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Gibberings CXLVI: I've Seen Things, I've Seen Them With My Badgers

ColtDan said:
Strange times today? on and off from half 7 onwards. and a few mins this morning. maybe somebody else has been on my account snooping about
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Last weekend you came online after pubs had closed and commented this was your usual time for logging on - saw you online early today :) (I need sleep :D)
 
tomorrow is the day ive set for my next bupe reduction. 1.0 mg to 0.5mg. Not looking forward to it, but i have promised myself that im gonna do it, and hopefully typing it here will in someway mean that there is no backing out now, and that i have totally commited to it. Id better chop the half pill into a quarter tonight, just incase i take the whole half before ive woken up properly tomorrow.

Sam, Sam, Sam, what are we going to do with you, you said you werent gonna get addicted again but thats two nights running, and then you'll have a whole weekend presumably off work. I dont like the sound of this 'i need more thing' before the first dose has even hit you. You are becoming obsessed with it. I can imagine the appeal, odt was spectualar enough for me, once you get into 4 days running kind of usage patterns you can start to loose your judgement and throw all caution to the wind. At lkeast that was my experience, i didnt kill myself but its taken about 2 years to be on the verge of getting out of this slavery to opiates.

All this shit must be a bummer to read when your high, you probably dont read it when your high, i undertsand the appeal the escape from everything, but it doesnt solve your problems, it makes them worse, and adds a dead risky potential addiction on top of any other things you may have on your plate. This then ultimately could become yor biggest problem. I dont want you to die, or fuck your life up, I need that bright spark of yours when i come to EADD.
 
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mydrugbuddy said:
tomorrow is the day ive set for my next bupe reduction. 1.0 mg to 0.5mg. Not looking forward to it, but i have promised myself that im gonna do it, and hopefully typing it here will in someway mean that there is no backing out now, and that i have totally commited to it.
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Yeah you have said it now so no going back - good luck though :)
 
cheers, i think i just need to 'man up' a bit more. Its not that fuckin bad. Im being a fuckin pansy about it, there are people who live for years with far more misery and discomfort, i only have a few weeks of slight discomfort to get through and i dont even have to work whilst on it, so i can couch lock or take tons of benzos and sleep for 15 hours, and take pregabalin for the first couple of days as ive had a fair break from that now.The final jump off might hit quite hard. I dunno, ive never done a bupe withdrawal before. But i shouldnt get ahead of myself.
 
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You'll do fine. You have such a positive mindset, not to sound like I'm blowing smoke up your arse but you're an inspiration. Consider the position you were in a couple of months ago and then compare that to now, the progress you have made is mind boggling. I have a piddling codeine addiction which is impacting my life and I can't even bring myself to taper even slightly. what you've done is fantastic and shows such strength of character and resolve. much, much respect.

(Yes, I'm drunk. Very drunk. I mean what I said though)
 
Some of the first physical signs of WD--for me--are watery eyes and goosebumps. The nausea/retching/shitstorm comes later. I also got bad aches in my leg muscles with recent WDs.

You will sweat but feel cold, light will hurt your eyes, and you'll probably be emotional (melancholic) over small things. Food's not going to pleasant. You may feel jittery but lethargic.
 
But you are in a luxurious position. You are well equipped and you have the time & space to experiment. Drop down as far as you can, I'd say. If you are feeling non-euphoric but non-sick at 0.5mg then try to go lower.

Oh and try to not file away "Bupe" under "medicine", for future reference =D

(taking advantage of Mailmonkey's leave here, having meself a nice triple post)
 
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Bearlove said:
As a spectator I would be stupid not to shout 'its behind you' when I see the monster coming. (whats wrong with my face :D)
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Nothing wrong! It's a very expressive face, that's all. And now you've implanted me with a panto genie image of you that won't go away. Well done! :D

mydrugbuddy said:
. I dont want you to die, or fuck your life up, I need that bright spark of yours when i come to EADD.
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Awwwwww, MDB, that's a lovely thing to say. Thanks. :)

I won't be doing any dying just yet, you mark my words. Somebody has to be the matinee villain round these parts after all. Especially to counterbalance the current crop of Blue Peter presenter-style mods.
 
What a trainwreck of a work trip this has been, leaving tomorrow and I haven't managed to do anything, doubt they'll even pay me.

So what's popping?

The other night I found this bar, very cool alternative type of place and the owners(three lads) were brilliant, drank lots of ales and they smoked me up with hash and some of the strongest weed I ever tried, the guy went to buy it just for me, he was like yeah man you need to try Israeli holy ganja best in the world. I had three or four tokes of that first spliff and I was twatted. Stumbled my way back to the hotel, was cool. They were like a hybrid of druggie hippie and fanatical nationalist, the last time I had such great conversation about the muzzies was with a fat bald head cabbie in East London many moons back.

Wicked night I had, sad to leave tomorrow
 
I drank a can of kosher Coke (made by the Israeli state bottling company) whilst on mushrooms once.

Dunno if it was the mushrooms or the blessings of the rabbis, but that shit was like nectar! I'd love to try the dope, but I imagine that doesn't receive the same rabbinical blessings.

Sounds like a good night, possibly dubious conversations about 'muzzies' aside.
 
Bit late to the party but I've just switched a utility bill for the first time and allegedly saved £270. Fuck me that's a decent amount of money. Stuff your 8.2% increase SSE.
 
That's a result SHM,a good saving indeed. My flat is on a key meter which we usually put £10 electric on each week and probably use about £6 or so of that each week.
 
I do miss having a nice spliff but last time I did I ended up having a panic attack.
Used to smoke everyday years back but it just makes me paranoid now if I have even a little smoke.
 
Sentences like that make me grateful for having never picked up a weed habit.

So much money, so much time, so much unnecessary stress, anxiety, paranoia...

...And so much fucking unfiltered tobacco.
 
Get some beer in. Usually does the trick when I'm craving/suddenly run out of drugs.
 
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