Getting off heroin. THE RECIEPE.

[smackhead1337]

Getting off heroin. THE RECIPE.

RUNNING OUT OF MONEY.

Thats a sick recipe.. and pretty much how I quit heroin. My hand was forced and I didn't even want to quit.

I have been sober for 4 months, swapped to bupremorphine when I knew i was going to be strung out on the street with no $ to buy heroin.

Coming down off 16mg was a bitch, it involved nights crying myself to sleep just wanting a shot to make all the pain go away, going (back) to a clinic everyday even though I went to one for 2 years to get my ex-gf off heroin, and basically every withdrawl symptom in the book.

I didnt even have a strong habit (as far as peoples year 2-3 year long habits go)

Alot of it is mental also, after 2-3 weeks of using heroin I was petrified to stop using incase the WD's were "painfull and scary". I probably didnt even need to go on a bupe program after only 9 weeks of using heroin, but I did chew through about $8,500 on gear.

I don't really know what this post is for, I have just been writing back to some threads I have seen about smack.

I guess if anyone is reading this and is trying to quit heroin, I just wanted to give my support and really hope you can get sober! I am loving life at the moment, I have great business prospects and flying back to Amsterdam next week in May and going to Berlin for some conferences.

It will be tough and tempting to try and not score some cheap and pure heroin in Amsterdam lol.

~no price discussion please, t/y~

Anyway GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYONE QUITTING.

Some more advice:

- GET ON BUPE NOT METHADONE.

- IF YOU DONT NEED TO GET ON BUPE, DONT GET ON IT!! cold turkey for everyone under 2 weeks of using. TRUST ME. (but then again, if you are only using for 2 weeks, you are probably still having a blast and the depravity of your situation hasn't kicked in yet. Unless you are a smart cookie and realized what is in store for you).

They overdosed me on bupe at one stage, i went up to 23mg and started spewing up my dinner every day, OVERDOSED ON BUPE. its fuckin possible man...

The docs wanna keep bumping you up to 'stabalize' you, its up to you to tell them NO BUDDY im on enough god damn bupremorphine!!!! I want to quit this shit.

If the docs had it their way, Id probably still be on bupe... Thats no word of a lie.

You really need to take charge with that medication. Take their advice, but also let them know how you want your treatment to go. You can end up a bupe addict...always going to the clinic to get your dose..

There was this 1 guy at the clinic who was an ex-user, and he just CANNOT get off 2mg of bupremorphine ( a pez dose basically )

I jumped OFF at 2mg of bupe, but for this guy it was _impossible_ to get off lol...Poor lad... (even though they have 0.25mg tablets now!)

- KEEP OCCUPIED.
start using the BRAIN that you have!!! You can now start coding again! or doing awesome shit.... The minuite you slow down you will be like ...ohh yeah - I WANT TO SHOOT UP.. So fuckin keep occupied for the critical time after you quit using.

Your brain can only handle soo many inputs at once, and when you are focused and trying to solve problems, you dont have the time to think about withdrawl symptoms or using. (to a degree)

AVOID THE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO PULL YOU DOWN, even though they may be good friends. This is hard- I know, But when you visit them in 6~ months and they are still using but you are not. They are going to want to be in YOUR Shoes. Its not an ego thing, its just reality.

Yeah thats about it... I know you know this, but the reason you are reading this is because you want to hear it again.

YOU KNOW deep inside you that you have MORE to experience in life than the numbness that heroin provides. The people with a real potential are the ones who succeed in quitting. Thats pretty much ALL OF YOU.

The people who have no hope dont read forums and get self help, they spiral into a shitstorm of failure bringing down everyone with them.

1st step) Quit Heroin
2nd step) Make money
3rd step) Win.

seize the day people

Peace o/

 

[smackhead1337]

Also, for anyone wanting to try heroin, and is interested "how I got hooked".

It was simple.

I was awake for 9 days on a meth+crack+<everything> binge. And i needed to come down after shit started happening (which inevitably does with your friends/life after being awake for 9 days lol)

I was about to shoot a xanax, when someone said Hrmm man fuck shooting barbs you should just shoot heroin instead!

I was already exposed to needles and using other opiates, and my ex-gf used heroin for many years and I helped her quit, so I should of known better... But at that stage my decision making skills were out the door because of my pretty much self induced psychosis.

So....well... sure..lets shoot smack instead of xanax, sounds like the SAFER alternative especially because we have no real good filters.

I had 2 shots over 2 days.

The first Time I injected, the first words that came out of my mouth: "hoolllyyy shittt thisss isss ammmaaazzzinnnnnggggg"

no word of a lie. It was awesome, And almost clinical.

Then came the spewin.... lots and lots of spewing... but your still high as fuckkk so you dont give a shit.

I had a shot on a Mon-Tue, then i had a WHOLE WEEK OF not using and recovery at home..

SO IT IS ENTIRELY POSSIBLE TO USE ONCE/TWICE AND NOT USE AGAIN.
IN REALITY, ENTIRELY POSSIBLE = NOT PLAUSIBLE/RECOMMENDED.

You would have to be on some chuck norris shit to forget how fun it was. So a week later I had another shot (my 3rd) and thats when everything came undone... (constant usage after that)

By about 3 weeks into it, I lost all hope of trying to be normal.... I almost shot up on a bus home once, and first 30 secs of my day always start with a shot in the arm + staring at the wall for 10 mins...

ITS DEPRAVED.. But sure there was fun times.. Like just after scoring, going to the needle exchange to get free fits and then walking back through the park with my friend, ECSTATIC that we are about to shoot up some heroin

Anyway -- Heroin's awesomeness is only exceeded by its depravity.
Use cautiously & safely! AND QUIT!!! YOU NEED TO FKN QUIT. or you are FUCKED. The longer you leave it the MORE fucked you are. If i had twice as much money I would of gone twice as long without quitting... If that doesn't tell you how addictive it is... then fuck....

Good luck & PEACE

 

[Paul Newman]

There is no recipe per-se i mean for me i was getting fed up getting fuck all from chasing and as i did not want to start jabbing up even though i loooooved it when i tried it i feel that my desire for a life was more.
For 4 years i smoked gear and during the 4th year of addiction my family found out and i know for sure that the sight of my father sat at the dining room table crying helped me to get there in the end.
I remember the exact moment that i decided to quit, i was sat in my room squinting out the window gouging after a nice long smoke of a couple bags and could see all the graves, as i live opposite a graveyard thinking "yep i'll be there soon if i dont do something", also the parents weren't gonna put up with it for long, so i stopped there and then cold turkey and it was fucking brutal but there was no way i was going to go on methadone and although it never leaves you and it could be so easy to relapse and i did twice i stopped eventually and got a life back, a good job and a massive addiction to alcohol!!
Now ten years later after getting cancer i'm on hardcore painkillers like morphine and fentanyl with a side portion of oxynorm so the moral of the story is.......... Im fucked if i know!!!!

 

[sql5mut]

glad to hear you conjured to strength to quit! that shows an incredible level of will-power!!

 

[freedomchild]

NO MONEY is a great recipe for quitting all kinds of things, lol.

Thanks for the post. Easy to understand, read and I'm glad you're feeling good now.

 

[smackhead1337]

Thanks soo much for your kind words guys, It really means alot and I like to look back on this thread when I feel like I want to use again and see what you guys said

Paul Newman , Your story is epic, I hear that quitting heroin if you smoked it rather than injected can be even harder and more prolonged withdrawls! I hope you are doing ok and your cancer is not stopping you from living in the moment and enjoying life. Take care of yourself bro

Thanks everyone :]