I'm fucking tired of it. I don't deserve it. One thing you should know about me, is that if a guy is treating me like a perfect gentleman, has that vibe I like, we have a good connection, and he's really sweet and generous towards me, I fall fast.
It's only been two weeks, but I was already starting to have feelings for him. And he acted like he felt the same way.
Found out today he has a girlfriend, then spent the next half hour talking about how happy he was that she came over last night (right after I left) until I finally couldn't take it anymore and interuppted him and said, "So are you going to smoke me out or what? Because if not, I'm leaving."
He said no because I have a concussion. BULLSHIT. We've smoked with three times since I have a concussion.
Other thing I realized is that the only reason he's been going out of his way to be nice to me and treat me that way is because he's using me for rides. I realized today that the only time we hang out is when he needs to go pick up (he doesn't have a car). Or wants a Xanax. Or needs a ride to work, or to a meeting. I don't care how long we spend afterwards cuddling and talking and connecting as well as we do; it's all a fucking act.
I left his house just now obviously bothered by something, he wanted me to stay and take a nap and fucking sleep on the floor. Um, no. First of all, I ALWAYS stay in his bed. Second of all, I just wasted a bunch of gas driving you at least 45 miles, and you can't even smoke me out? Some fucking friend, eh?
He knows I'm uspet about something, because he sent me at least 10 texts after I left. But he thinks I'm mad about the fact that he would smoke me out.
No, more about the fact that you've been using me for things. And that you have a girlfriend, all the while you were acting like you actually were starting to get interested... in fact, you started acting interested before I did, and that just makes it worse. And, yes, that you wouldn't smoke me out after all the things I've done for you.
My evil side (and some of my friends) are telling me to just ignore him. The logical part of me that says to do the right thing, is to tell him the truth about why I'm upset, then just leave it at that. Put him in check a bit, make him feel guilty (if that's even an emotion he posses), and then chuck up the deuces forever.
I'm just tired of being hurt... this is the third time in a motherfucking ROW.
It's only been two weeks, but I was already starting to have feelings for him. And he acted like he felt the same way.
Found out today he has a girlfriend, then spent the next half hour talking about how happy he was that she came over last night (right after I left) until I finally couldn't take it anymore and interuppted him and said, "So are you going to smoke me out or what? Because if not, I'm leaving."
He said no because I have a concussion. BULLSHIT. We've smoked with three times since I have a concussion.
Other thing I realized is that the only reason he's been going out of his way to be nice to me and treat me that way is because he's using me for rides. I realized today that the only time we hang out is when he needs to go pick up (he doesn't have a car). Or wants a Xanax. Or needs a ride to work, or to a meeting. I don't care how long we spend afterwards cuddling and talking and connecting as well as we do; it's all a fucking act.
I left his house just now obviously bothered by something, he wanted me to stay and take a nap and fucking sleep on the floor. Um, no. First of all, I ALWAYS stay in his bed. Second of all, I just wasted a bunch of gas driving you at least 45 miles, and you can't even smoke me out? Some fucking friend, eh?
He knows I'm uspet about something, because he sent me at least 10 texts after I left. But he thinks I'm mad about the fact that he would smoke me out.
No, more about the fact that you've been using me for things. And that you have a girlfriend, all the while you were acting like you actually were starting to get interested... in fact, you started acting interested before I did, and that just makes it worse. And, yes, that you wouldn't smoke me out after all the things I've done for you.
My evil side (and some of my friends) are telling me to just ignore him. The logical part of me that says to do the right thing, is to tell him the truth about why I'm upset, then just leave it at that. Put him in check a bit, make him feel guilty (if that's even an emotion he posses), and then chuck up the deuces forever.
I'm just tired of being hurt... this is the third time in a motherfucking ROW.