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I'm full of anger, hatred and rage. I thought these feelings were finally leaving. I had been so at peace recently and I remember it felt nice.

These thoughts I have are violent. I want to hurt someone. I want to unleash.

Someone's got to pay. There must be repercussions.

Its not helping writing about it.

I just feel hate like I haven't felt in a long time.

I'll try to stop thinking and try to convince myself that this doesn't matter.

People are twisted pieces of shit and I hate them.

I feel nuts. Never wanted to be crazy. People always said I was but I thought they were joking. Maybe they see something I don't.

 

Have you tried meditation at all?

 

I'm off and on today.
Thoughts were too crazy to still my mind.
I even tried praying to whatever is out there to remove this from me.
I'm concerned about a friend who went missing. I don't know if she's safe, being hurt, alive. I'm dwelling on the worst case scenarios that could be happening to her and they are HORRIBLE.
I don't know if she is free to get out of whatever she is in or if she is being controlled/dominated.
I hate piece of shit males that will do/say ANYTHING to fulfill a simple need regardless of the damage or pain they inflict.

 

Try to use some of the emotional coping skills you learned in rehab hun. Perhaps there is someone that could guide you in this.
I'm here if you need to talk.