Sammy G
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The 'real world' is all in your head! 
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Shambles
Bluelight Crew
Yeah, it's the immersion thing. Obviously it only works if you're really into a game (or games) but if you find one that hooks you days can go by where you struggle to remember to take a piss-break let alone worry about whether you've gotten enough drugs in you :D
Sammy's suggestion of emulation software is also a great option if you like more oldskool console games (from experience, the N64 and PS1 emulators were particularly good, dunno if PS2 and other more recent ones are up to scratch yet cos been years since I checked, properly oldskoon console/computer system emulation basically flawless) or are on a budget.
Sammy's suggestion of emulation software is also a great option if you like more oldskool console games (from experience, the N64 and PS1 emulators were particularly good, dunno if PS2 and other more recent ones are up to scratch yet cos been years since I checked, properly oldskoon console/computer system emulation basically flawless) or are on a budget.
swampdragon
Bluelighter
£60 for 6 weeks of sobriety? lol no.
Mm.. don't confuse sobriety with boredom/depression! It definitely sounds like you need some sort of hobby/project with which to occupy yourself and keep your mind off it.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
i havent done any gaming since GTA1 and Starcraft. Both of which completely hooked me for weeks. Id start around 10am or something, then suddenly notice it was dark and that i was very hungry. Seven hours would have passed in completing one of The Starcraft mining for minerals, to generate soldiers, tanks etc.
That was my favourite game ever. I really loved it, if i had a special soldier or tank that had killed hundreds of enemies i would have the mechanical vehicles pumping repair juice back into them as i got so attached to them. I was quite obsessed by it, all the different weapon vehicles would have different characters, from the cheery RCV things whoi would say "yes sir" to the grumpy "land mine laying vehicle drivers" i loved them all.
That was my favourite game ever. I really loved it, if i had a special soldier or tank that had killed hundreds of enemies i would have the mechanical vehicles pumping repair juice back into them as i got so attached to them. I was quite obsessed by it, all the different weapon vehicles would have different characters, from the cheery RCV things whoi would say "yes sir" to the grumpy "land mine laying vehicle drivers" i loved them all.
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
^ Hehe. You should track Pagey down. She was a bit of a closet Starcraft addict, I do believe :D
A very valid point, Ms Dragon. I kinda suspect that I - along with many others - use those three words interchangeable. Subjectively that's how it tends to feel, unfortunately. I tend to agree with Scotch Mist that when a person has basically been permafukked since their teens it really is hard to tell the difference between sobriety, boredom and depression. Never learnt to tell them apart cos the solution to 'em all was the same 8)
Mm.. don't confuse sobriety with boredom/depression! It definitely sounds like you need some sort of hobby/project with which to occupy yourself and keep your mind off it.
A very valid point, Ms Dragon. I kinda suspect that I - along with many others - use those three words interchangeable. Subjectively that's how it tends to feel, unfortunately. I tend to agree with Scotch Mist that when a person has basically been permafukked since their teens it really is hard to tell the difference between sobriety, boredom and depression. Never learnt to tell them apart cos the solution to 'em all was the same 8)
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
its kind of hard to tell the difference at this stage, but yeah i'll need something to occupy myself.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
The 'real world' is all in your head!
is it
I thought it was outside of my head. This could get very compliacted and philopsphical/psycholigal, but everyone iterprets the world through their own perceptions of course, but my probalem is that my head can get so crowded with intrusive thoughts that im oblivious to the real world. Its hard to explain. I guess you might have to be someone like me to understand. I think its something to do with having introverted characteristics and sometimes just withdrawing/retreating into my own head at the expense of what is happening in the real world. Im having trouble explaining this.
Sammy G
Ex-Bluelighter
I kinda know what you're getting at, aye. Or at least I think I do.
I have a pretty skewed relationship with consensus reality myself, with or without drugs. Certainly without NHS drugs!
I have a pretty skewed relationship with consensus reality myself, with or without drugs. Certainly without NHS drugs!
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
ah im glad that i made some sort of sense at least. The whole 'what is reality' thing really can become completely mind boggling, when all the different ologists and philosphers cant even agree i dont think im ever gonna work that one out fully.
