Gibberings CVII - Bubbles are Comforting

[Myshkin]

I see what you're both saying. I still maintain though that the guy has made money out of the duchesses humiliation and as such hes a nasty little toad.

Would your reaction be the same had it been Cheryl Cole though?

 

[YellowPolkaDotHalo]

If she didnt want the photos done Sam yeah. My reaction would be the same about anyone whos privacy had been invaded in that way. I'm not a royalist btw. People think because I live in Windsor i've got to be into the royal family. I'm pretty indifferent towards them.

I've just burnt my wrist for the third time this week on P's hair straighteners. It looks like self harm.

 

[breakcorefiend]

Morning all, had the worst day of rattling away yesterday cold sweats, headaches and inability to get comfortable, got some things in the mail that will give mee relief but am in 2 minds as to take any

 

[parttime crackhead]

Turns out the girl I broke up with has already moved on to another guy. To be honest it's made me feel slightly better, at least I know I didn't do fuck all wrong and instead she was just a slut.

Ha, that's the spirit! Fuck that bitch.

Check out the blossoming gay romance between B&W and Cornish.

Would your reaction be the same had it been Cheryl Cole though?

Exactly. There's no fucking difference between the two. Apart from the fact that Chery Cole likes to attack black people in toilets, Kate's grandfather-in-law likes to hunt them on horseback.

 

[Myshkin]

If she didnt want the photos done Sam yeah.

Well in that case the blame should surely lie with a culture that encourages 'candid' celebrity photos, rather than a guy who simply saw an opportunity to make himself some money out of indulging the apparent public demand for such?

And I know some of those 'candid' photos are set up by media attention-seekers, but I'm sure they're in the minority.

Anyway, get some cold water and whatnot on that wrist. Self-harm is not a good look.

BCF: I saw this coming from a mile off, and while I feel sorry for you in your circumstances and you know I think you're a sound guy, you need to start thinking about where your opioid use is going.

Don't want that to sound like a lecture and I know you've been through a lot, but do you really want to add a potentially life-changing addiction to your list of worries?

Take it easy, man.

 

[parttime crackhead]

Aye BCF. Don't bother. If you're rattling the now, the rattling will soon pass. If you get back on it you're just delaying an even worse comedown/WD mate.

Don't even think about getting on the opiates full time ya clown. Track down some smoke.

 

[breakcorefiend]

you're right man, completely, it was a bit of fun at first, then started buying in bigger amounts and weekend fun became everyother day and now its creeping up on me,

I can't use my breakup as an excuse, billions of people break up every day, not all of em dive head first into a bag of oxycodone though, so yeah i'm starting a taper, taking just enough to feel ok then waiting till im dying again before i have another bit to hold me n so on, i want off em, too afraid to tell my mum as it'll destroy her, she know's of my past coke,k,valium addictions and knows im addicted to weed and is ok with that but wants me off all other shit..i really haven't the heart to tell her im pretty much using smack as she won't care bout the finer details.

But dont worry, didn't come off sounding like a lecture, just the truth really, and yes feeling better now off 70mg and a 20mg temaz.

that's it though, got a bag of subs to help once im off the oxy. just trying to do it right and keep the cravings at bay, bupe is fantastic for that, especially as it lasts days in my system!

 

[breakcorefiend]

Aye BCF. Don't bother. If you're rattling the now, the rattling will soon pass. If you get back on it you're just delaying an even worse comedown/WD mate.

Don't even think about getting on the opiates full time ya clown. Track down some smoke.

Stupidly ate some as soon as i saw it land through the door!, dont want a fuckin habit that's for sure!

and the plan for the day is to track down some smoke! got some arranged for around 6ish

 

[parttime crackhead]

Once you get yourself a bag of weed you'll be fine man. I reckon boredom is half your problem.

 

[breakcorefiend]

Once you get yourself a bag of weed you'll be fine man. I reckon boredom is half your problem.

hole in one there mate, yep boredom is the killer for me, I recently made a few mates here and have been out havin a few beers and a few games of pool so thats been a good distraction, tbh it was the K that got me on the road to ruin, have had a rocky past with that stuff, its been my saviour and my downfall, it got me off charlie, was a full on bad cokehead and k saved me from it, but now i find that its making me crave more drugs, plus its fucking pricey here, may aswell have a coke addiction lol

 

[SpecialK_]

you're right man, completely, it was a bit of fun at first, then started buying in bigger amounts and weekend fun became everyother day and now its creeping up on me,

I can't use my breakup as an excuse, billions of people break up every day, not all of em dive head first into a bag of oxycodone though, so yeah i'm starting a taper, taking just enough to feel ok then waiting till im dying again before i have another bit to hold me n so on, i want off em, too afraid to tell my mum as it'll destroy her, she know's of my past coke,k,valium addictions and knows im addicted to weed and is ok with that but wants me off all other shit..i really haven't the heart to tell her im pretty much using smack as she won't care bout the finer details.

