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Fucking Bullshit

jaggedpills

jaggedpills

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So the first REAL person I have talked to about my drug use, suicidal thoughts & all that other shit seemed very interested & like supportive & even shared some of her own problems with me. Then she starts smoking & wants me to call up my coke connect. WTF :/ I ended up smoking & calling him, I'm so upset right now. Is that the only fucking reason she talked to me!?!?!
 
Next time you talk to her about these sort of issues, don't call up your connect when she asks and see if she still wants to talk.
 
A think a lot of us have learned the hard way that many of the people in our lives were there for opportunistic reasons - that they were "associates" rather than friends.
 
I really hope she was genuin about everything. I've never had someone there for me like that.. Now I'm debating on if she would still be there without the drug use... If being clean is more important than having someone meaningful in my life??
 
What's she like usually? It's not realistic or healthy to expect that friends will always put our needs before their own, but they should be willing to do so occasionally.
 
I've been in that situation. Even at my complete worst I will NEVER call my friend in recovery to pick up for me, even if it was my last resort. Fuck her. Seriously. She honestly is not concerned with your current state. She's completely using you. Sorry if this is harsh, I've been that girl once.
We are here. We are real. We are listening.
 
Might be better off finding some REAL friends who aren't coke heads and who care about your problems without expecting something in return (assuming you do the same for them).

Sorry. That really sucks. People can be selfish c*nts sometimes :(
 
I doubt that the only reason that she talked to you was to get drugs.

Maybe hearing you talk about drugs led to her craving. When you are trying improve your life, the only new relationships that you have should be positive.

I have ended relationships with people because we enabled on another. It's shitty, but it's for the best.
 
If I wanted to get clean I wouldn't talk to a fellow drug user. Being an addict drugs are at the forefront of our lives. The one thing you have in common more than anything else is using. I've made the same mistakes myself. As an addict, birds of a feather flock together. Almost all of my friends are pill heads or dope shooters. They aren't going to be much help in me getting clean. Just gonna help me stay using.

Find someone clean to talk to. Even if it's the NA hotline or a counselor, a clean complete stranger is going to more help than a using friend.
 
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