pacificjunky
Greenlighter
I am a new member of Bluelight but I bring some unique experiences and insights to this community having spent most of my life living in one of the small Island Nations based in the South Pacific . As a teenager , " pot " was readily available here . This was the late 1980's , a time where we could purchase a sack of decent buds for the equivalent of US$100 . This was about 5 kgs or so of steams , leaves and bud all thrown in together . There were a few decent growers around event though this is a small country and a small market . Still , it meant by the time we sorted through our bags to find the sweet buds , that it was really good value for money . It was in no way anything like the strength of hydro ' and popular strains available in other countries , but it certainly did the job and was well received by friends of mine who would come over for holidays . Australia and New Zealand are close by so I would get to compare things relative to these markets. I ended up attending Boarding School in Australia and then University . I have a somewhat privileged background which has allowed me to enjoy plenty of international travel and as drugs featured more and more in my recreational time , I reconciled my travel experiences with destinations that I had heard about from other travelers . This meant the obvious brands - i.e. Amsterdam , Zurich , California , Morocco , Mexico and other places that were either pleasant surprises or a little disappointing .None the less , I kept a detailed dairy of these experiences - I have maintained this since I was a child and continue to maintain it. Anyway , my first experience with crossing that invisible line between " Pot " and " Hard " stuff was accidental . I was 16 years old and spending a weekend in Sydney , Australia with some old friends. I had called them up asking if I could score some dope through them . I thought $100 worth would be o.k. When it came time to getting my dope , I was handed a bit of tin foil with some white powder inside. A good lesson in how easy it is for a beginner to miscommunicate . What I thought was going to be dope as in a bag of pot was to these people a fix of China White Heroin. Not realizing at the time , how fragile users are when it comes to planning , acquiring and reselling hard stuff ...this wasn't a moment for refunds . The thought of trying Heroin and never crossed my mind and I was an absolute coward when it came to needles etc . Yet everyone around me ( including an attractive girl who was looking interesting ) sorted themselves out straight away and then without overselling the experience , they finally convinced me I would enjoy it . That they would look after me. That the needle part wouldn't hurt and the " tools " were sealed which meant no risks of catching something nasty . It was just the right time . I didn't think too hard and said o.k. They mixed up my shot , belted my arm and told me not to worry . I just shut my eyes and clenched by teeth waiting for the pain that usually came courtesy of a shot in the butt. In fact I was so busy expecting this that they were in and out without me even feeling it. " There you go " someone said and a few seconds later I was suddenly falling from a sky , A mad , huge rush accompanied by a tidal wave of projectile vomiting . No one seemed to care about this messiness ...I heard " his first blast " and some similar comments but everything seemed so far away . I guess they kindly found me an old arm chair and the madness and confusion kindly turned into a warm detachment where everything was so O.K. Where I wanted for nothing . Where silence was great com[any and time bent and stretched itself into a whole new element . Even the vomiting was pleasant and I was shameless huddled up in this old chair unable to communicate but having an amazing time and that memory is still very lucid 26 years later .......As the next day appeared and my high eroded , I was left feeling well rested and entirely immersed in a peaceful state . I wasn't a junky ( yet ) . It would take many years and other circumstances before I would be confronting the differences between an experimental use vrs experienced useage . It was however the start of a lifestyle I never saw coming . The scope of experiences to follow were in many ways traceable back to that specific moment and the decision to " just try it once ". I can not turn back time . And even if I could , maybe I wouldn't change how that day unfolded. But in the scheme of things I do realise that I made a choice that didn't have a rewind button . I was and am responsible for the choices I make and their consequences and the ripple effect . Who ever coined the phrase " just once " wasn't much of a forward thinker .
Anyway , I have a Mountain Range of stories and experiences now ( including my diary ) . I have already started writing my book. Thank you Bluelight for providing this platform and community . I am looking forward to reconciling my own life experiences with others . Some of my most entertaining diatribe is hidden away in the " don't say that " part of the mind where those of us who have used drugs , protect themselves from the consequences of being labeled " a druggie " . Nothing useful can come from telling one's " war stories " in a small place and if you are in the game , it is one of the hard lessons to learn as per letting people in .
Anyway , I have a Mountain Range of stories and experiences now ( including my diary ) . I have already started writing my book. Thank you Bluelight for providing this platform and community . I am looking forward to reconciling my own life experiences with others . Some of my most entertaining diatribe is hidden away in the " don't say that " part of the mind where those of us who have used drugs , protect themselves from the consequences of being labeled " a druggie " . Nothing useful can come from telling one's " war stories " in a small place and if you are in the game , it is one of the hard lessons to learn as per letting people in .