But dont worry, didn't come off sounding like a lecture, just the truth really, and yes feeling better now off 70mg and a 20mg temaz.

that's it though, got a bag of subs to help once im off the oxy. just trying to do it right and keep the cravings at bay, bupe is fantastic for that, especially as it lasts days in my system!

BCF stop while your ahead mate, honestly. Drugs don't help these sort've situations and opiates are the worst for it. All they do is numb your pain temporarily and then a few weeks later your back feeling as shit as you were in the first place. I've been watching too many people get into opiates lately, one of them was in a similar situation as you and I was glad to hear yesterday that they came to realization that the oxy wasn't helping and they were off it. It's gonah be hard for you to taper off as I have watched this creep up on you over the past few weeks, but just cut it out or start tapering the dosage down now because the longer you wait the harder it is and it's an expensive habit. Your following the route of addiction at the minute clear as day but if you stop now you'll be sweet apart from a few shitty sick days.

Been really wanting to just go and get some blues to give myself some temporary relief, but I know that they wont help and will just prolong things. Just gotta ride things out. Seriously fried my head yesterday after taking ket though, was getting really fucked up closed eye visuals of seeing her and everything and just horrible thought loops. Think maybe psychedelics are a no go for me for the next while.

 

[Myshkin]

I can't use my breakup as an excuse, billions of people break up every day, not all of em dive head first into a bag of oxycodone though

I did. It happens. It's not the best long-term solution but don't beat yourself up about it. Though a taper is definitely your best bet.

In fact, just take the rattle - it'll be shitty but there's less chance of self-deception and loss of control that way.

..i really haven't the heart to tell her im pretty much using smack as she won't care bout the finer details.

You're using something that is actually stronger than 99.99999999% of the 'smack' out there at the moment. Always bear that in mind.

 

[breakcorefiend]

yeah man it definitely has crept up and stung me on the arse but hopefully i'm stronger than them little green fuckers, i've beaten many an addiction so hopefully this will be the same, and yeah i don't want to go down the road man, its the road to ruin for sure

 

[breakcorefiend]

I did. It happens. It's not the best long-term solution but don't beat yourself up about it.



You're using something that is actually stronger than 99.99999999% of the 'smack' out there at the moment. Always bear that in mind.

That second quote would destroy her if i told her that, i need off these asap, starting my taper as of today, 130mg today and drop by 20mg a day till im all out then i have 3 8mg subs to help with the wd's then hopefully off

 

[Myshkin]

That second quote would destroy her if i told her that, i need off these asap, starting my taper as of today, 130mg today and drop by 20mg a day till im all out then i have 3 8mg subs to help with the wd's then hopefully off

Honestly, I think that's far too drawn-out and likely to lead to you relapsing. Keeping the cravings alive. If you'd been a 20-year addict, fair enough, but the w/d from this particular habit won't be as scary as you might think. It'll give you a taste of how things might end up though, definitely.

130mg a day? Wow, that's pretty shocking.

 

[SpecialK_]

Good stuff BCF good luck to you man, tough times but you'll pull through.

 

[YellowPolkaDotHalo]

Perhaps it might be helpful to list some tactics for dealing with the feelings that you run away from.
Can I just say..i've found that the things I run from keep coming back. Its like the only way through it is through it. Baring the pain really.
Quite a few of you seem to be going through the pain of break-ups. I'm really sorry to hear that..its fucking agony but you'll get to the other side of it.

I had to put a plaster on the self harm Sam. The only one I had is about the size of a fag packet so it really does look dodgy now


BTW.. You get real drugs in the post BCF?

 

[parttime crackhead]

.BTW.. You get real drugs in the post BCF?

You're a bit slow, eh?

Do you think all these clowns on here with the uncrackable 'drug-fairy' patter (a massive pet-hate of mine) are actually getting fairies turning up at their door with drugs? haha.

Well, if you live round MM's way I suppose a wee strawberry-cider drinking fairy might drop off your mail

 

[YellowPolkaDotHalo]

Hurumph.

 

[badandwicked]

Just realised I can share Kates pain.

I was on the beach in lanzarote once sunbathing topless. I had been asleep and knelt up to rummage in my bag for something, the light was in my eyes but I heard a camera clicking and a voice saying 'up, up'. I looked up to see this guy crouching about 10 foot away from me with a pro looking camera and a racer bike (?) gesturing for me to straighten up, I assume so he could get a better shot. Cheeky fuck.

I yelled for my boyfriend who also was asleep so by the time he woke up this guy was walking away across the sand so I told my bf to leave it. He should have demanded the film I suppose. I've always wondered if I've appeared in some cheap Eastern European porn mag.

Cornish, OK, don't ring the college. Email them.

My friends are part of the Well-fairies. They go round in an old converted ambulance to all the festivals taking care of the dazed and confused. They do an amazing job