funlover
Greenlighter
I wrote a bit last summer/fall after a gastritis diagnosis and my doctor telling me I couldn't drink for 2-3 months. (Pretty sure the gastritis was caused by too much drinking). I somewhat enjoyed a new lifestyle but missed the old one and after 10 weeks pretty much slipped back into old patterns.... 10 drinks and a gram of coke on Saturday nights... During the week at least one or two nights with several drinks. Well, the symptoms started coming back again though I tried to ignore them, but they're now full fledged. Nausea, can't eat, etc so I really can't deny it anymore. I am, I'm ashamed to admit, really, really upset. I don't want to go back to the struggle before of missing out on fun nights because I was afraid of temptation, or going out and feeling bitter all night because I can't have a drink. I'm feeling so, so depressed... I can't believe this is happening again. I am caught between wanting to be healthier and loving the fun nights out drinking with no thought towards health. Do I really have to stop drinking again altogether, as my doc says? What if I just stick to 2-3 drinks a night... Will I get better? Does anyone have experience with this? Or ways to handle the depression of feeling you're missing out on everything fun in life?
