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Gibberings CLXV - Reported for being racist against drugged up clowns

kingme said:
never managed to visualize anything (except with cchemical aid of course. or high fevers)
even the simple ones, like a yellow tirangle to get things started on meditation. i can picture it a lil bit, then my mind just takes off and im not sure wether i am seeing or just hinking of seeing... difficult to explain

i do think it works for some though.
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It takes practise and discipline. A teacher makes a massive difference it's not something you can read about and expect results from. Meditation of most kinds is a dedication.

Like you say worth it for some folk.

I think highly of CBT and meditative breathing practise, very useful life tools.

Evening eadd people x
 
Awh we've a new Gibberings when did that happen?

Nah can't be asked with that breathing stuff. It's not for me n it's not how I deal with stuff I basically just agreed with her for the safe of it. I'm there to deal with my addiction not to waste my time with BS nandy pandy rubbish. I've tried all that meditation stuff n it bores me to tears. I'd rather listen to some music n write out some verses. It's all a load of rubbish n I'm not wasting time doing it.

Walking relaxes me best.

Evey
 
third eye squeegee said:
Hey Evie - the CBT sounds great.
I obviously only know you from on here, but that description does sound a little familiar ;)
It's great though that you can see that it's happening - you can start working on recognising when it's happening, and stepping back before you get yerself upset over what are, in the grand scheme, trivial things :)



I think I saw you mention that before.. what were you studying if you don't mind me asking?
Is there any way you could take it back up at some point, or try a different method, like the Open University?
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I did my BSc Psychology degree with the OU. It's all expensive

I spent HOURS on my last assignment just to receive a mark of 30% n a load of harsh comments like how it was poor etc. to someone with low self esteem n depression it wasn't something I could handle. Plus it would cost me £100 to resubmit n I'm lost heart completely. Last time I went I came home depressed n took a load of citalopram. The guest speakers hadnt enlarged the hand outs were group work the group i was put in were full of health care professions n foreigners - and basically ignored me, talking amongst them selves. I could not see the material so was not able to participate. I'm extremely independent n it made me feel inadequate n a loser.

So I decided that enough was enough n now have a post grad certificate in weight management. But no masters.

Weight management was a major passion n I wanted to help people with the psychological aspects of weight gain / loss , obesity etc. but I've lost that passion. I did counselling for four years but never did my 100 hours placement. I want to help people but I'm really scared of screwing it up n hurting / hindering the client. So I didn't do it.

That's why I like helping people online its easier. You don't have to make eye contact or feel intimidated by someone but you can help them n feel an equal... And feel worth while cause your existence has been of use in that you've helped others somehow.

Like when i did that day volunteering making tea/coffee for homeless. It wasn't anything major but I felt ace because I helped someone else.

Evey
 
Eveleivibe said:
feel worth while cause your existence has been of use in that you've helped others somehow.

Like when i did that day volunteering making tea/coffee for homeless. It wasn't anything major but I felt ace because I helped someone else.

Evey
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Thats lovely wanting to help people, lot of respect for that. some people really dont give a shit about others. you have a kind heart
 
Real Madrid - Atletico Madrid in the Champions League Final & Benfica - Sevilla in the Europa League Final.

Well the spanish teams have done it well this season.
 
Im good Eve, thanks.

How are you this evening, drinkin like me? :)

And why am I off ignore? ;)
 
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Fuck, I love this city.

Leave my house for the first time in weeks and I get weed from some random kid.
 
ok u edited ya post, so my post looked stupid. Now I edit mine too =D ^

is it sum good weed then?
 
Eveleivibe said:
Walking relaxes me best.
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During the (rather brief) period I did meditate daily I found that I started to get a similar feeling when I went for a walk as I did when I meditated. They're not necessarily so very different only it's harder to walk in the Lotus Position. Hard to sit in the Lotus Position too so I never did. Did a lot of walking though and I personally think a good walk has a lot in common with a bit of meditation. If you enjoy walking walk - it really is relaxing. Especially with a nice bit of nature about you.

Eveleivibe said:
Like when i did that day volunteering making tea/coffee for homeless. It wasn't anything major but I felt ace because I helped someone else.
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I also did something rather similar to that once and totally agree. My g/f at the time was a care assistant in a nursing home and she had to work Xmas Day one year and happened to ask if I'd be up for helping out for the day. Must admit I didn't think I'd really fancy spending Xmas Day chopping veggies and making cups of tea for lots of old folk I had never met but I did really fancy my g/f and didn't want to miss out on spending the day doing something with her and also didn't want to look like an arse for not going along. Once I got in and was set to work chopping stuff it turned out a lot better than I expected of course. Ended up really rather enjoying it - much better than sitting at home alone watching telly and boozing. It did feel good to know I was helping the residents enjoy their Xmas Dinner and keeping them well stocked up in tea. And also a small sherry each - a large one in more than one instance actually. It was - and still is - a particularly memorable Xmas for me. I do know what you mean about the feeling you get when you know you have helped make somebody's day just that bit better than it may have been otherwise.

You can get a prescription to do voluntary work from the GPs here. It sounded odd when I heard about it and saw the posters but doing those type of things - helping out at homeless shelters, or charity shops, or whatever it happens to be can be quite therapeutic I think. I know I felt much better when I volunteered more or less 9-5 for a couple of years.
 
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