fukindammit..................

[Tribal Hybridz]

Memories...like the cheap hairspray on my pillow,
remindss me of times when you were mine.
laying right next to me,so scandelous.
i knew you were too. your a female.
you are here to somewhat fuck me up,
dont ask, i dont understand either.
i want you, i care. ill be there.
but i cant, cuz somebody else done fucked it all up.
done destroyed your fuckin dome piece.
and all the others i fear.
yeah, i talked to christ last night.
but i still wouldnt look in the mirror,
to look him in the eye.
what is it i despise,
my lies, or your lies?
where am i, and what are you?
a drunk like me.
forgotten in this cold world,
outside inside, left overs and rain.
dammit, im not making any sense again.
i hate whisky, i hate work.
i hate money, i hate cigarrettes...
yet, i indulge in all of it,everyday.
fuckin dammit is all i can say,
man i dropped last night, what can i say?
the fuckin clowns pissed me off again.
fuckin clowns.
i think i hate clowns,
or i would, if they all werent my friends.
any answers? of course you have none for me.
just write what you want. be free.
you want me, but wont allow it.
somwbody before me locked you up tight.
and you have to hate on me to make yourself feel alright.
yeah, fuck you, i love you too.
for real, i do love you too.
for some fucked up reason occasion.
i should just stop where im at,
while my body is still alive.....

 

[goodnitestar]

doesnt sound like your having such a good time, and the girl your talking about reminds me of myself now, ive been torn apart 3 times in a row by a guy , and it is hard, dont feel like she doesnt want u or care, its just hard to let the wall down when u know how much it could hurt, she is just afraid of it, but give it time and if its meant to be all will work out for ya. good poem, write as much as you can , its more of a way to release your emotions, adn is healing ,,,,more than any drug..
peace
christal

 

[Tribal Hybridz]

i was wrong.. you did have my answer..thank you soooooooooooo much.

 

[nephil]

Definitely let it out. There is so much emotion flowing in your writings. Unfortunately a hardened heart is difficult to get into. Just be true and it will come to you, this person must know what goodness you will bring to them. Show her by truly revealing yourself.