I mostly trust my own perceptions these days, but whenver in doubt i just clock the look on other peoples faces, its reassuring when their expressions seem to chime with your own. But its also good to be able to see things differently, like a piece of rock may not be very interesting for most people, but others could study it for hours. Thats not a great example, but im sure you get the gist, if you were with me so far.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
ScotchMist
Bluelight Crew
Im pretty much like that, I retreat to the safety of my head when the world gets to much, only theres a civil war going on in there.... the only thing that calls a cease fire is drugs, then all soldiers lay down their arms, they're happy, im happy..... arrrr bollocks the real worlds made at me now.... and on and on and on....!
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
I'm having nowt to do with a "What is reality?" discussion. Coupla months back I'd be all in with opinions swinging. I've had to radically review such opinions recently. I really have no fukkin clue what actual reality is any more. And nor do any of you I can assure you.
Unfortunately, it's not a thing I can even begin to discuss here (or even bear to see in textform in general yet) so gonna hafta keep it cryptic. We've all gotten it very, very wrong though, I suspect. Strongly suspect
Unfortunately, it's not a thing I can even begin to discuss here (or even bear to see in textform in general yet) so gonna hafta keep it cryptic. We've all gotten it very, very wrong though, I suspect. Strongly suspect
swampdragon
Bluelighter
Ooh. Can I suggest you give an Elder Scrolls game a go? Skyrim on xbox is ace, or otherwise get Morrowind for PC.. I've lost months to it before.
Yeah, that's cryptic.Unfortunately, it's not a thing I can even begin to discuss here (or even bear to see in textform in general yet) so gonna hafta keep it cryptic. We've all gotten it very, very wrong though, I suspect. Strongly suspect
I'm long past worrying about the nature of reality, thankfully.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
SNAP ! You appear to have the same 'afflictions' as myself.
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
Yeah, that's cryptic.
So had I for the most part. Aside from general "Oooh! Aaah! Hey wow!!!" type ponderings. At the risk of doing nowt other than be mildy cryptic (yet not so cryptic as to actually be very interesting) I don't have a non-worrisome choice about reality ponderings any more. Which is deeply worrying. More so than anything else I've ever worried about by quite some considerable distance, in fact. Hopefully not quite unspeakably so cos I got to briefly speak about it over the festives, but that wasn't a situation I could really be very open in. Sort of, not exactly. Definitely untypeable though. At least for now.
Meh. Too much like hard work trying to skirt around a thing such as it is so will leave y'all to it.
Pee Ess: I know I owe yourself (and a couple other folks) a PM - will get on it over the next day or so. Not forgotten, just a bit distracted.
mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
Cheers for those suggestions, ive added them to a document im compiling of PMs i want to keep for the usefull info they contain but have to be deleted to clear space.
I'll have to remember to back up this document this time, last year i had a huge document of 'good ideas' but lost it all when the pc died before i had backed it up. 8)
headfuck123
Bluelighter
Mm.. don't confuse sobriety with boredom/depression! It definitely sounds like you need some sort of hobby/project with which to occupy yourself and keep your mind off it.
I find myself doing this as in once I'm completely sober for a while il get really bored but unmotivated to do anything about so I feel frustrated which can develop into a feeling resembling depression and boredom. Its usually at that stage when I decide to go for pints or something and one thing leads to another... and repeat.
ScotchMist
Bluelight Crew
Unfortunately theres more than yourself and I who suffers it.. I do wonder if I did all this to myself or its just apart of me and I just found a way to self medicate???
We've all got our problems, ALL, some folk medicate with, shopping, fighting whatever, its all much the same really. Dunno what im talking about now, gibberings certainly...!
We've all got our problems, ALL, some folk medicate with, shopping, fighting whatever, its all much the same really. Dunno what im talking about now, gibberings certainly...!
ColtDan
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mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
yeah i dont really want to go much further into that whole thing either, just that sam touched on it. For the moment im settling with what i consider reality is and im not troubling myself any further about that. Real world things are mostly going ok at the moment so theres no need to take everything to pieces and try to put it back together again.
foolsgold
Bluelighter
where is knock ?