No.I normally start withdrawals on a Saturday,use whatever comes to hand to get through the first 24 hours,then take 5mg olanzapine Sunday and Monday nights and stop that because I start feeling awful from more than 3 days on it.
Its gone wrong this time because I did it on a Tuesday.Theres no way currently that I can deal with being around my dad sober.Had to turn up drunk anytime I went there in 2002 - 03.Then severed all contact until finally I fond various other products that helped me more than alcohol.
I am not doing an inpatient detox as that would involve having to tell people,and no way can I do that.GBL is my secret addiction,my Dr knows (although I serverly downplay the amounts and times its used for).I am on the books of the substance misuse service,but they have been fuck all use so far.I really have to get something sorted out there,counselling was promised and all sorts,yet they let me slip through the net after my keyworker got a new job,also the only drugs they really know how to deal with are heroin and alcohol..although the whole service is blatantly mainly for people on probation who have zero interest in coming off whatever drug,but are sent there as part of their probation..
The reason I have felt awful since Wednesday morning is because of taking 7 x 5mg olanzapine (which I have no recollection of doing) and how it has removed all my serotonin as well as dopamine and I feel like a total zombie.Plus I couldn't eat on Tues/Wed/most of Thurs.
I was going to come off it last Saturday but fucked that up.Was also going to buy a g of methylone and take that today and start back on the guice sometime between tonight and tomorrow morning.Decided that was a terrible idea

250ml GBL costs quite a bit less than 125ml plus a g of methylone.
I'm going to make a Drs appointment hopefully for next Friday to get enough stuff to come off it.
Yes I'm a big fucking mess but apart from cancelling a few things due to being in a zombified state I haven't bothered anyone else.And I can't stay off it permanently,the last 2 times I've come off it I've gone for 14 - 16 days without...but end up turning back into the total drunk that I am.
I've got some oral syringes now and am going to work out a reducing dose scheme.Not straight away of course....I'll have a weeks fun and then reduce and get the other meds in.
At no point would I say "never again"..the stuff has too many positive effects on me and my life.
I'll keep doing the 1 or 2 weeks on followed by 2 weeks off programme until its made illegal and then I'll no doubt after a month start searching for another way to get GHB into my system.