General 'life itself' changes since using mdma.

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

In my opinion:

These personality changes won't be forever. You've altered your brain chemistry by doing a fair bit of M over a short time, and you are going to be a bit different as the seretonin part of your brain rewires itself back up again. Over a long time scale after using M, your brain be slowly changing. Also, these immensely positive raving experiences are recent in your memory, and they're having a big effect on the way you behave.

Eventually, these rolling memories will fade - unless you keep rolling all the time, which is simply unsustainable by the way - and your brain will heal itself (the drug is supposedly damaging on a deep level, according to scientists who do research on the stuff.Not only to your brain but also your internal organs, heart... the organism-as-a-whole). These subtle brain changes, and the faded raving memories, will come to change you.

I noticed at first that I was more social and outgoing than I used to be, when I was sober and using Mdma on occasion. That faded eventually though and I think I ended up worse than I was initially for a while. I'm changing - I'm becoming more like raver me all the time - but it has nothing to do with Mdma anymore, it has to do with meditation and self effort. Rolling just opened the gate. Other drugs have had a far greater impact on my worldview than this one, which in all honestly I don't think really affected me that much, despite how incredible my experiences were - but I probably have some detectable memory impairment, I'm probably moodier due to my use of this drug, and I definitely put a fair amount of unnecessary stress on my body. Extensive use of this drug is simply not good for your body long term and you may end up less stable. I am lucky - for the sake of my body - that I didn't stay on this raving path for too long, if I had done it any more than I did, I'd most likely be right fucked up in the head by now.

Not to mention, I'm pretty sure it made me suicidal at times when I was getting off it, looking back I was so fucking miserable for a while there, and I never connected it to my Mdma use, because it was a few months after I had used, but I feel like way too much rolling back in the day must have been a contributing factor to the period of depression I went through last year. The side effects show up long term, after doing a lot of M it really takes a while to stabilize. Just because you're ok now doesn't mean you'll be ok 2 months from now, even if you were to stop rolling.

 

[Chemicalblood]

I hadn't tried md before I went to uni and now I'm home my parents definitely think I'm more blunt, slightly less empathetic with people. I'm not sure if that's md though, I'd never thought it could have been until I read this, I just put it down to moving away and coming home. It's an interesting view though.
However, I definitely do have a different view on things, I'll be in clubs drinking and think, 'this is going to make me feel horrendously sick in about an hour and I'll lose control', I think I'm moving away from alcohol being my preferred high, and my friends definitely have seen an attitude change in going out with them, they don't drop btw.
People tell me I always over-think how drugs have changed me, whether they have at all, I don't know. Maybe it was just a natural process that was going to happen anyway

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

Same thing happened to me man, I've pretty much dropped bars completely at this point - you're probably just growing up, and coming to some realizations about the nature of bars and alcohol. Once you've seen, you can't unsee. I'm not cool with that 'self abuse to fit in and be less shy' shit at all anymore, and it's not just cause of drugs but they helped me see that my party life was getting me nowhere. In university that's all I'd do, looking back it's hard to comprehend how foolish I was. But I just didn't know, there's a lot I've figured out about the nature of reality since then. I've changed so much over the years since uni. I'd much rather stay in on Friday night, hit my volcano, do some yoga postures and read a good book, going out makes no sense to me anymore. Whereas during my raving days, all I'd care about was going out, and it really was a hell of a good time. Taking Mdma and thus the party life to the extreme was doubtless one experience that I grew from. I went to my last 2-day raveout with merely a few joints (and still had a blast dancing around).

I overthink this stuff too, I don't think Mdma changed me at all really. I'm probably less shy because I know I'm capable of that. Mushrooms, cannabis, and the literature I read have changed me much more profoundly than raving out.

 

[mark881]

Not sure if that's a change for the better. You can learn not to get taken advantage of without being callous towards your friends. I could understand if some random dude came up to you and asked but not a real friend. My friends are my family, we thrive together and we suffer together. If you feel like your friends wouldn't help you out when you are in trouble then you need new friends.

The world needs more sympathy and understanding, not less.

Exactly. You have to balance this. I am always one to lend someone 20 quid, but there is no way people will take advantage of me either as I am an utterly streetwise from my profession. Result? My entire circle is solid as a mountain round me and no one takes advantage of anyone within the circle yet we buy eachother into the club, give free stuff to eachother, lend money to eachother and general favours all time. When we need to pay a taxi, everyone wants to pay for it etc. As soon as someone abuses our feel good hippy vibe they are bombed out the circle pretty much forever. My posse is kind and generous but not to be taken advantage of.