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I rolled this past Saturday on some dank ass mdma/mda and since then I've had small bursts of tearing up on the verge of crying for no reason at all. It is now Wednesday night.

My first outburst came Sunday night while watching TV a wounded warrior commercial came on and I found myself saluting the soldiers tearing up and close to balling my eyes out.

My second outburst to be honest I can't remember wtf I was thinking about but It happened on Monday while I was driving. All of a sudden I start tearing up my jaw starts shaking and I'm like wtf is going on as I'm looking around looking to see if people driving next to me sees what a loser I am.

My third episode came on Tue while at work I was thinking to myself how in august I'm gonna be a dad for the first time and how good of a father I want to be and the bond I'm gonna have with my son and all of a sudden here comes the waterfall again. This episode if none of the others had occurred wouldn't have been cause for concern.

But the one that's the reason for me starting this thread is because it is now Wednesday night and I'm laying down watching the intro to hells kitchen on dvr and here we fucking go again! Hells kitchen for real (throws hands up in the air)????

Now I'm usually not like this. I haven't cried in many years. Well actually I did after the sandyhook shooting because that was close to home but generally I'm as cold and insensitive as they come lol.

Has this happened to anybody else? I assume its just part of the suicide Tuesday blues. But the weird thing is I'm not even depressed. Any thoughts?
 
You're an emotional wreck while your brain is trying to regulate its neurochemicals. It is missing loads of serotonin and dopamine atm, making you fragile. If you do not like what you are feeling ,don't roll anymore.
 
I get emotional after any uppers. Past two weekends my best friend had to deal with me crying over stupid shit. And I rarely cry.
 
yanker said:
I rolled this past Saturday on some dank ass mdma/mda and since then I've had small bursts of tearing up on the verge of crying for no reason at all. It is now Wednesday night.

My first outburst came Sunday night while watching TV a wounded warrior commercial came on and I found myself saluting the soldiers tearing up and close to balling my eyes out.

My second outburst to be honest I can't remember wtf I was thinking about but It happened on Monday while I was driving. All of a sudden I start tearing up my jaw starts shaking and I'm like wtf is going on as I'm looking around looking to see if people driving next to me sees what a loser I am.

My third episode came on Tue while at work I was thinking to myself how in august I'm gonna be a dad for the first time and how good of a father I want to be and the bond I'm gonna have with my son and all of a sudden here comes the waterfall again. This episode if none of the others had occurred wouldn't have been cause for concern.

But the one that's the reason for me starting this thread is because it is now Wednesday night and I'm laying down watching the intro to hells kitchen on dvr and here we fucking go again! Hells kitchen for real (throws hands up in the air)????

Now I'm usually not like this. I haven't cried in many years. Well actually I did after the sandyhook shooting because that was close to home but generally I'm as cold and insensitive as they come lol.

Has this happened to anybody else? I assume its just part of the suicide Tuesday blues. But the weird thing is I'm not even depressed. Any thoughts?
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How often do you roll and how much do you take? It might be time for a long break. If i remember correctly you abused it in the past, not sure if you still are though.
 
I roll once every 2-3 months (and my idea of a roll is 100mg max) and I get this for a week or so after the roll. Not just sad things but happy things make me feel like I want to cry too, never actually do though.
 
yanker said:
I assume its just part of the suicide Tuesday blues.
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for many users of mdma, this kind of thing is not part of the suicide tuesday blues, it is the suicide tuesday blues.
yanker said:
But the weird thing is I'm not even depressed.
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many mdma users are not depressed and experience what you are describing: the suicide tuesday blues...

alasdair
 
I get that way after high doses, but it only last for two days at the most. Just curious, what mg is your combo? As i believe we have the same product?
 
I'm not sure I agree with some of the posts here. MDMA takes you beyond who and what you think you are and opens a window into what it can be to be human. Since the innocence of childhood you have been subjected to cultural, religious and societal norms of who you are and how you should behave. MDMA strips away those layers, and what you are experiencing are the ripple effects of the MDMA experience where you are being your real, authentic self. Embrace it as a gift and enjoy it while it lasts before your ego takes over and re-programs you into the role you "ought" to fill.

Feelings of patriotism and gratitude can be overwhelming, and becoming a dad may very well be one of the most powerful and intense emotional experiences a man can go through. The MDMA is allowing you to feel the emotional intensity of that amazing experience that you will actually bring life into this world along with the overwhelming responsibility on your shoulders of nurturing another human being to their full potential in life.

