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Sadie
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for the times that I have acted as his PA, My sham acted as mine. Sadly I was confused and covered in drool when he phones. Oh how sexy I can be!!!!
fifimurphycat
Bluelighter
morning all am currently wrapped in a blanket its cold 
but on reading posts, thats shite about your driving test but apparently those who pass second time are better drivers. I went around on a moped for a couple of years till I passed by driving test I failed first time but passed second so I do believe that those who pass second time are better hahaha. omg felix I love post it notes I get the rainbow pads for in work and steal a few lol
sadie I do the pa for a few friends as well but tbh I need one cos I forget loads of stuff if I don't write it down or set a reminder on the phone then I wonder wtf it beeped at me for ????
just seen how to make a storm trooper helmet out of milk cartons anyone tried that think I might give it a go
but on reading posts, thats shite about your driving test but apparently those who pass second time are better drivers. I went around on a moped for a couple of years till I passed by driving test I failed first time but passed second so I do believe that those who pass second time are better hahaha. omg felix I love post it notes I get the rainbow pads for in work and steal a few lol sadie I do the pa for a few friends as well but tbh I need one cos I forget loads of stuff if I don't write it down or set a reminder on the phone then I wonder wtf it beeped at me for ????
just seen how to make a storm trooper helmet out of milk cartons anyone tried that think I might give it a go
Jackal
Bluelighter
Late for work this morning as I got drunk last night and then came home, didn't set the alarm and like a Germanwings co pilot just locked the door and crashed.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Just bought lilvibe some clothes n dressing up stuff for her birthday. Not long come out of my recovery group. And they a decided to look at me n ask me stuff so I gave them one word answers n was quiet until they moved on. Am i the only one who hates being the centre of attention in groups like this? I just want to be there, listen n give little bits of inputs now n then. I love these groups but surely people shouldn't have to talk about them if they don't wish to. It hate it, makes me self conscious. And when people put me on the spot like that I just shut down, defence mechanism I guess.
Evey
Evey
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
^ Such groups shouldn't be putting people on the spot - certainly not in any pressured way. All the meetings of this type I've ever been to are very strict on this matter and never push anybody to speak or to answer questions or such like. In fact it's positively discouraged and strictly against the rules in any formal recovery groups I've attended (I've never been to 12 Step ones though so dunno if they're different). I'd suggest simply saying you do not wish to comment and would rather not say anything at the moment if that is the case. Of course a large part of the point of group sessions is to talk and share thoughts, feelings, memories, hopes, plans and so forth - it should never feel like there is any form of pressure or that anybody is required to speak when they would rather not. Perhaps speak to whoever runs or chairs the group you attend about your concerns to get the very best out of the resources and support you have available to you 
Welcome to my world, Sadie
Welcome to my world, Sadie
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Exactly. I'm just not good with conflict n confrontational situations so will probably stop going if it continues. It's precisely why I prefer the Internet. Less pressure n less likely to be forced to be the centre of attention as everyone is just an ID on a screen, to a point.
Last time we had a big gathering with the MP present, I'd forgotten to take my suboxone, felt anxious n literally did a runner from the building LOL.
Nah its not 12 steps. I've never been to a 12 steps group as I find the whole approach full of hypocrisy.
Also part of me feelsike i shouldn't be there. I just had a shitty codeine addiction. Most of them are heroin or alcohol addicts. Plus I've been on suboxone two years now coming May 23.
Evey
Last time we had a big gathering with the MP present, I'd forgotten to take my suboxone, felt anxious n literally did a runner from the building LOL.
Nah its not 12 steps. I've never been to a 12 steps group as I find the whole approach full of hypocrisy.
Also part of me feelsike i shouldn't be there. I just had a shitty codeine addiction. Most of them are heroin or alcohol addicts. Plus I've been on suboxone two years now coming May 23.
Evey
SummerSerenade
Bluelighter
No addiction is more or less serious than any other. Any kind of addiction is a problem and everyone deserves help/the right to participate in such a group without being made to feel unwelcome if that's what they want. So if you feel under pressure then maybe find another group Evey, being in a situation you find uncomfortable probably isn't going to do much to help your recovery. Either way, do what you think's best for you
Speaking of being confused and covered in drool, that's the state I just woke up in. Went to lie down at about 3pm as I felt slightly sicky and woke up 2 hours later. Guess I needed the sleep despite sleeping for 12 hours last night?
