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Gibberings CCII, not XCII.... We need charts, calling Raashole! <3

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koneko said:
Why do you so strongly identify with being a "junkie"? Or am I getting that wrong? It just kinda reads like that Sprout (not SproutonSmack)..
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Because I have literally nothing aside from that.
My whole identity is that of a piece of shit.
I am nothing and no one aside from such a characteristic and in some way that gives me strength.
I am a Junkie, but at junkie with a heart filled with love.

<3
 
Don't put yourself down so much, look on the bright side and I'm sure you would realise there's more to you than that. And perhaps find what was there before you became a junkie.
 
Sprout said:
Because I have literally nothing aside from that.
My whole identity is that of a piece of shit.
I am nothing and no one aside from such a characteristic and in some way that gives me strength.
I am a Junkie, but at junkie with a heart filled with love.

<3
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I'm sure you have a lot to discover about yourself still ;)

Identifying as a junkie is a bit limited - no?

We are all just pieces of meat spinning around on this planet, but often we can find a purpose that fulfil us and does good -no?

It is human to have a heart of love - welcome to the world of human-kind <3

You even saying this, makes me think you are a self aware person, but self depreciating; but have so much more in you... for you and many others to discover.

Are you young Sprout? You sound young to me. I'm nearly 50, so things kinda get different the longer you spin on the planet. Be kind to yourself man, life softens us <3<3<3
 
With fear of having my life experience degraded: I'm not even 22 yet.
I have never held an identity between mentally ill and drug addled.
I was sticking needles in my arm by 14, I know the depths but I'm yet to experience the highs.

I gave my heart in the truest sense, and I had it torn from me only to watch the woman I love give birth to the child of the man she betrayed me with and left me for.
I don't have a persona other than "Sprout", he is I but I am not him.
I am alone, and part of me knows I'll die that way.

<3
 
Where you wind up, what you have and who you see yourself are are alot to do with what you yourself believe man. Nobody who had all the things they wanted ever got there by putting themselves down, enough other people out there to do that for you.

I've been messing with class A's since about 12 but you've just got to decide what's the drugs and what's the real you. I'm high on meth but I can still comprehend that is the underlying truth to this game of fire we all choose to dance with.
 
Sprout said:
With fear of having my life experience degraded: I'm not even 22 yet.
I have never held an identity between mentally ill and drug addled.
I was sticking needles in my arm by 14, I know the depths but I'm yet to experience the highs.

I gave my heart in the truest sense, and I had it torn from me only to watch the woman I love give birth to the child of the man she betrayed me with and left me for.
I don't have a persona other than "Sprout", he is I but I am not him.
I am alone, and part of me knows I'll die that way.

<3
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Aww honey, life has been tough on you <3

I am alone, and part of me knows I'll die that way.
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So young to understand this, you are an old head on young shoulders? We come into this world alone and leave alone, that is ok - it is nature. Inbetween, we develop reliance, you are building this, maybe you don't recognise it yet?

Heartbreak is awful flower, but you will, eventually strengthen and appreciate that relationship for what it was. Sounds like it's toughened you with it's scars.. It'll hurt forever I'm sure, but other joy and pain will come in as you move on.

You are not Sprout, you are you, never forget that <3 You have a lot to learn about YOU! Still ;)

My sons are 26 and 28 and go through similar. I stand by the side and watch, feel their pain but can do nothing..as it is their lives to live. Like I had my time then and continue to have my time of life now. No one's experience can compare, apart from us all just being human spinning around on this planet %)

You're ok Sprout <3 It'll be ok X


Edit: drugs aren't the answer, they are the cloud to ignoring the answer. Delusion is fine enough for a little while but not enough to live a full life on. Trust me. Drugs should be a pleasure not an answer to your problems.
 
SquidInSunglasses said:
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<- What it feels like to be new to EADD with this drama going on.
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Excellent show, that
 
I need cold pizza. Last night turned from 'let's go for a meal' to 'one more tequila shot'. I am however sober enough to drive to McDonald's so that's what I'm doing right now
 
I just made morning chicken fajtias. I've been up all night and had quite a few beers now. It was fucking delicious.

Regarding Evey, as others have said this site isn't good for you and you are not good for it. It's worth bearing in mind that's there's consensus across that board that that's the case. It might be worth trying to bear in mind that it's unlikely that an entire community has involved themselves in a conspiracy against you. It might be worth trying to take on board what's really good for your mental health and ultimately your child's welfare and find some healthier way to spend your time. I wish you the best and I am sincere in what I say.

Morning all!
 
I'm pretty sure you've all slowly been taking over the board for years. Deliberately? Maybe :sus:
 
This place needs SHM back.

On brighter news. My little one did brilliiant in her dancing n gymnastics last night. I'm so very proud of her. She looked absolutely stunning n was lovely seeing her smile. We were all incredibly proud of our darling sweetheart. I honestly felt the luckiest person in the world having such a sweet, darling, huggable, amazing daughter xxxx i'd die for that girl <3

Go girl <3

Evey
 
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