Getting sick here

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Hello BL, I need some advice.
I'm 20 and I live with my parents. I've never worked a day in my life but I'm studying at uni. The thing is that the last 8 months have been impossible. I can't be here anymore. My dad used to be abusive when I was growing up, and he still is only now it's just psychological not physical. I have developed a food addiction/bulimia sort of disorder, except that i do not purge, I only overexercise but there's only so many calories that you can burn off, so I'm becoming a fat person.
During the week I have no problems with food 'cause I have to be at uni 8 hours a day (that's long hours, I know!) and I spent the afternoon at the gym or studying at the public library so I leave home at 7 in the morning and coma back after 10 everyday. The problem is on weekends which I spend mostly eating. All Saturday long I eat and then all Sunday I eat. I have no friends 'cause this is my first year and I have a really hard time getting to know people (well, not really, I talk to everyone but I think they don't like me 'cause they get together and don't invite me, plus I don't really like them but I'd like to be friends anyway at least to get out of the house and stop me from eating).
This 7 to 22hs schedule its starting to take a toll on me, and don't sleep enough and I'm usually way too tired to do anything productive after 17hs...
I know I need to get a job and get me a place, but I'm doing 8 hours a day at uni and I'm already two years behind.
What should I do? I am open to suggestions!

 

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Breathe deep, and think deeply about what you want and what you need, and what you are doing that is preventing those things from being realized. You can recognize some of the sources for these problems, thats an excellent start. Changing is not easy, but its much better than simply suffering. Spend serious time doing nothing but focusing on deep breath, and thinking about what changes should be made to improve your situation.

Its unwise to want friendship from people you dont like. Youre then selling yourself to meet the needs, wants, and concerns for others, which will lead right back to this same cycle you believe you are stuck in. Do you have hobbies or extracurricular interests? Im sure your uni has organizations for groups of students to meet up under the same interests. If all else fails, pick up a foreign language, and meet up with said groups.

Dont starve yourself ever, unless youre performing a medicinal fast and know well how to go about doing so. Youre giving your body terrible signals by starving some days then gorging on food others. Prepare yourself for the tasks you have at hand during the day, and eat nutritiously and sensibly. Your body will recover from such unpredictable nutritional intake, and demand less food when youre relaxing.

20 years old is more than suitable age for removing one's self from the parents' home, esp if you find the environment abusive. Having a job and living alone > living in abusive home without job.