investments in time and money, unless you are set on doing academic research. I mean, in the UK an MB is a bachelors heh. Sort of a masters in the US.

Unless you really need a PhD for what you're doing, I would suggest doing it for *you* and not whatever cunts you're talking about.

Research is what I want to do. Research is also what I've always done, but on inanimate objects, not human beings. To be honest, I've spent a few years now educating myself in a completely different discipline and getting to the point where I can do useful research means getting a PHD. The stuff before that is all dull as dishwater and what is annoying me. I don't even know if it's really what I want to do because it's a departure from what I;ve been doing all my life before, and I don't know if it's going to lose its novelty. Whereas sticking to what I know doesn't seem to lose its novelty atall. blah blah

I do set my own standards. they're just fucking insane. and the second I get to one bar, my brain raises it. on the plus side, I think eventually i'll have a pretty cushy life thanks to my brain being such an arsehole.

That's the attitude that kept me going and sent me past the point where noone was holding my hand anymore and I was doing stuff I'd never have imagined possible in my earlier years and it kept me prolific aswell. So I can't complain too much about the bullshit my mind puts me through sometimes, it's worth it.

 

[Marmalade]

I kinda missed all the smilie stuffs somehow. Never saw such a thing till I discovered BL (BL being one of the first intrawebz sites I ever actually saw). Was incredibly resistant to 'em for ages. Thought they were bloody stupid, utterly pointless and clearly a sign of atrocious communication skills. Then I discovered that writing a forum post was not the same thing as writing an essay. And that misunderstandings are endemic. And that smilies quite pleased me on purely aesthetic grounds. And then I removed stick from arse and slathered more or less every post with an abundance of :D8)8)%)

I haz no for :!:D=D:(:|:o8(:):\8):X8o%):p;):?:sus:<3 - nor more exotic symbolic alternatives - cos they were never something I came across and still don't know what half the ones I do see now and then are supposed to mean anyway

the basic ones like the above are okay, but once people got bored of those, yahoo and the liked fucking went into overdrive with their chat program ones and introduced a zillion annoying ones, and then it got retarded.

the Japanese ones were always the best

 

[Albion]

Just found an old hollowed out pen with the barest quantity of MDPV powdered around the sides, which I licked off. Must have been about 3mg max, but it's still sent my brain into a mini overdrive

PV always seems to hit surprisingly hard when it's gummed...I think it's quite a good ROA.

 

[Ceres]

alan sugar

yeah what a tosser.

Just found an old hollowed out pen with the barest quantity of MDPV powdered around the sides, which I licked off. Must have been about 3mg max, but it's still sent my brain into a mini overdrive

PV always seems to hit surprisingly hard when it's gummed...I think it's quite a good ROA.

Yeah that's how I did a tiny bit of ethylphenidate a few hours ago and managed to avoid any agonising nose pain. Enjoyed it for about an hour though then remembered why I don't like those kind of stims.

@marmalade: (;_