Fun times..

i hate this.

 

Tell us more, kace. What exactly do you hate about your current situation? What plans do you have formulated to realistically make your current plight more bearable or even desirable perhaps?

 

withdrawals? i missed the post about reporting abuse, how is that progressing?

 

Thanks your responses Dres + Jone (I don't expect anyone to tolerate a word I say!! I'm not used to people being nice?! Thank you x)

It's really embarrassing, but I'm sorry, I don't remember writing this. Apparently, I've been having seizures, which I think causes memory lapses?
I'm not sure. I know I have them a few times a week? I think? I don't remember the 25th at this time.. I remember waking up on the floor on the 28th, and must of had one then, don't know about the 25th though. I don't remember them usually, as I sort of just try and stay in my bed, so I don't hit my head etc.

I'm not in w/ds anymore, (on a methadone taper and been on 2mgs when I need it a/ a day for over a year).

I hope you're both doing well, I want to speak to both of you when I'm not in pain so much. (Don't know why, but have incredibly painful headache atm. After the "seizure?" the other day, and being released from hospital, I've slept and slept. Feel normal other than headache, yay.

I hope you're both good. I'm sorry for the late reply, I find it impossible to do anything on "bad days" x

 

withdrawals? i missed the post about reporting abuse, how is that progressing?

Thanks for replying/ caring!!

I've learnt to live with w/ds, they don't bother me too much.

I have an appointment on the 10th Jan for the abuse thing, to do a video statement.

I'm so scared and need to ask questions before (e.g how can they protect me, my family from him in the long run?!) I know I will need to go into specific detail, which I'll do for the sake of protecting others, but ah... it's not going to be fun... Even on the phone to the police, they asked personal questions about "did he ever force you to do x, y z", and .. I don't know how to lie.. and had to be honest... and ... ahhh, I had repressed a certain memory (being forced to do things in front of his friend), and now remember....!!!! ahhhhh!!!!

I'm desperately seeking ASAP prof support, but it takes months.. Trying to be strong, it's hard.