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Gibberings CLXV - Reported for being racist against drugged up clowns

Shambles said:
Dropping a belt notch over a weekend? Man I used to <3 those days. Dropping several was when it got nasty. Speed can be strong as well as shite dontcha know. That fluffy shite y'all use now... nasty... in many ways... I'd avoid it if I were you. I'd avoid actual speed even more so cos that shit really will fuck ya if y'all're fukked with "speed" of the moment. That rabbit hole does indeed dig deeper... but y'all don't wanna go there. I sometimes wonder if I've totally lost touch with what some folk call drugs these days. Ja-hee-zus.





I attended one this very weekend - they can be made :p
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ive lost about 2 half inch in the last few months but it will be back in no time
 
foolsgold said:
i get what your saying just it would help save some people a lot of money
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Yeah, but that's not what this site is about and such discussion would be a total detriment to it's primary objective.

That would be my main complaint about bluelight these days, it seems to be drifting further and further away from it's base of allowing only allowing drug discussion that focuses on harm reduction. Tbf I steer clear of the drug discussion forums for the most part now so I can't really make a properly informed opinion.
 
Shambles said:
QFMFT.

It really is hard. Much harder than I think sometimes. It is also good. Much better than I think sometimes. It's an odd mix for sure. Probably odder for "them" than it is for me to be quite honest. At least I'm used to my oddities 8)
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I'm sure that they appreciated and enjoyed having you with them Shambles.
Even though it is difficult to go out & spend time with people you made the effort Shambles which is often the hardest part I find.
 
foolsgold said:
ive lost about 2 half inch in the last few months but it will be back in no time
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Something I have always struggled to do is put on weight. My top weight is 11 stone but I'm just over 10stone at the moment.
When I make a concerted effort to eat more to try & gain weight I can never seem to progress beyond 11stone which gets a bit frustrating.
 
no i was just asking if we did was not comparing the two

anyway fuck it post in morning bed time now night you lot

p.s. this is the start of a rough week ok im going somewhere friday where fits [video=youtube_share;5lpfWF4owSI]http://youtu.be/5lpfWF4owSI[/video] just saying

God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls
Yeah, yeah

I believe there's a time and a place
To let your mind drift and get out of this place
I believe there's a day and a place
That we will go to and I know you wanna share

There's no secret to living
(There's no secret to living)
Just keep on walking
There's no secret to dying
(There's no secret to dying)
Just keep on flying

I'm gonna die in a place that don't know my name
I'm gonna die in a space that don't hold my fame

God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls

I believe there's a time when the cord of life
Should be cut, my friends
(Cut the cord, my friend)
I believe there's a time when the cord can be cut
And this vision ends
(Let this vision end)

But I'm gonna die in a place that don't know my name
And I'm gonna cry in a space that don't hold my name

Walking in the cold, just keep on flying
There'll be a searchlight on the mountain high

God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls
God knows you're lonely souls
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah, I'm a lonely soul

I'm gonna die in a place that don't know my name
I'm gonna die in a place that don't know my name

God knows you are lonely souls
Lonely souls, lonely souls
Lonely soul, I'm a lonely soul

So long, little chapel
Sweet is the sound
Pack up your light
Pack up your light
Say goodbye to the Holy water life
Sweet sound, in and out
Ahh
Pushing it in
 
maxalfie said:
I'm sure that they appreciated and enjoyed having you with them Shambles.
Even though it is difficult to go out & spend time with people you made the effort Shambles which is often the hardest part I find.
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I dunno. Frankly I'm almighty pissed off with myself for failing miserably. But at the same time, yah, they should be fukkin grateful for my attendance... no... no they shouldn't. Somewhere in between would be good but I don't know how to find that place. Ack. I'm annoyed at myself for failing miserably cos it annoys me too. I could be better and wasn't. That pisses me off immensely. I've not even spoken to those involved yet so not fair for me to even be commenting really... but I fukked up by not even being me. That is for me to consider. All else is meh to me frankly. I have to look after me and I did bad so I spank myself for that. Not in the good way either. But t'was no big deal I'm sure. I'm sure some will forgive. Maybe I will too some time. There is good reason I avoid actual people and I really frikkin hate it when it comes to be true :\
 
Why you being so hard on yourself Shambles? You keep saying that you failed miserably but it wasn't a test and you weren't there to perform & entertain people. However you were at the time is you,whether you were feeling on top form or not. There was nothing for you to fail mate.
I think you are being so hard on yourself. You might feel better about things after a good sleep.
 
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maxalfie said:
Why you being so hard on yourself Shambles? You keep saying that you failed miserably but it wasn't a test and you weren't there to perform & entertain people. However you were at the time is you,whether you were feeling on top form or not. However you were at the time it was still you. There was nothing for you to fail mate.
I think you are being so hard on yourself. You might feel better about things after a good sleep.
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You are quite right. I may well do. I don't have many social interactions so judge myself kinda hardish perhaps on any one of 'em. Meh. I dunno. I was shite. Not that I should be some performing monkey or owt but even so I am... Shambles... except when I'm not and am just but merely me. Ack. Tis all bollocks I know but bothers me cos if you (or I) present yourself one way you should be at least in some ways that way. I am not. Not always anyway. I am shit. I am a mess. Not the kinda mess I may like to spin myself as sometimes but a mess all the same. My own mess is that mess but is also my own personal mess and the latter is a problem cos is not a nice thing to be around. In the long run it matters not what folk here, there nor anywhere think of me... except it does on some level cos on some level somebody needs to like me as me and that is a tough sell. And then some. I feckin hate me some times. Other times I don't cos I know I am the bollocks. That mid-patch is tricky though and no mistake :\
 
I'm worried about you Shambles, I've never heard you speak like this before or be so hard on yourself. You are probably the most liked person in EADD, you are funny, friendly etc you always have time for people
 
Don't be worried about me please, Max <3

I'm like this on me at all times. Just cos I don't say it here all the tine don't make it not so. I'm dandy as I ever am. How I am and how I is is another matter entirely. Both are dandy though. Cos both are me and I is I and so on and so forth. I never did like me nor do I like me now. Nothing has changed.

I am dandy. Promise. I love me and hate me as much as I ever did or didn't. Neither matters. Both are me, which is perhaps nearer the issue. Meh. Still dandy. Dinnae fret ye. If I were properly upset believe me y'all'd know it ;)
 
I never had the slightest inkling that you ever felt like this Shambles. You always seem to be quite happy on here but that's obviously not the case. If you feel this way a lot then you certainly hide it well mate.
Is there no one near you that you can discuss how you feel with? A good keyworker or your doctor?
I wish I knew what to say Shambles but I'm so shite with words and it's at times like this that it really fucks me off.
You are great at giving advice and helping others but I bet you are no good at taking your own advice, I'm kinda like that.
 
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