not sure if this is the right place, mod's please move or whatever is appropriate. sorry for the long rambling posts, thought it might clear some stuff up around here, just did some stimulants, knowwhatimsayin?
so before the weekend i was 4 weeks off any opiate. then at the weekend managed to get a random half of ok brown and met an ex girl friend who had another three bags just for me.
i haven't been scoring in london for a while and the bags seemed very small, but ok. tolerance is such a bitch, before this weekend i had 1 month no opi's, before that a little oxycodone and buprenorphine, before that lots of poppy tea, before that smoked h, before that iv h. i was hoping the oxy(OP, long release, i crushed and parachuted) would get my high but no, too expensive, tho pills are obviously a lot more desirable for health to shooting brown (but beautiful) gooey nectar.
absolutely rinsed it. i had some needles because i like to shoot other stuff (more on that later), so just didn't bother with smoking or sniffing. actually i sniffed one big line mid session and it did fuck all. she was sniffing like half a bag at the rate i was shooting 1.5 bags, she's only ever sniffed for 5 years, i sniffed for 6 months, iv'd/smoked for 6 months, which really jacked up my tolerance. i think sniffing uk gear does work, it's just so inefficient (and slow?) that maybe it's easier to control? in the end, we'll all become slaves. my housemate (who doesn't know about our h use) was saying "what was up with that girl acting like everything slow motion", which made me think i must've looked pretty normal even tho i'd iv'd a whole lot more, which is unnerving, damn tolerance. but, because i'd been off for a while i could still get hard (rather than zero libidio as when on all the time), we ended up getting having
ugandan discussions for a few hours, but of course, couldn't fucking cum! wanted to k
eep it no strings, turns out she has/had a bf so going to stay awat. but anyone who knows whats up would know we were fucking flying.
ages ago she was like "don't smoke it because you'll waste it" well, at first yea, but once you get the technique down the ritual is almost as nice as prepping a shot and i actually like it because it lasts longer and is just so chill after a long day, put on some music and nod out. plus smoking other stuff, i've only ever tried ethylphenidate but that tasted like chemicals. the smell of heroin vapor is amazing, but i want to try vaping other stuff but i doubt anything could compare.
this "friend" has been on/off h for 5 years, and introduced me last year, i didn't really have any taboo about it as i only did anything other than weed 2 years ago basically from lack of opportunity (i grew up in a rural area, could only get shitty weed when i was like 15) but then moved to london. was quite pro drug politically (i wrote to jacqui smith when i was a lad asking why she ignored the ACMD's advice to have MDMA as class B, got a standard doublespeak reply), you know, harm reduction not abstinence. i never thought i'd go this far, tobacco is the worst, there's not even a high!
i was working as a bicycle courier, riding ~250 miles a week for ~£250. but varied from between £80-£430 (for me) for 5 days 8ish-6ish all weather, no insurance. no job security, no minimum wage, no sick pay. really crappy job. i was living in a squat, then moved in with my "friend". we broke up, i was couch surfing and really depressed from too much mdma, all the time, all last summer (but last year will live with me forever, in a positive way). i hadn't totally been caught by the opiate bug, but had i had the access or right cognitive abilities (i was really really depressed, practically mute, paranoid, ruminating, insomniac) i would have got totally fucked.
so i quit my job and moved back to my parents where none of my friends were druggies, started working in a factory and just ended up getting wasted by myself, or being at a pub nodding off all over the place, feeling bad because i was meeting up with mates i don't see very often and just being high as fuck. no one really knows for sure, so no one says anything. but my dad figured it out, found needles etc, encouraged me to stop but didn't force it. that may have helped tbh. so i ended up a month off with one slip up. had a couple close calls a few months ago when mixing alcohol and heroin, (a small amount of alcohol massively increases iv heroin overdose risk).
i got very minor wd's after the weekend binge, runny nose, aches, depression etc etc, which has morphed into a full blown cold/cough/sore throat i think cuz i was up all friday, saturday, last night. had a friends birthday tonight but had to split and just come home smoke some weed. since quitting opiates i've just been smoking weed a lot (i used to last summer, then slowed a lot when started on b) and broken my tolerance now so i get buzzed for 10 min then fiend for another spliff. better than shooting b at any rate.
mate just came over and had a buddha session, with some etiz, he gave me some ethylphenidate for tomorrow (but i've just had a shot, hence this fucking long post, thanks if you got this far), and my housemate had some cocodamol, aspirin for my cold. think i will do another shot, take the etiz, smoke the rest of my weed and listen to some tunes. i bought some nytol the other day as they were reduced, i thought they were diphenhydramine but turns out i got the "herbal" version with does...fuck all.
hope that wasn't boring as fuck.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
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Poor timing of disappearences on my part but was great to finally meet up wit'ya 
