Gahhh - Anger

[Hear Me Roar]

I've been seeing a psychiatrist, had chronic insomnia for 8 years now, along with what my psychiatrist calls, a strong 'split conciousness'. Not schizophrenia. As well as the depression and anxiety issues which go along with it.
I think this is the right place for it, seems it. Most other threads revolving around psychiatric help and medications seem to fall into the category of the dark side.

Any who...

I've been trying out different medications, from SSRI's, SNRI's and MAOIs. Nothing seemed to work for me, or if they did work, they just made me numb. Not happy, not sad, just numb. None of them ever helped my insomnia, but still.... anyway, as I said, I've been seeing a psychiatrist, a new one and he has put me on, mirtazapine, an NaSSA. He said it would help with my sleep(only been on it 3 days, kind of helped my sleep, getting a few hours extra). The only issue I'm having, is I am uncontrollably very irritable at everything. Can feel anger building up at the slightest thing.

My dogs, followed me into the kitchen, I got so pissed off.
There is chicken in the fridge which hadn't been cooked, still in the packet. It had only been there 2 days, still fresh.... yet I got pissed off.
The fact I'm writing this, is pissing me the fuck off.

I want to literally go out and just go on a rampage, of destroying shit. For no reason.

I just feel so much rageeeeee!

The problem is, as much as I try and control it, I know I'm going to end up spurting my anger out at someone.

I know mirtazapine can have such a side effect, but at the same time, I don't know how long I can stand feeling like this, until it wears off and everything settles down. If it does at all.

Has anyone else suffered with similar effects taking mirtazapine or medication in general? How did you cope?
If you did/are taking mirtazapine and suffered similar side effects, how long did it take for the angry feelings to subside?

I mean, I've taken quite a few medications now, all having there individual side effects. But most never made me emotional. I just suffered with physical symptoms or feeling hazy/hard to think.

With these, I have no physical side effects, I just want to punch whoever stares at me the wrong way, kinda thing.

 

[ugly]

I assume anger management classes didn't work.

Please don't kill anyone.

I think rages are similar to seizures. I wonder if you need seizure meds. Plus a hypnotic....

just thinking out loud

 

[Hear Me Roar]

Nooooo, no need for anger classes. I'm normally a chill person, just with taking this new medication, its making me feel so angry.

 

[ugly]

That's not good... there are normally no meds prescribed to HELP you have rage.

There are probably alternatives your doctor knows of.

I wouldn't want to take anything that gave me anger attacks. That would be hell.

 

[herbavore]

Have you talked to the doctor about that effect? It sounds pretty serious and unpleasant for you not to mention everyone else that may be the recipient of the anger. If all it is actually doing is helping slightly with sleep then it sounds like it is not working. There are many non-drug therapies to deal with depression and unhappiness but you probably won't learn any of them from a psychiatrist unless he/she is quite innovative and different from most in that field. Have you thought about seeing a psychologist? Have you ever tried things like CBT or Mindfulness?

Getting locked into the "I'm-sick-and-have-to-be-medicated" frame of mind is scary if other avenues haven't been completely explored. I'm not implying that mental illness does not exist and that there is never a need for medication. I just hate to see people put on all these powerful mind altering drugs, left to deal on their own with all the side-effects that the doctors never talk about, and otherwise made worse by what is supposedly treatment.

Insomnia is bad and has side-effects of its own, but you have to weigh whether the treatment is worse than the condition in this case.

I have had insomnia for about a year and treat it sparingly (one or two times a month at most) with marijuana edibles which works well for me.