fucking fuck

Well, I have been trying to get into this state funded program for a while. Its kinda for crazy people. Part of a plan I been working on lately. Well the first visit went well, I was really high on benzos and dxm and totally put on a good show and passed the first step.

Well there are four steps. today was step two and I acted real chill and sober and said I have mood swings which is why I was like that the other day. I thought that would help me, but he acted like I seem to normal and might not meet the requirements. I dunno if I should step it up a notch or what, because I have put a lot of time in this.

I would hate to get denied at the next step after all this work.

Other than that I been ok. Just chilled with my gma and talked alot about my life and how its not so hot right now. Well I was saying all the negative stuff, she was just neutral. Its fucked up but I can get through it.

Im hoping to get into this program, they may give me some crazy meds i dont take, but i might also get some I need. If I don't get into this program then I don't get to have help right now.
don't have resources to see a doc or insurance
 
Ok man if you really need some anti anxiety pills just dont take anything for a few days and then the doc should be able to see the "real" you....well sort of just a lil withdrawals twitches and you shall get your benzos. believe me I'm completely lost without mine.
 
So what kind of program is this? Addictions treatment? Mental health? I don't quite get what you're trying to do here.
 
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