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Gibberings CLVII: Clinging to all the right places

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Albion said:
Argh don't make me feel guilty. They were both light-hearted closures.

I'll reopen it then.

And why don't you apply for mod? Seriously.
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Im actually with Albi on this one. The thread was a waste of everyones time and died within post #3.

Ffs keep it closed.


Marmz we can talk about Arnie and his "big guns" another time
 
Psst, don't agree with me, that's what Marmz wants =D :sus: Especially you, Sammy :D

I've reopened it. The thread can die a natural death.
 
Ffs albion you're so weak at the knees.

You made a good decision, now show some confidence and stick with it
 
Sammy G said:
People at work gave up speculating about whether I was on drugs or not years ago. I had a similar problem to you, babylonboy. Only 'sober' was occasionally 'full-blown manic'.
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I have no idea if anyone suspected i was taking drugs or not, on a couple of occasions i had nods that were too strong to fight off, and i would sort of come to having senior managers staring at me, nothing was ever said. What can they do really ? Order one to turn out ones pockets or call the police ? I guess that would only happen if its extremely certain and obvious that one is on drugs. Please forgive the pompous terminology, i dont know how to phrase such sentences without using the word "one", rather than saying "you" but then it becomes about someone else specifically and not a general thing. 8(
 
Now I'm facing a dilemma.

I thought the closing of the thread was an unpopular decision. Marmz, in her stimmed-up over exaggerating of the importance of the thread's merits (eph, Marmz?) convinced me to reopen the thread so as not to appear stubborn in my ways.

Now it turns out people agreed with my first decision and now think I'm too quick to fold! They want the thread reclosed as to assert my authority properly and do the right thing, but surely closing the thread now will only show further weakness and malleability on my part.

Damn you all. Nobody's even touched that thread since.
 
Talkin' of work 'n' drugz, my most recent long term employment lasted for 10 years. Four years into that role, my employers discovered that I was a smackhead (I was stupidly using the company email system to inform a close friend about my predicament and to ask him for benzos..). Cue disciplinary action, suspension and final disciplinary hearing. No-one was more amazed than I was when they let me keep my job as long as I got professional help, with the proviso that the human resources department (i.e. horrendous harridans) would have full access to my 'recovery' program. Obviously I agreed to this, registered with the local drug clinic (for the second time) and thought I'd got away with it. Furthermore, the drug clinic refused to let any of my employers have access to my treatment files (quite rightly) and my employers seemed to accept this. I carried on working.

A few months later, I got nominated for 'employee of the quarter' and was promoted up a level. Disciplinaries are only supposed to stay on file for a maximum of 12 months, so after this time frame I thought all was good. However, I proceeded to descend into smack/crack addiction and started badly taking the piss - disappearing for up to 2 hours at lunch time to score, nipping out at regular intervals to smoke some crack, coming back sweating my tits off - wild eyed and rambling, digging smack in the toilets etc. I was beginning to think I was invincible.

However, little did I realise, but I had the sword of Damocles hanging over my head. The only reason I had lasted so long was because I had a particularly sympathetic manager, and I was very good at my job. However, management changes rapidly, whereas the HR files do not! My manager left - suddenly I no longer received any recognition for the work I was doing, no more promotions, and I started having to fight every round of redundancies which came up. Looking back, I should have resigned when they found out, but I just clung on to a job I was increasingly becoming to hate and management I didn't respect. I eventually cleaned up my act, stopped smoking crack, stuck to my methadone and got my head down to some serious work. This made no difference to the attitude I felt towards me. Eventually, I dug my own grave by going on a phenazepam bender and turning up for work thinking I was absolutely fine, whilst to others I was a drooling, retarded mess of a human being. I got sacked - and was totally relieved of the burden that was my employment under a lie..

I guess the point I am trying to make is that even if your employer 'seems' sympathetic towards your problems, the business always comes first and personnel records last longer than most personnel. So once you're busted, you're fucked!!! Get out and start again...
 
@ Albs

LOL on so many levels. I'd just take Sammy's advice Alby. After all, he was EADDs most successful and popular and respected mod ever, and you guys are tight. Don't ruin that relationship over a thread closure

It IS just a pointless thread. Like a lot of threads here. It's irrelevant in terms of decision making tho.

Raas is just being Raas. He makes great decisions on what to post, and what not to post, all the time. He's got GREAT judgement skills on that score ;p

Leave it closed. My interest in it has been erroded. I'll weep for it's passing instead ;p


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was worth talking about it tho, for the meta reveals during this discussion alone
 
i resigned when it got to the stage that my drugs problems became so out of control that i was just completely unreliable, turning up 8 hours late and things like that, whereas previosuly i had never been late in 2 years or something like that. The change in me must have set some minds speculating.

I have heard of people being sacked for falling asleep on the job. In that regard i was very lucky as i did it on a few occasions, if i was on the late shift as soon as the mangers left i would put my head down on the desk and make no attempt to hide the fact i was sleepy, covering my eyes with my hands to block them from view etc. No one gave a shit, it was so laid back once the managers left, one of the managers was a bit intimidating, everyones stress levels would rise when she was in. She was a nightmare, my nemesis. :|
 
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mydrugbuddy said:
i would sort of come to having senior managers staring at me, nothing was ever said. What can they do really ? Order one to turn out ones pockets or call the police ? i dont know how to phrase such sentences without using the word "one",
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Hows about.... "My" ?
 
Albion said:
Marmz, in her stimmed-up over exaggerating of the importance of the thread's merits (eph, Marmz?) convinced me to reopen the thread so as not to appear stubborn in my ways.
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Just saw this and have to comment.
See? That's straight out of the mouth of Sam. Almost verbatim.

I didnt take a recreational dose of stims today. I very rarely do tbh. I can take accountability for my own behaviour without blaming stims btw.

I take tiny amounts of speed. A functional dose only. For purposes totally different than for getting high. I take speed mainly for weight management. I have people to care for who need quiet and silence and I have to be attentive and sensitive to their needs. Recreational doses of stims totally clashes with that.

If you ever see me running off at the mouth here it'll be for a number of reasons, but speed or stims wont be one of them.
It'll be because I'm passionate about something, because I've had 2+ bottles of westons, or because I'm slightly miffed about summat, or angry about something that's of key value to me, and feel it's worth commenting on.

Eph? NEVER.
 
the current EADD crew ?

Mr Scagnattie on OD is also excellent judging by the interactions I've had with him on the buprenoprhine mega threads. He has very well rounded views on things. Seiko was/is also mighty impressive with all his knowledge, i had to correct him once when he made a false statement about etizolam pills. In that particular narrow subject i had more knowledge than him, but the overall depth and breadth of his knowledge is astounding.
 
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