good for you.
if your cleaning is anything like the cleaning you did at my house, which I never noticed (and I LOOKED, every day), then it doesn't.
what I really want is a sense of justice. which you can't have if the person who has wronged you carries on like they did before.
what I really want is to have never known you existed. and for me never to have been stupid enough to be taken in by your bullshit to the extent I ruined my life nad the life of the one person who'se always done right by me. that's on me but you gave the impression you were worth the sacrifice and you weren't and blamed me and my supposed expectations- that you were the person you claim to be, or at the very least not going to rob me.
I regret not reporting your thieving to the police, and pressing charges. at least then 1% of the wrongs you did to me would follow you around forever.
you claim it affects you every day, but there's no evidence of it. you just use it as an excuse for self pity.
so since I can't have what I want, i'm screwed, and i'll bloody well make sure that negativity is directed towards the cause where possible. otherwise your actions will produce more innocent victims because this has to go somewhere. it affects me every fucking day. I have an obsessive brain. its done me good, no way I coulda got my phd without that, but unfortunately, it means I can't let go when someones wronged me. I've made progress, you know that last time someone did what you did to me it put me in a psych crisis ward. I didn't end up there this time, but again, you did that knowing there was a risk of that.
apologies to the other gibberers. should prob put this in a pm, but maybe this will stop anyone else doing what I did. opening their home to a conman.