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Getting clean - My diary

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Hello everyone, over the next few months I'm going to try and keep track of my latest attempt at stabalizing my life.

A little background information:
Other than Meth I've tried all the 'popular' drugs (and a whole host of RC's), since 16 my main hobby has been taking, recovering from or learning about drugs.
When I was 17 I first tried pharmacutical opiates and instantly fell in love. Fast forward to today, 5 years later and I've been addicted for 4 years, am injecting Heroin 2-3 times a day and have been on Methadone for about 7 months.
I'm on 25mg Methadone a day; I don't know why but it seems to hit me much harder than other people, I went from taking 320mg OC a day to 30mg Methadone and had no problems at all. Not only that but I can easily skip a day (2 if I really try) and have no problems whatsoever, I think my body metabolises it slower or something.

Anyway, I'm using on top of my 'done near enough every day, in fact today is going to be the first time in weeks I've gone without a shot for a day - Hoorah for small victories :)

This journal is more to help me than anything, a place I can record my thoughts and in moments of weakness, go back and remind myself of what a terrible idea it is to start using again.

My goals are as follows:
1. Not use on top of script for 6 weeks.
2. Start reducing Methadone nice and slow.
3. If I ever use on top, stop decreasing until I've not used for 6 weeks.

Wish me luck all, I've got a few additions I plan to make to this thread later, but for now I better get back to work.
 
Hi there, welcome to TDS! It's fantastic that you have those goals and hooray for small victories indeed! Sometimes I think that it was what life is really about - taking pleasure from the small things, especially when the big things are hard (and going a day without shooting up is definitely something to be proud of!)

A journal is a really great idea - however, I think it would be more suited to the "blogs" function on here. If you want, I can leave this thread open so you can get support while you try to get clean - but if you want it to be more of a journal then I'll probably close it and you can keep us updated via blogs. What do you think?

Good luck! :) <3
 
Hmm, I guess it probably would be better suited to a blog, after looking at some of the other threads here there's plenty of places I can post for support anyway.

Let this thread die and I'll copy the first post to my blog when I get a chance :)
 
Okay - please don't think I am discouraging you at all, I think it is an excellent idea! It is just that blogs are prefectly suited to that kind of thing, and seeing as we have a blogging facility on BL.. :)

I'll close this for now but if you do decide you would like some support ect shoot me or one of the other mods a pm and we can re-open.

I look forward to reading your journal entries - good luck! :) <3

edit: actually, I will leave it open, that way you have the option to return if you wish :)
 
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