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getting over the past

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i need help getting over some bad memorys one in particular not shure if this is the right place for doing it but o well.... About six mounths ago was visiting my dads house in a different state. one night i was looking for some bud since i had no connects i hit the streets looking for conerboy it was late at night and all i wanted was a blunt to ease my mind and go to bed i ended up with much more... i found a guy in front of a liqure store i ask were the trees were at he said ill take u to the spot we walk to a house that had a bunch of ppl everywere some sleeping some smoking doing lines wich didnt make me uncomfotable i had been around it my whole life (mommy was a base head) however i had never touched it and vowed i never would cause i had seen first hand what i does to people.. we went upstairs into a room the guy asked how much i needed told him a dub would be fine he handed me 3 blunts already rolled i thought gee what a nice guy rolled my blunts for me.. I ask him if it was cool if i sparked one up in the house no prob of course lit it, inhaled, held it....exhaled reapeted this untill about a quarted through the blunt i notice something wasnt right i was on fire burning up and it felt like my mind was going fast i thought its late i need sleep kept hitting it by the time i was finish i knew something was wrong i was UP feeling looked in the miror and my pupils were the size of dimes at that momment i knew my shit was laced and as far as how i felt i liked it didnt know why but i loved it... about a week later came back asking for whatever he laced it with lil bit of coke he said u liked it? well i got some shit better he pulled out a dime bag of ICE do a couple lines it aint gonna kill ya stupidly i agreed and now i regret that night everyday of my life cant get it out of my head everyday i think about non stop for now i am a full blown crystal addict.... PLZZ ANY ADVISE ON GETTING OVER THE PAST AND OFF THIS HORIABLE DRUG :(
 
Damn man that is a horrible fucking story. Just remember it's not who you are if you dont want to be that person. Figure out what you really want and go for it.
 
i agree, dont use drugs as a way to define yourself or your past, just use it as stepping stones to reach the future, and that goes for all the other difficult things youve experienced

i feel for you man and in a lot of ways i can relate, thanks 4 the post
 
I feel for you, i'm only seventeen and i'm struggling with an opiate addiction while trying to balance my senior yr...

Try being dopesick at school, not fun...

I wish you the best, and I hope that you move on past that horrible drug. You don't need ice, just like I don't need blues. This is something we have to cope with, and move on the best we can, preferably never looking back.
 
Not sure how long you've been using the ice, obviously the sooner you stop the easier it will be. Altough I know the word easier doesn't really belong in a statement regarding quitting drugs. People will say just smoke weed and you'll be fine, for some, getting totally clean is a better option that will allow you to sort yourself out. Having never used it myself, I can't relate with the cravings that come with it. It's likely just like most other drugs where you'll just chasing the initial rush/ good feelings you get in the beginning and the negatives far outweigh the positives. Unfortunately we do stupid shyt because of drugs. Try to find reasons not to go back, I know it's not as simple in reminding you the place could be raided the next time you stop by.Theres a good chance you could have a cop stepping on your face, which would suck to have happen because you had originally set out to score a little bit of weed. I'm pretty sure this drug has the potential to taking people down the fastest, another good reason to take a step back. To the poster that is wding during school, yeah that doesn't sound like fun, realise though that at 17 you can recover far quicker now as opposed to a few years from now.Being dopesick at work with a stack of unpaid bills, a late mortgage etc is a whole different world. Anyhow OP, getting over the past can be tough for a lot of people, drugs or not. Takes some time, and a lot of effort. Far from impossible though.
 
I've seen a friend through meth addiction, not a pretty site. In 2 years he went from a really muscular, intimidating looking guy, he had no fear, then 2 years later he looked scared, lost, and he looked like a beatup skinny zombie. I compared the pictures, 2 years apart. I wish I could show them. Anyways the best thing to do is stop now. The more you do it, the harder it will be to quit. You will ruin your life and look lie a lifeless zombie, just stop now and stay away from it.
 
sid3 said:
To the poster that is wding during school, yeah that doesn't sound like fun, realise though that at 17 you can recover far quicker now as opposed to a few years from now.
Being dopesick at work with a stack of unpaid bills, a late mortgage etc is a whole different world.
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Opiate addiction will destroy one's life, same as meth; it just usually is spread out over many years, a slow downward spiral. Shards almost did me in within a year; before as a morphine junky I was still moving forward, and I saw why meth is so destructive.
I'd rather be a lifelong junky, than another year as a tweaker.
 
Ixchellian said:
^ Fuckin' A' ™

Opiate addiction will destroy one's life, same as meth; it just usually is spread out over many years, a slow downward spiral. Shards almost did me in within a year; before as a morphine junky I was still moving forward, and I saw why meth is so destructive.
I'd rather be a lifelong junky, than another year as a tweaker.
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yea i know what u mean it blows my mind how fast this filthy substance sucks you in for that first line going up your nose or the hit going to your lungs your hookd plain and simple
 
Get a hold of your self quick dude. You know the dirty road this leads to as it makes you feel so confident and such, but those are all FAKE emotions. This drug is seriously damaging, just try and not pick up today if you are getting it daily. Go back to smoking tree's and just try and force your self not to do it.
 
it's over. yesterday can't change and that's ok cuz you learned something. you do have the choice and the power to change today and tomorrow.
it's over man it's done...
best of luck to you.
-izzy
 
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