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Sammy G said:
D'you think so? The bullshit of applications and interviews are a necessary component of any changes I might be forced to make, if I want to be able to afford to live reasonably on my own. And I really have no idea where to start with that one, after ten years with the same employer. The other changes would obviously include moving, and there's other loose ends to be tied up. All while I try to relearn how to relearn how to be a human being, which is hard and often distressing work on its own. Too much, and very little reward in either the long or short-term.

So yeah, the scene is set for meltdown, but let's hope not.
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10 years? Blimey.. yeah, I woudn't be surprised if you were due for a change then. I'd be looking at getting a good CV written and keeping my eyes peeled for any appealing jobs, and applying for the good ones that appear. As you have a steady career history, you'll be pretty appealing to employers, I'd think.. and as for moving and any other stuff, it's probably better to see them as smaller separate issues rather than lumping it all together as one massive thing. It'll be worth it, this sort of change is usually a good thing.

(I should probably take my own advice really, as my life is a fucking mess. =D)
 
Just back out from new key worker n that was the quickest visit ever. I just told her I'm fine, got my scripts n left. I don't know if I can trust her. I had a rapport with my
Old key worker. I'll just make out all's fine n get my scripts. I'm not telling anything as i don't know if i can trust her.

Trust is extremely important to me n if I feel I can't trust - there's just no connection, is there? How can you truly communicate with someone if you don't know if you can trust them????

Anyway all is ok n hopefully I'll soon be off the subs n off their books - and wont have to see anyone who could possibly betray my confidence no more. I could trust my old key worker but I'm anxious sbout this new one, even though she appears lovely n friends.

It's the people who appear lovely n friendly in the past who have stabbed me in the back in the most deceitful way.

One was an old manager who claimed to be a friend until she manipulated n used me to get someone's job off them - then documented my every action until I was sacked. That was when I realised that people weren't all nice like they appeared to be n it frightened me that people could be so deceitful n could not be what they seem.

Ah well....

Evey
 
I feel actually amazing and think I'm having the most lucky day ever. I have the best timetable in the world, my loan came through ok, and despite not getting a first or even a 2.1 knowing that if I'd bothered with that random module (unconnected to my actual fucking degree) at all then I would have got a actual first overall which must be super unusual is enough to make my already huge ego inflate to bursting point. Life is grand and yeah I'm fucked on coke already, celebrate my friends <3
 
swampdragon said:
10 years? Blimey.. yeah, I woudn't be surprised if you were due for a change then. I'd be looking at getting a good CV written and keeping my eyes peeled for any appealing jobs, and applying for the good ones that appear. As you have a steady career history, you'll be pretty appealing to employers, I'd think.. and as for moving and any other stuff, it's probably better to see them as smaller separate issues rather than lumping it all together as one massive thing. It'll be worth it, this sort of change is usually a good thing.

(I should probably take my own advice really, as my life is a fucking mess. =D)
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Haha, you really haven't seen a life that's a mess until you've seen mine! :D

You're absolutely right, and I could work on a CV anytime. I just don't really know what I want to do, or have the option of doing! Last time this happened, I was not far at all from starting work on a merchant vessel. Yeah, I know. 8)

This sort of change is usually a good thing, yeah. Unfortunately, it unfailingly sends me crazy. Trying to get through to friends just how difficult things are is a just a non-starter - they have their own stuff to deal with, and it isn't easy for them, but it's just nigh-on impossible for me without a lot of support. Or a lot of booze and drugs. The latter being easier to come by.
 
snolly said:
Ooh I hate that vaguely ominous feeling. And aye, it's one of my favourite words is looming :D Amethyst is my absolute favourite.



Good luck on that! I debated it but as you can see, it's not likely to go too well. Got a weakness for Polish lager and pay day looming. Maybe I'll give it a bash at New Year. Think nine months is the longest I've been off the booze since I was, ooooh, sixteen or so
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Ooooh I'd love to try that Polish lager (even though I don 't lagr n will have to be in November lol) what's it called? May see if they sell it in Tesco. I thought your Mrs had put a stop to that stuff as it strong lol :) or am I thinking of someone else?

That must be awful worrying she 'll get hurt but I'm sure she 'll be ok. She's probably been trained to do
The job n it's probably second nature to her now (if she's done it awhile). But I think she's glad you care n wouldn 't want you worrying.

LoL at you sulking. Join the club. I can teach you how to have an Evetrum, if you
Like?! JK :D i think it's cute n you both look ace n happy together. Really pleased for you as you're lovely n deserve happiness.

Eh up - with all these English students here we better mind our Ps n Qs n get our grammar / spelling firmly in order or our cards will be marked :D

Evey
 
Sammy G said:
You're absolutely right, and I could work on a CV anytime. I just don't really know what I want to do, or have the option of doing! Last time this happened, I was not far at all from starting work on a merchant vessel. Yeah, I know. 8)
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Heh, I spend a lot of time wishing I were crewing yachts in the Pacific, so merchant vessel sounds quite appealing actually. Have you thought about asking work if you can take some sort of career break? That way you could take a few months off, go travelling/volunteering/etc and hopefully figure out what you'd enjoy doing. (I've got a lot out of doing voluntary work lately and it's helped me figure out what I'd like to be doing as paid work, anyway..)

