Getting clean

[Thethe123]

I am officially 72 hours clean from my oxy and heroin habit.. This was not my choice I am 2000 miles away from home in Arizona visiting my brother at rehab.. So I am very scared that when I return I will not be able to stay clean I want my life back I want my friends back I want to be able to feel again I lost interest in all the things I used to love during these past 8 month and now all I think about is using, my addicted self left a line of heroin ready to go at home and I don't think I have the power to flush it.

 

[totach]

Hey I'm not gonna say it's easy to flush that dope when you get home you pretty much set yourself up for failure
I was never good at flushing.My dope I've done it a few times only to cop either the same day or the next
Obviously I'd suggest flushing it when you get home but if you can't and use it then you can still just not cop again
To be honest last time I left detox when I got.My jacket back I had a few empty baggies and a rig and I couldn't bring myself to throw it out
So the addict I am I tried to get high but after that I haven't used since and it's bin over a month
So what I'm saying is even if you use that line which I hope you don't you can still decide to continue staying clean afterword.
Don't be hard on yourself whatever your decision will be
Keep us updated

 

[Thethe123]

Thanks for the response. I had no intentions of staying sober when I left but this is the longest I've gone with out and it feels great (but shitty). Thats my plan I guess a little goodbye sesh but it's so hard to picture life with out opiates I really wish I never went down this road.

 

[herbavore]

Any chance that you and your brother can work together and support each other when he gets out of rehab?

 

[Thethe123]

Well he's going to a sober house once he gets out but I guess it just a matter of time to see what kind of will power I have.