Fucking relapse :(

[Klonopin King]

Over the past 6 months i have been using oxy/opana/hydro about 4-5 times a week. My problem seems to be that although signs of physical withdrawal are almost non existent, i feel overwhelmingly depressed the morning after even if i dose at night. my last stint was exactly 50 hours from now and i was still feeling shite and admittedly in a moment of weakness i ate some norcos, just now and relasped! Should i seek DRT or counselling ect.? I simply cannot afford this habit and certainly cannot handle these feelings!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Homeless---------------------------> The Dark Side

You are going to get many mixed reviews about DRT and counseling as well as any other method but it sounds like you know it is time to start doing something. The first step is probably to make a list of what is available in your area, make phone calls about cost and availability, than pick one and give it a try.

 

[Kipo]

Just get rid of it somehow. Outta sight, out of mind. I find that when i have something, im much more inclined to use it (if that makes any sense).

 

[rcfun85]

Sorry man. Addiction is a bitch. Rehab can help. I quit for 1 1/2 years after a stay.. (Well being on probation was a motivating factor)..

 

[Klonopin King]

Yeah isn't it though, man? And congrats on being clean, it was a moment of weakness as they say for me though. Enki thank you for the kind words, a few of my posts you have actually taken the time to respond to and i really appreciate it. You are a great moderator indeed. Also i have gone on walks/ exercised and even hung out with friends though i feel like complete crap. It usually ends in my friends giving me a hard time about my addiction, either i leave and isolate my self at that point or try and deal with it. Those are what i thought good ways to take my mind off it but little things throughout the day constantly remind me. I admittedly even cry a few times a day when i dont have opiates, it's pathetic I know. The crying is in part due to my dad's recent prosecution as he was addicted to painkillers for fifteen years and final;y got busted for prescription drug fraud, his sentence is fifteen years+.

P.S, Kipo i have a prescription for norco so that very well may be the problem.

 

[paranoid android]

Well the whole feeling like shit, general fatigue, depression, etc could be a result of the PAWS which is only normal when coming off opiates or any addictive drug actually. You have to be prepared for them and learning how to deal with them will help alot as well. Eating healthy, exercising and various other activities such as lotsa sex help as well.

I generally sleep alot during the first few days of withdrawal (this is not including post withdrawal) then i do during the latter stages. From day 1 to 4 i have a hard time staying awake at all much less doing anything productive and then the insomnia kicks in and i feel even worse. No sleep (unless i take sleeping pills), feeling constantly fatigued, staring at the walls all night while chain smoking, etc.

As for feeling like shit the next day after dosing i would often wake up in withdrawal when i was shooting dilaudid since the stuff is so short acting. When i was shooting morphine or taking the instant release pills i would often go into WD within say 12 hours. Oxycodone is between dilaudid and morphine in terms of how long until i get sick again.

Keep your head up man you can beat it. Good luck

 

[Klonopin King]

Well the whole feeling like shit, general fatigue, depression, etc could be a result of the PAWS which is only normal when coming off opiates or any addictive drug actually. You have to be prepared for them and learning how to deal with them will help alot as well. Eating healthy, exercising and various other activities such as lotsa sex help as well.

I generally sleep alot during the first few days of withdrawal (this is not including post withdrawal) then i do during the latter stages. From day 1 to 4 i have a hard time staying awake at all much less doing anything productive and then the insomnia kicks in and i feel even worse. No sleep (unless i take sleeping pills), feeling constantly fatigued, staring at the walls all night while chain smoking, etc.

As for feeling like shit the next day after dosing i would often wake up in withdrawal when i was shooting dilaudid since the stuff is so short acting. When i was shooting morphine or taking the instant release pills i would often go into WD within say 12 hours. Oxycodone is between dilaudid and morphine in terms of how long until i get sick again.

Keep your head up man you can beat it. Good luck

thank you

 

[fantom13]

i am in the same boat. i heart norcos and they are not around and those 3-5 days i can't find them are hell... i am sure if past the 5-7 day mark i would be ok. hope to quit soon

 

[Klonopin King]

^Good luck in your endeavors

 

[Kipo]

Do you medically need the narcos? If you just bullshitted them, just throw em out. I know it sounds hard, but i had a perscription for vicodin a while back, so i know how hard it is to toss em. If you need them for medical reasons, get one of those SMTWTFS day of the week pill cases. Just divide how many you get when you fill up and divide by seven. Then just round up if you need to and get that many pill cases. This way you only have to look at what you need.

 

[Klonopin King]

^ I wouldn't say i bullshitted them, to begin with i was prescribed them for really bad oral hygiene and at the time all my wisdom teeth were coming in and i had two molars that needed root canals. Some people legit get hooked on them through being prescribed, but i cannot say this is the case for me for i have a strong love for opiates, and i abuse them admittedly. Although I barely have physical withdrawal aside from a bit of discomfort and insomnia, My tooth pain is a contributing factor to my continual usage.

 

[paranoid android]

Yeah i am prescribed them for legit pain and unfortunately i need to take them. Though i do abuse the shit out of them on occasions it's kinda hard not to do when your in pain more often then not and if you add bipolar disorder to that yeah you get the idea . I had more access to opiates before i developed chronic pain but i never got hooked until i developed chronic pain. Oh well life can be a bitch right enough

 

[frogboy]

Hey K.P. King I hope you learn how to beat this before more of life gets away from you. You really can do it if not for yourself then find something in life that you owe it to maybe your friends or family. Get someone to lock you down for a week I know it's not going to be fun but think of being clean it's worth it at any and all cost. Run from the drugs that stalk you and want to destroy you and all that you love in life. The Duct tape and chicken soup therapy is what you would get from me.

 

[Klonopin King]

@Paranoid, i have completely taken myself off the norcos, unfortunately i've been doing opana almost every day lately, it seems much worse as far as the length until w/ds begin compared to hydro or OC. I plan on going cold turkey and i am lucky enough to say my physical withdrawals are little more than hot/cold flashes and a bit of nausea/stomach discomfort. I think the whole mental thing is just my love for opiates is out of hand, i like it too much to continue. Ill be smoking a lot of weed seems to help .

Hey K.P. King I hope you learn how to beat this before more of life gets away from you. You really can do it if not for yourself then find something in life that you owe it to maybe your friends or family. Get someone to lock you down for a week I know it's not going to be fun but think of being clean it's worth it at any and all cost. Run from the drugs that stalk you and want to destroy you and all that you love in life. The Duct tape and chicken soup therapy is what you would get from me.

And some weed! haha then i will actually want to eat the chicken soup. Thank you for the kind words.

-KK