Nevermind, I finished my CV yesterday and applied for some jobs and it wouldn't do to be too productive now would it. And yes you read that right, me applying for a job. Jobs and sobriety coming up, I might be almost respectable soon (perish the thought)
But for now Eastenders and meph to wake me the fuck up. It isn't April yet after all.
StoneHappyMonday
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No and no.
Some addictions kill, some don't. Our view of addiction is the real problem. We seem to manage shopping addictions quite well, even refer to them as 'retail therapy'.
Think on.
SummerSerenade
Bluelighter
I meant in the context of getting help people shouldnt be made to feel like they're less deserving because they're addicted to a less powerful drug. Obviously some addictions are more serious in the sense that they could kill you or whatever, but any proper addiction is a 'problem' and someone like Evey shouldn't be made to feel inferior to someone with say, a heroin addiction just because she's 'only' addicted to codeine. If anyone is able to come out and say they have a problem with something then they should get all the help they need to deal with that problem without feeling silly just because other people have worse problems than they do.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
No addiction is more or less serious than any other. Any kind of addiction is a problem and everyone deserves help/the right to participate in such a group without being made to feel unwelcome if that's what they want. So if you feel under pressure then maybe find another group Evey, being in a situation you find uncomfortable probably isn't going to do much to help your recovery. Either way, do what you think's best for you
Speaking of being confused and covered in drool, that's the state I just woke up in. Went to lie down at about 3pm as I felt slightly sicky and woke up 2 hours later. Guess I needed the sleep despite sleeping for 12 hours last night?
Nevermind, I finished my CV yesterday and applied for some jobs and it wouldn't do to be too productive now would it. And yes you read that right, me applying for a job. Jobs and sobriety coming up, I might be almost respectable soon (perish the thought)
But for now Eastenders and meph to wake me the fuck up. It isn't April yet after all.
Thank you n good job with the job search. Are you looking for anything in particular or anything that pays the bills? Tell me to mind my business if you want but are you looking for jobs near Dan's? Will you still be able to see one snother?
Interesting viewpoint - and when you phraise it like that you're right. However it depends on how you define the word, 'problem.' If you look at it in terms of death I totally agree. However, a problem, when looking at shopping addiction is it could lead to debt, possibly stress which has lead people to take their own lives in the past.
I guess it's a complex one.
Evey
Tangerine Dream
Bluelighter
I need some rose tinted glasses I think. Literal ones to take the edge of this fucked up world 
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StoneHappyMonday
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OK. I agree with the basis of what you say, if not with how you say it. You are right about Evey and I was never suggesting otherwise. I just have a bee in my bonnet about the word addiction and how we view it. That is where the real problem lays.
StoneHappyMonday
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Hiya Mr C. Snow can fuck right off. I've been six months in 100 degrees and it shows. IE I'm tanned as fuck (you say skin cancer, I say suntan) and not adjusting to UK life one little bit. It's why I'm on here, hiding from reality.
Nice to see you around though.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
I'm tanned too, here in the UK. It's called the sun bed lol :D
This quote is ace. I must use this now n again. Ace
Evey
I need some rose tinted glasses I think. Literal ones to take the edge of this fucked up world
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This quote is ace. I must use this now n again. Ace
Evey
A program about on Nbome (dno which one?) is coming on tv later today on danish television. A danish kid died from it, he bleeding from all his inside bodies. Blood was coming out from nose, ears etc when he died in a hospital bed. Its wery IN in DK right now Nbome (they say). How is it in the UK atm with it? Any death or people going crazy on it? I have never tried it. They show this picture on a short article about the program:
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Nicklazz did you say your birthday thread i made for you?
Evey
Evey
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
I took a lot of the stuff a couple of years ago, Nick. It gave me the most vivid hallucination ever, but on that occasion, the body load was so heavy that it felt unsafe.
Poor kid. That's horrific.
Poor kid. That's horrific.