I'm just too much of an addict to be able to do this. When I get a bottle it goes. The closest I came to trying to interrupt the daily cycle was a couple of 24hr periods when I substituted booze for the g, or baclofen and pregabalin, but then like a total eejit, I reckoned as I didn't feel tooooo bad, I'd just chuck in a bit more g. And stop after a day.
Back to square bastard one. The last 3 work days, I drank a full bottle of spirits at work (its an office) a day with asda blue charge, and sat glued to my pc screen, doing fuck all, holding my breath when the bosses walked past. Like they wouldn't notice! I had to take today off to go to the gp to get some more[/I] baclofen, as over the weekend when I tried to detox myself using small amounts of booze (after a day into withdrawal, I was soooo weak, I couldn't lift my head to get to the shop for more) and phenergan, I felt so utterly horrifically depressed, I mean, major major bad fucking everything I even look at or even think about terrifies me......
er, where was I?
Ah yes. I'll probably be getting sacked, unless I can use my mentally ill card again, but to be honest, I find myself just wishing I would get sacked, so i can just finally get some benefits, and peace of mind, and go back home and live with my parents, and my alcoholic mate, and just make my own home brew, etc instead of dodging debt collectors. And that.
Fuck.
G, eh?