Hi all. So my doc prescribed me 2400mg gabapentin daily, which i used to dabble around with a year or two ago. I would take between 5-12grams recreationally but not often. i enjoyed it, but only dabbled with it for a couple months. I never really took the drug on a daily basis. Anyway, I got back on 16mg suboxone for the past 2 years and my scripts of gabbys have been piling up for years. About 2 months ago i got a random idea to start recreationally using the gabbys again. I would take on average 5-10 grams every other day. This went on for about 6 weeks until i decided to stop cold turkey. When i used gabbys before i NEVER got wd symptoms other than stomach issues. This time it feels like almost a benzo wd. The first few days i couldnt focus on anything. i had depression, insomnia, anxiety, sweats, and TERRIBLE jaw pain akin to TMJ. The worst part however, is that I started to feel this confusion. i've been experiencing this terrible mental distress as if my brain just isnt working correctly. i almost feel delirious, full of dread like i fucked up my brain and i can no longer think correctly. I'm extremely irrationally irritable as well. I've done tons of research and found that most of these are "normal" symptoms but most ppl only feel them for a few days. I'm now 9 days in and still feel brain dead. i'm terrified, i feel like i'm just a husk of my former self, like i fried my brain and it sends me into a full blown panic several times a day. this isnt like a normal anxiety attack either, Its so hard for me to describe. I have an appointment with my doc in a week, and i'm planning on telling her. Im not sure if thats a great idea or not, but im just so fucking terrified. Has anyone experienced anything like this feeling of insanity? im just so afraid of never getting back to normal, and i fear when i tell my doc shes going to put me on some psych med that will make me worse and i'll end up like the mom in "Requiem for a Dream". I fear that maybe while i was asleep i was having bad seizures which has been causing this awful constant jaw pain as well as this mental fogginess? I dont know what to think anymore. Any help would be greatly appreciated.