You aren't experiencing suicide Tuesday, you are experiencing the miracle and wonder of being alive.
 
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Oh I get this every time I roll and I do space my rolls, something like 6 months between rolls.
I cherish this period. You feel so emotionally connected. It usually wears off after a week or two (alas)
 
vancbc said:
I'm not sure I agree with some of the posts here. MDMA takes you beyond who and what you think you are and opens a window into what it can be to be human. Since the innocence of childhood you have been subjected to cultural, religious and societal norms of who you are and how you should behave. MDMA strips away those layers, and what you are experiencing are the ripple effects of the MDMA experience where you are being your real, authentic self. Embrace it as a gift and enjoy it while it lasts before your ego takes over and re-programs you into the role you "ought" to fill.

Feelings of patriotism and gratitude can be overwhelming, and becoming a dad may very well be one of the most powerful and intense emotional experiences a man can go through. The MDMA is allowing you to feel the emotional intensity of that amazing experience that you will actually bring life into this world along with the overwhelming responsibility on your shoulders of nurturing another human being to their full potential in life.

You aren't experiencing suicide Tuesday, you are experiencing the miracle and wonder of being alive.
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What an uplifting post this is. Almost made me cry. It def put me in a good mood.

Today is Friday and I went all of Thursday without a tear so I guess I'm back to my old cold insensitive self again.
 
It is normal, i had same thing after i rolled after 5 years brake. I was driving in my car to work, and then i had put the trance i listened while on MDMA, I wanted to cry, not because i was sad. In a good way. I was like "What the fuck" :D

Example - when some people meet each other, without seeing each other for few years, some start smile and are happy but some start cry.
Or if someone wins huge amount of money - they cry, not because they are sad - its emotional. After u laught - i feel good, after u cry - u also feel good.
So all in all its +
 
yanker said:
I rolled this past Saturday on some dank ass mdma/mda and since then I've had small bursts of tearing up on the verge of crying for no reason at all. It is now Wednesday night.

My first outburst came Sunday night while watching TV a wounded warrior commercial came on and I found myself saluting the soldiers tearing up and close to balling my eyes out.

My second outburst to be honest I can't remember wtf I was thinking about but It happened on Monday while I was driving. All of a sudden I start tearing up my jaw starts shaking and I'm like wtf is going on as I'm looking around looking to see if people driving next to me sees what a loser I am.

My third episode came on Tue while at work I was thinking to myself how in august I'm gonna be a dad for the first time and how good of a father I want to be and the bond I'm gonna have with my son and all of a sudden here comes the waterfall again. This episode if none of the others had occurred wouldn't have been cause for concern.

But the one that's the reason for me starting this thread is because it is now Wednesday night and I'm laying down watching the intro to hells kitchen on dvr and here we fucking go again! Hells kitchen for real (throws hands up in the air)????

Now I'm usually not like this. I haven't cried in many years. Well actually I did after the sandyhook shooting because that was close to home but generally I'm as cold and insensitive as they come lol.

Has this happened to anybody else? I assume its just part of the suicide Tuesday blues. But the weird thing is I'm not even depressed. Any thoughts?
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yeah I got this way after gobbling down a whole stash because I heard weird clicking sounds on the phone and didn't want to flush down the toilet. same thing happens with opiate withdrawal. your empathy senses get ultra-heightened
 
hahah I love getting a little emotional after an MDMA session, usually after ibiza doing it too much. A little tear rolled down my face when free willy jumped over them rocks, after a few minutes I got myself togethor and pissed myself laughing at what a state I was in for about 10 minutes lol
 
yanker said:
Today is Friday and I went all of Thursday without a tear so I guess I'm back to my old cold insensitive self again.
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Don't be so hard on yourself. :-)

You are who and what you were taught, cultured and programmed to be. Being emotionally connected does't mean you will always be teary. A new way of experiencing life can be a novel experience and can cause a lot of intense emotion, but that is normal and expected and will fade over time. You're only as old, cold and insensitive as you believe you are.

To the contrary, what I see from your posts is a guy who is in touch with himself and on the way to becoming a great dad. Personally, I believe your newborn will be very lucky and is going to have a great father. There are so many things wrong with the world, but I honestly believe you, my friend, are one of the things that is helping it to be right. :-)

Keep us posted on how things are going.
 
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