The "Social" forum replaces "The Lounge" as the general off-topic, non-drug-centric social board.
This thread, which hasn't taken off, unfortunately, is intended to be at least semi-drug related (as in, "shooting the shit about shooting the shit" i.e. people sharing the same "interests," lifestyle, etc. talking about it and life in general. I would love to see it happen, though. The local drug threads are pretty much small groups of people shooting the sit about shooting the shit and the constant idiots attempting to join to get drugs, some days I have to ban about a dozen people who join just to say, "where can I get dope in Chatanooga, TN," or wherever.
But I wanted a more informal space for us to talk to one another.
Anyway, right now I'm off work due to disability. I remain on suboxone, testosterone, antidepressants, Valium, Visaril, a few other things; have on/off serious issues with alcohol. I've found what for me counts as a wonder drug, though, for alcoholism, and that's high dose gabapentin(3,600mg/day+, including higher than medically standard, i.e. ~5g range, which I can't recommend, but is not likely to be extremely dangerous except in a cocktail with serious respiratory depressants, or if you experience side effects at more normal dose levels. Initially it's sedating, and does make me want to take a nap or two during the day, but, especially when I have something to do, it really does wonders for alcohol cravings and even the shakes (although I would strongly recommend against trying it if you're flirting with full on DTs, in which case you need to be in a hospital on high dose benzos tapering off), but I have to add as a footnote that in the medical literature it doesn't beat placebo as a treatment for alcohol dependence, but this doesn't mean it doesn't work for some people, and it sure as fuck works for me.
Apart from the prescribed stuff, no drugs for me, really. Get cravings here and there, well, obviously for dope and the needle (I find myself looking forward to testosterone injections even just for the needle itself lol) but for keta and, oddly, coke, which was never super-my thing.
My thing was always psychedelics, and I was into the touring scene, but that's kind of evolved away from me, or me from it, or maybe I'm just not in that 18-30 bracket anymore. My mom still has an O.G. "don't trust anybody over 30" pin from the 60s

I guess I'm on the wrong side now
I miss those days like anything. I'm actually writing about it, in semi-autobiographical impressionistic form, got about 60,000 words of what'll probably wind up a 200k word monster of a rough draft to edit (the hardest part; I just took out like 6,500 words which was a big accomplishment, writing a lot of bullshit is easy, condensing it into real narrative and concise description and aesthetically pleasing prose is another matter … which brings up another interesting thing, when used sparingly, gabapentin seems to help evoke some creative impulse in me. Odd maybe but not unheard of, booze of course is the muse of many of our greatest authors, my record on mixing alcohol and writing is mixed, probably due to my impulse to drink until I pass out … I've heard similar anecdotes about phenibut, GHB and simillar though.)
But anyway blah blah drugs.
I'm in a weird and sort of precarious place right now. If I don't wind up going back to work at my current job I'm gonna be sorely tempted to take up the lifestyle again. But, again, "don't trust anyone over 30." When we were kids in tents walking around at festivals selling shit or even taking those nerve-wracking car rides or 3-minute eternities at the post office, the shit was kind of new and exciting and fun, now I just can't see it being any of that, I dunno. I dunno how some of the people I partied with from, IDK, 1998-2013 or so, are still doing it; but by the numbers I think more are off the shit and just square, off the shit and into "the" or a program, or in prison, or crazy, or dead.
The numbers of dead are so alarming.
Fentanyl, people, run and shout it from the rooftops. It's a fucking crisis.
what else is there to say? idk. I hope maybe we can even start something more than just simmering here now that this is bumped
/renames thread