Sammy G said:
This sort of change is usually a good thing, yeah. Unfortunately, it unfailingly sends me crazy. Trying to get through to friends just how difficult things are is a just a non-starter - they have their own stuff to deal with, and it isn't easy for them, but it's just nigh-on impossible for me without a lot of support. Or a lot of booze and drugs. The latter being easier to come by.
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Yeah, it sucks. I think sometimes friends avoid this kind of talk because it unsettles them and reminds them that they hate their jobs/lifestyles/etc but are too scared to make changes.
 
SummerSerenade said:
I feel actually amazing and think I'm having the most lucky day ever. I have the best timetable in the world, my loan came through ok, and despite not getting a first or even a 2.1 knowing that if I'd bothered with that random module (unconnected to my actual fucking degree) at all then I would have got a actual first overall which must be super unusual is enough to make my already huge ego inflate to bursting point. Life is grand and yeah I'm fucked on coke already, celebrate my friends <3
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Ace attitude , Summer. I only had a 2:2 for my Psychology degree. The main thing is you passed the year n a 2:2 grade isn't bad. Plus you've still Two more years (this current n the next) to get higher if you wish - and I 'm sure you can as you appear quite intelligent n determined. Glad you're good n I hope that things continue to stay that way for you.

It's nice having you in EADD, you cheer the place up n make things seem more light-hearted somehow.

Evey
 
Didn't realize you'd been with the same employer for 10 years, time for a change indeed

SummerSerenade said:
I feel actually amazing and think I'm having the most lucky day ever. I have the best timetable in the world, my loan came through ok, and despite not getting a first or even a 2.1 knowing that if I'd bothered with that random module (unconnected to my actual fucking degree) at all then I would have got a actual first overall which must be super unusual is enough to make my already huge ego inflate to bursting point. Life is grand and yeah I'm fucked on coke already, celebrate my friends <3
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Excellent news <3
 
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swampdragon said:
Heh, I spend a lot of time wishing I were crewing yachts in the Pacific, so merchant vessel sounds quite appealing actually. Have you thought about asking work if you can take some sort of career break? That way you could take a few months off, go travelling/volunteering/etc and hopefully figure out what you'd enjoy doing. (I've got a lot out of doing voluntary work lately and it's helped me figure out what I'd like to be doing as paid work, anyway..)
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Career break? Yeah, it'd come with a P45. Seriously!

If I had it in me to go travelling or volunteering, I'd have it in me to change jobs. The travelling bit would probably hold my interest for about a week or so at least, but I tend to spend all my time avoiding people at all costs.

swampdragon said:
Yeah, it sucks. I think sometimes friends avoid this kind of talk because it unsettles them and reminds them that they hate their jobs/lifestyles/etc but are too scared to make changes.
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No, these people are moving / making life changes themselves! I guess either they're too caught up in that (fair enough) or they think that if I do something on my own it'll help me to develop as a person. It really doesn't work that way. Wish it did.

ColtDan said:
Didn't realize you'd been with the same employer for 10 years, time for a change indeed
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Yeah, I planned to stay here six months max. Three months in, my heart was broken (for good, stuck-up cow) and it didn't take long for my spirit to follow suit.

In the meantime, they have put up with me turning up pissed / on acid / dressed as a Nazi, so in a wretched way it's the closest I have to a family.
 
Hrmpf, yeah, fair enough. You could always talk to a careers advisor, the National Careers Service, that sort of thing. But I guess you'd need to be in the right frame of mind to do it. :/
 
If your job is what I suspect (have a feeling its the same/similar to mine) there is a lot of work out there at the moment, shouldnt be too grueling to find a new job. That is if you want to stay in the same role.
 
Yeah, I saw it, Evey. I really don't think there's any need, but thanks for the sentiment, I guess.

Can we please stop talking about my fucking job already?
 
Yea sure, Sammy <3

Moving on.

Yea Swampy I drank last on Thursday n had a 2mg of subs. I was sick all day Friday n in bed plus alcohol causes so many damn problems its unreal. I just don't understand when, knowing that, I end uo craving the stuff n buying it.

I'll try October take it from there.

Believe it or not I stopped drinking for months at the beginning of this year n starting feeling better again.

Alcohol really is the devil in disguise.

Evey
 
Eveleivibe said:
Ooooh I'd love to try that Polish lager (even though I don 't lagr n will have to be in November lol) what's it called? May see if they sell it in Tesco. I thought your Mrs had put a stop to that stuff as it strong lol :) or am I thinking of someone else?

That must be awful worrying she 'll get hurt but I'm sure she 'll be ok. She's probably been trained to do
The job n it's probably second nature to her now (if she's done it awhile). But I think she's glad you care n wouldn 't want you worrying.

LoL at you sulking. Join the club. I can teach you how to have an Evetrum, if you
Like?! JK :D i think it's cute n you both look ace n happy together. Really pleased for you as you're lovely n deserve happiness.

Eh up - with all these English students here we better mind our Ps n Qs n get our grammar / spelling firmly in order or our cards will be marked :D

Evey
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Oh god it's called erm something Mocne in a white and black striped can. I ain't seen it in Tesco, just the local Polish shops and the local cheap booze place across the road. Shockingly nice for 7%! And yes haha she tried to ban it after I spilled it all over the bedroom but I reminded her of the time she got so drunk she couldn't actually get into bed and that was that. Yeah she's properly trained and good at what she does so I try not to worry, hard though but will have to manage eventually! Been talking to Mum about it as she's had thirty years of it with my Dad.

And yeah lol I get you on the English student thing, shit I feel like I have to type properly if I mention I'm doing an English degree even though it feels weird doing it on forums. Rather type how I speak unless I'm actually writing something for uni.
 
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