getting settled

it seems every time i move, i am all gung-ho about changing all my bad habits. in fact, i prolly wrote a very similar blog entry 3 years ago when i moved the first time.

this time i am trying baby steps, altho i decided to hire a personal trainer. hopefully someone holding me accountable for making shitty choices and helping me figure out how to workout will be good. i hate thinking that people are watching me fumble around or mess up when i go to the gym. i really like that this place is private and i don't feel idiotic when i can't do an exercise.

granted, i have only gone 3 times but i am motivated enough that i have not had random beers just for the sake of having a beer. i am not sure i am an alcoholic, but i have one hell of a habit. i've been tracking calories and i eat about 700-800 calories a day. however i drink about 900-1000 calories. i suppose my low food intake is why i am not insanely fat from all my beer consumption.

when it comes to drinking, i just don't care. for the longest time it was an escape and a way to shut off my brain. now its just a way to pass time. but i am finding that if i don't start drinking, i still find things to do. but i am not going to get too excited, i've mentioned here how i stopped for awhile in seattle. but right now i am not feeling too depressed, so who knows?

work is going well. except the mother is super superstitious and willing to attribute her children's behavior to everything except the kids themselves. amazingly, i am managing to get to work at 6.30am and still be awake when i get home. i'm working longer, earlier hours yet i am getting more done in the evenings. its pretty nice.

 

I think your attitude just explained to me the logic of the "dark" excercise room to at the gym here.

 

i explained that to you when we toured the gym. and this is like a fraction of the cost plus i get personal attention. i am sure i could ask to work out in the dark if i wanted to.

 

Dark exercise room? That's crazy talk! How are you supposed to strut around and flex in the mirror in the dark?

Glad to hear that you're doing well a_c; although that mother sounds very frustrating.

 

I wanted to learn different exercises so I downloaded the jefit, It tracks progress and shows proper form

I like your approach to the gym. Its smart!

 

LOVE myfitnesspal!!!!!!!! been using it for a while and it has helped me a great deal. Today is actually my first day not using it because I get very OCD'ish with it. It causes me anxiety if I am unable to input everything that I ingest. So, I'm trying to wing it now with the info I have learned from it regarding my calorie intake.

Isn't the bar code scanner cool?!?!?!??!?!?!?

I'm on the fence about the cardio information it provides. When I do the elliptical at the gym, the calories burned are different from what myfitnesspal states

 

i just use it to track food. i love how easy the barcode scanner is. and that if i cook something more complicated, i like that i can use the recipe calculator to figure out calories/actual serving.

i am trusting a personal trainer will keep me on track about at home exercising since i see him 2-3 times a week.

 

I think the personal trainer is a good idea. Just be consistent and, in time, you will feel a bit 'off' when you miss a day.

The gym is very addictive for me. I went twice today and am considering a third time (~3 hours total). I suspect this is unhealthy but it feels so damn good!

 

i hope one day i will think the gym is fun. and perhaps one day eat well on my own.

right now i have two things motivating me... i want to be toned and sexy when i go to seattle for thanksgiving. and two, i am shelling out too much money to not follow through on things.